Prologue
The Desire To Be Reincarnated
"IF YOU are not created in my womb, your father will not leave me! This is all your fault why we are poor! Just die!"
"Hey, nerd! You are reading fantasy books again?! Are you really a loser? Scram! Go and buy me some food using your allowance!"
"Die already you son of a demon! Why do I have to have a son like you! Die already! You are the reason why I am having a bad life right now! Die!"
"Die loser! A nerd and a pathetic guy like you doesn't have any place here in school! Just jump on the window already so everyone can be happy!"
"I don't want to have a son like you! Die!'
….
What's going on...?
Where am I?
Why are all of the bad memories I have in school and with mom are flashing all at once like there is a camera rolling in my head?
A-And... why is it so dark here? What is this place? And why do I feel like my whole body is sinking into very cold water? What really happened...?
I can't see anything more than my past memories that keep flashing at a high speed in my head.
As far as I know I was on my way back home, reading the new fantasy book that I bought using my saved allowance in the familiar street that I always walk. And suddenly, when I was already one meter away from our house, a sudden loud noise of a car at my back enveloped my hearing and as I turned to the blinding light of the four wheeler behind my back— I already lost consciousness.
And as I gain my senses back, I am already here in this dark place. Wondering why I need to see all those horrible past memories of mine with my mom and my bullies.
I smiled in my thoughts as I slowly grasped what happened after I lost consciousness.
I am not stupid. I read these kinds of scenes in those fantasy novels I read.
I died.
I met with an unfortunate car accident that's why I am here in this place, watching all the abuse, depressive, and toxic past memories of mine from my past life.
And it is funny though, because all the flashbacks that are popping in my head are all bad memories. Because in this life, it is either I get beat up by my always-drunk-mother or get a beat up sessions and embarrassed by my bullies in school. It is either way around all the time.
It is really funny looking back at those though. Because as I look back at it, I questioned myself:
'Is that really a life you can call?'
Its looks like hell. No... a living hell actually. It's not a life. Because there is no moment since I was born that I get a taste of a good life. I don't even know what life was. I only know the meaning of it from those books that I read already.
Yeah, those fantasy novel books. I remembered them. I can't forget them. They are the refuge and solace of mine on that hell-like living. They are my escape from my fuck up life.
They are the reason why I know how to feel emotions. How to feel sad (when the protagonist is oppressed), how to feel happy (when the main characters is victorious), how to be loved (when the characters patriotism is showcase), how to have friends (when the unity and loyalty of the characters show up), how it really feels to lost someone (when the main characters dies) — everything.
Those fantasy books are the real family and bestfriend I have had in my past life. Those books are my companion that didn't leave my side even an inch.
And also, they are also the reason why I met with a car accident.
I wasn't paying attention to the road because I am too focused on reading the epilogue of that new fantasy novel.
Ha…
Funny ending, right? .... funny...
No. It sucks. It is really a frustrating ending because I don't even experience the life of a normal young person like me that I should. It is really depressing that I only experienced this life of agony because of the people who blame me for the sins that I didn't even do...
That's why...
If... just if... reincarnation is true?
I want to be reborn again and try my luck. I want to be reborn to any worlds that the universe can offer if regression is true, so I can experience again those experiences that I want to have such as feeling to have a family and friends that will love you unconditionally and support you for what you love and for your dreams.
I want to experience those to feel what it is like... I don't dream of any luxury. I just badly want to experience that because I don't even have the slightest idea what the feeling of it is.
How to be embraced by someone that cares for you.
That's why... if reincarnation is true?
I want that to happen. And if I am lucky to be reborn again, I will do my best to change the world where the universe will take me so oppression and adversities will not prosper and exist.
I will fight for the weak and lift the oppressed beings. I will devote myself to those who are being pushed by the iron hand and look down so a guy like my old self, Ash Eastwood, will no longer exist and live forever.
So they can experience the life they should have experienced. They can smile and be happy at their heart content without worrying about anything else. I will create a world where diversities are embraced and accepted. I will be the wall of those who are being slandered. I will be the patron and the advocate of peace and hope.
So…
If reincarnation is true... please, let me be the chosen one so I can make my dreams come true for others.
Please.... please...
just please...
Regressed me... so I can save someone's life. Give me a chance to save the people who are experiencing a bad life right now like my old self, universe.
Please...
Just this once... please…
...
….
...
Hahaha…
Is the side effect of being hitted by a four wheeler truck?
Reincarnation?
Universe?
Other worlds?
Really Ash? You are believing like those are real now? Do you really have a crack in the head like your bullies tell you?
This is not a fantasy book you are reading. This is reality. You seem to forget that. You are now dead. And if someone is dead, that is their ending. That is their finish line. Don't hope for some miracle because it will not happen-
[Alert! A high spirited soul is being detected! Kai!]
Huh?? What is that monotonous voice of a woman as of now that I heard? I am going crazy right now? Where does it come from?
[Alert! Performing regression for this high spirited soul to be reincarnated! Kai!]
[Alert! Finding the right body for the high spirited soul! It will take a couple of seconds. Please wait. Kai!]
W-Wait...! Wait...! I am not following any what is happening right now!
A mysterious monotonous voice that is talking in my head? Reincarnation? And a new body??
… Wait!
Is this what I read from those fantasy novels? A system that is talking to me through my consciousness?! Is this really true?!
[Alert! Finding a perfect and suitable body to the high spirited soul is completed. Kai!]
[Alert! Performing now to transcend the high spirited soul to the body. Performing. Please wait. Kai!]
O my God... it is really happening! I am really being reincarnated! Shit! I can't believe this! I am really going to another world and create anew!
[Alert! The high spirited soul will feel a little bit nausea and dizziness for a minute because of transcending. Advisable to prepare for it! Kai!]
Oh, wait! I'm feeling like I am being pulled into a strong whirlpool now. Is this what the system pertains to? Ah! Whatever! Let's go! I am excited to see what I am going to be!
My dreams! Here I come!
[Alert! transcending the high spirited soul to the new body is completed. Kai!]
"Yes! I got reincarnated!" As I jump over joy with my new body, I also see my new form in the small lake in this dark place where I spawned. And as I see myself again, I almost died again because of shock. Because not only did I not reincarnate as a human but also... I reincarnated as JUST AS-
"I am a Caterpillar??!!"
"Alert! Congratulations for being the First Demon Caterpillar on the whole continent of Livettia! You are a unique race! Kai!"
What?!
To Be Continued...