In both her past life and this life, she owed Yu Minglang an apology, failing to reciprocate his deep love and making him wait for her for a lifetime in his past life and racking his brain for her illnesses in this life.
If only she were a normal person, if only she could control her own feelings.
But illnesses were not within her control, and many people in society misunderstand those with mental illnesses, thinking that they can control their conditions if they try hard enough. If they can't control it, it's seen as melodramatic, self-destructive, and selfish.
Many people don't understand pre-marriage phobia, OCD, or even depression.
If you love him so much, why not marry him? Melodramatic!
If you know washing your hands isn't good, why keep doing it? Poor self-control!
Why always think about depression and suicide when life is so good? Spineless!