I walked into the hospital with my mom.My mom and I came here almost everyday for my test and check up and almost everyday I put on a smile not to keep my friends and family worried although deep down I knew I was dying bit by bit.
Justina my recommended nurse took care of me and loved me like her child.
"Hey Ginny,how are you doing?"she asked.
"Apart from me dying, yeah I'm fine"I replied her question knowing fully well it was not easy..
"C'mon Ginny I've got this I'm sure the tryout will work on you and plus it's a good thing your mom ain't here to listen to what you just said"She calmly said to me.
What she said was definitely true my mom would break if I had said that to her,she took things seriously.
Few minutes later my mom came in after the test.
"How is she,is the treatment working?"She asked Justina.
Justina took a few seconds breather and replied to her saying this.
"Hmmm...I don't know yet but it will be noticed tomorrow during her check up but make sure she eats healthy and live responsibly like she always do,her normal routine everyday and more improvement will appear."
They both discussed my issues like I wasn't there.
"Geez Christ guys I'm right here"I said smiling.
"Oh...we know"My mom answered smiling back at me.
"Ok... I'll be waiting in the car"I came down from the bed heading towards the car.
On my way I was greeting everyone has usual but there's an old woman in particular I love paying more attention to.So I decided to chat with her a little,I stepped into her room cause she was in a VIP special room.Yeah,I know you're probably thinking she's rich obviously she is,her child's family is "The Richard"if you don't know them they are massively rich anyways as I stepped in I saw her chatting with a young guy of my age I don't normally see him around since I've started my illness so I was wondering maybe he's her personal assistant but I thought about it he was way too young for that.
"Hello Grandma"I hugged her.
"Oh, darling I was thinking about you I thought you wouldn't be coming around today."She said to me.
"Nah,my test was a bit late today"I actually noticed I was been observed by the guy across the room.
"Oh ok,hmmmm Ginny this is my grandson Benjamin he came back from South Korea"Grandma explained although I was wondering why I needed the info cause it was of no use but my brain thought of another version of it,calm no pressure I just had to smile.
"Really that's nice"I acted surprised.
"Yea he's Cassey twin brother"She gave further info.
I'm sure you don't Cassey, she's my best friend since I was diagnosed plus she got my back in the times of pain,so that's who Cassey is to me.
"Oh I'm Ginny west." I stretched out my hand to shake him like they do in the movies it's funny but I had to do it.
"I'm Benjamin Richard"He replied smiling.
All of a sudden Grandma started acting weird in a good way though.
" This is nice, I'm getting some rest now so you guys should move out"She laid on her bed...
"Ok we'll be leaving, have a nice day"Ben pecked her on the forehead.
I stepped out first walking as fast as my little legs could take me but in the same way I didn't want it to look awkward but unfortunately or fortunately he caught up to me.
"Hey hold up Ginny."He called out my name.
I paused for a bit thinking"God nooo not now,I don't want my movie to end in tears."I understood what I meant by that.I turned around with a smile on my face again.
"Yea hey Ben"I walked forward towards him.
He came forward has well I was wondering where the hell will my mom be.
"Are you always this cheerful?"Ben asked me.
"Hmmm,what do you mean by that?"I answered a question with a question.
"Do you smile every minute?"He's finally elaborate.
"Geez I actually don't know what to say"I truly don't know what to say for the very first time in my right mind.
" Ok, where are you headed?"He asked.
"I was heading to my mom's car"I got an answer to that question..
"Alright I'll walk"Ben offered.
"That's nice of you but thanks I'll do that on my own"I kindly refused the offer,I know you're probably wondering "why?" I'll answer that later.
"No,I insist"He sounded politely demanding.
"Fine"I accepted Even though I didn't want to conversation to get any deeper I only open up to my best friend Casey Richard but what are the odds anyways he might not talk to me he looks like a girls boy anyways.
"So...."
"God no he's about to start a conversation"I said to myself.
"So...why are you at the hospital?" he grilled me has we made it to my mom's car.
"Huh...the doctors found out that I was having brain tumor and it's eating me up slowly so I have to be here almost everyday for my medical test and check up"I answered but the least thing I want right now is being pitied.
"Wow that's sucks"He told me.
"Yea it does"I sighed.
I was really feeling down about the conversation as usual all I got to do is smile.
"I didn't mean it that way though"He tried to correct himself.
"What else do you mean?"I asked.
"Huh.....what I really meant was hmmm...."He obviously sounded confused I guess I should spare him the trouble and just leave.
"Ok later"I left.
"Hold on I'm sorry"He apologized.
I didn't bother turning back I kept on pacing forward,I literally couldn't stand him.He watched me leave hoping I could stopped.
I got to the car finally some peace and quiet I hoped but my bestfriend Casey called me.
"Hey girl,how are you doing?"Casey questioned me as my bestie.
It's really nice to have Casey around like I said she's always there for me.
"I'm cool, What are you up to?"I looked around if my mom was close by but she wasn't.
"Yea I'm fine,I have a cool gist for you babe"she sounded delighted.
I knew she wanted to tell me about her twin,I knew she had a twin brother but I've never seen him before.
"What will that be?"I was sounding eager to know even though I wasn't I didn't just want to ruin the moment for her.
"My twin brother is back Benjamin."She burst out her happiness she obviously had.
"Why though,why is he back now?"I was desperate to know.
"Hmm... he said he misses the family so he came here for the summer, I'm not sure if he is going to attend senior year here after the summer,why did you ask?"Casey explained at the same time was wondering why on earth would I asked that question when the guy in question is not known to me yet.
Basically she doesn't know I've met her brother and I didn't tell her because at that time it wasn't useful.
"No no nothing just asking, I'll be back soon I'm waiting for my mom,oh She's here gotta go bye love you"I changed the topic.
"I love you too"She replied with confusion in her voice.
My mom walked up to the car with a smile on her face,I was concerned about that because on a normal basis my mom has a neutral look everytime we came out of the hospital but this time was an happy look,I was curious so I asked.
"Mom,why did you take so much time?"
"Huh I spoke to Doctor Scott and he told me that they can operate like a craniotomy or something"She said has she enter her guy putting the seat belt on.
I knew what it was, This procedure involves making an incision in the scalp and removing a piece of bone from the skull to give the neurosurgeon access to the tumor. Carefully planned surgical procedures can help the neurosurgeon address challenging skull base tumors.When you have an issue like me you intend to know things like this only if you're smart though.
" Oh that's nice, it's a 50/50 percent chance"I said.
"Yea but I know you'll be ok."She comforted me.
I smiled hoping it will go has planned cause it will suck for my mom if she loses me I believe she'll stay in the couch all socked in her tears.If I die my ghost won't bare to see her like that so I've got to take my chances.
I thought that all the way to my house where Casey was waiting for me.I stepped out of the car to hug her, I've missed her in the few our I spent in the hospital.
"Oh my darling,I've missed you do much and I know you must have too"Casey held my hand.
I gave the expression that tells it all,we held hands moving towards my house while my mom was behind us.
"So where's your twin brother?"I asked.
I saw no need for that but I guess I couldn't hold it back to myself.
"Hmm,he went with my dad to pick some things from the store"Casey knew there was something wrong.
I stepped in with her,I found my dad in the kitchen cooking.
"Oh ok,hmmm dad what are you cooking"I asked but so you know I love my mom's food eventually everytime my dad meals always wins.
"Mac and cheese"He replied picking the cheese from the refrigerator.
"Thank God!!!"I was relieved at least something good that I don't have to pretend about.
"How was the test ?"My dad asked as I was going to my room with Casey.
"Hmm..it was good!"I yelled gently entering my room.
Casey was smiling all the way through,I would really want to tell you why but I don't know.
"So Ginny"Casey called my name.
"What's up?"I took off my clothes to put on a more casual ones.
"Uhhh...On my IG Betty posted on her story that she'll be hosting a bonfire by 8"Casey said when she knew my answer will always be.
"No,I don't think I'm up for that."
The energy that I kinda have but I can't bare people of my age tell me "Oh Ginny are you getting better?"Casey knew I hated being pitied.
"I knew would be your reply,so I went I ahead to tell your parents and they said yeah sure you could come"
At that time my mind exploded like the tumor has taken over I was so confused and angry but a little bit.I rushed down stairs to ask if it was true cause Casey might be pulling my legs she followed behind.
"Mom,Dad!!!!!" I called out.
"What is it honey?"My Mom replied.
"Casey just told me you accepted the fact I'll to going to Betty's bonfire party,is that true?"I asked for confirmation.
"Ginny baby, I'm glad Casey is your bestfriend or bestie as they call it these days"My dad intervened.
I know what would happen next but I'm not a spoiler even tho it's the story of my life.
"What your dad is trying to say is going to this party would make us happy"My mom concluded.
"God!!! normal parents will be like NO"I said..
"Who told you we're a normal parents?Food will be ready soon"My dad told me.
I turned around and began to stomp on the way to my room.
"Stomping won't change anything it will just bring the house"Casey said laughing.
"Please take care of her"My mom pleaded.
"Oh I will "Casey assured my mom.
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Some hours went by after dinner, chatting and games with my Parents and Casey all of a sudden her phone dinged for a Instagram notification.
"Mr and Mrs West we gotta go it's fine for the bonfire"Casey informed them.
"Alrighty then m, have fun and be safe ok most importantly Ginny darling be warm put on your head warmer"My mom hugged me.
"Okay mom I will"I said..
" It's a long drive Mrs West she'll be fine" Casey held my hands.
"Ok ok have fun"My mom released me from the hugs.
We came out of the house I realized that I forgot to take my AEDs 'Anti-epileptic drugs' but I decided to brush it off my mind,it was obviously important and it's a 50/50 percent something will go wrong but I have to take my chances.A clean red jeep appeared and Benjamin was in it,hold up I didn't know he was coming with us.
"Let's go Ginny"Casey ran towards the jeep.
"Hold up"I ran with her.
She was giggling and shouting, Benjamin didn't say anything all through the ride to Betty's bonfire,so I thought he's definitely a girls boy.As soon as we got to the party Betty came popping out of wherever so came from wherever she was and was all over Ben I wasn't jealous but I saw it strange it turns out we've known each other since when they were two.
"Welcome guys!!!"Betty leapt with joy.
"Woah,how are you doing?"Ben responded with a surprised look.
"Hey Betty"Casey waved.
'"Oh hello Casey didn't see you there"Betty rolled her eyes.
Betty and Casey were never in favour of each other this started since grade 7,and it's none of my business though.
"Oh Ginny how are you doing?"Betty asked me.
I gave her the exact vibe she gave to Casey.
"Oh it's cool"I said in a shabby way.
"Ok where are the drinks?"Benjamin asked.
"C'mon"Betty held his hands and pulled him to a small close corner to hook up.
Casey and I saw a couch to seat on,we kept on talking and laughing so loud until when a guy walked up to us and looked at my bestie then he said.
"You wanna dance?"He stared into her eyes I won't denied he was really cute with nice abs.
"Hmm,no keep on moving thank you"Casey replied in a snobbish way.
To me it was really dumb of her to say, fortunate for him she's single I turned to her with a what the eff face.
"Noo,what she meant to say is of course I will"I spoke for her.
"Sorry don't mind my bestie here, please kindly move forward."
I held her hands and placed it on the guy's shoulder then I knew if she had passed the boy she won't forgive herself.
She went with the guy which I don't know his name yet and move to the beats.
"Ginny are you sure you don't want me to stay,will you be okay?"She asked .
The least thing I want is to be pitied or I should be watched.
"Of course go on"I assured her.
Casey left with Williams that's the guy she's with, looking at it with a short period of time she was happy with him.I stood up the stretch a little I was obviously bored alone,I was walking on the rocks trails till I got to where the other kids 'Cool kids' were people like Betty,Benjamin and co.
"Oui"one of them yelled out.
I paused for a moment,I was deliberating on if i should go back to them.
"What is it this time?"I went back.
"Hmm nothing much,I just heard that you're here at Betty's bonfire party so seeing you got me thinking,Yo you should have a blast of your life before you pass on"Gideon said giving me a bottle of beer.
It's my pleasure to describe him for you he is a tall piece of chunks and any chance he gets he proves his stupidity.
"No thanks"I refused.
All through Ben was staring at me without stopping Gideon.I was disappointed actually I don't really know why, cause I really don't know him.
"C'mon just a little won't hurt"Gideon was still persistent.
"She said No, that's not too hard to understand huh is it Gideon"A guy from behind said to Gideon.
I turned around to see it was but it appeared to be my ex (Jacob) who left me after I told me I had brain tumor.i was so surprised I couldn't talk he came in with his leather jacket with a well combed curly hair and pierced ear and nose but the the cute type like bad boy in a good way.I felt like kissing him at that spot,got to hold myself back.
"Who are you pretty darling?"Gideon insult him.
I don't know why dudes get angry when they're called PRETTY.
"Stop it!"Benjamin added.
I was surprised cause when I was been harassed he didn't utter a word.
"You're being a big dummy right now."I told Gideon.
"I don't think he's worth your word let's go"Jacob said holding my hand as we walked away.
"Oh,yeah carry your pretty girl along"Gideon exclaimed.
Jacob stopped moving and was about to turn around,then I said.
"Don't, remember he's not worth it."
All through this conversation Benjamin was watching the back and forth argument he wasn't concerned about it.For me I saw him has a dog that needed command,it wasn't like he cared but I expected him to save me but I guess he doesn't owe me anything.
Jacob and I walked out the scene.He walked me to a quiet place where there was a long bench placed there,we were silent for five minutes.
"Hmmm, this is awkward"He broke the silence.
"Yeah it is"I laughed.
"Huh.. I owe you an apology"He said.
I knew what he was talking about but I didn't just want to remember those Times it broke me the last time so bringing it up,well I don't know.
"What apology?..I don't know what you're talking about"I rambled.
"You know what I'm talking about.... anyways for leaving you without explaining the reason"He explained.
Oh I know the reason he couldn't bare the fact I might die and the least he could do is to leave me in the moment I needed him the most.
"Hmm..."I was speechless at the point but I had alot of words.
"And I'm sorry like really sorry and I really want you in my life"He said to me.
Gosh my head was really heavy oh no it's not the fact that he wants me back but the fact I forgot to take my AEDs and it's starting to affect me,Casey was having fun so I didn't want to ruin that for her.Ginny get yourself together.
"Hmmmm....I accept your apology truly but..."I held my head lightly.
"But nothing Ginny I love you truly"He continued.
"Jacob you're cute and all but sorry I just can't...."I stood up walking towards Casey we should head home I couldn't hold on longer.
Walking towards that direction was Benjamin I bumped into him.Then he began his conversation.
"Watch where you're going" He said..
Even though he was the one at fault I chose to apologize instead.
"I'm sorry"I took two step forward when I fell, everything was blank I didn't know what happened but I definitely knew it was the seizure attack.