"Mr. Cliff, what exactly have you proven? Maybe, possibly if today it were a beggar instead, as a woman, there might be some involuntary response, albeit slight. But you... this is the result you get! Because you are already on my blacklist in my heart, and that will never be lifted!"
Is she comparing him to a beggar? And to think she rates him even lower than a beggar?
This woman who had once seemed so serene and indifferent that he wanted to shatter her composure, and at times so timid that he couldn't bear it, had become someone else. So, when he decided to welcome Abigail Summer back to Star Garden, he didn't realize the depth of her influence on him, thinking only that it would be over once it was done, that it might even serve to let her toughen up a bit, to find her true self again. He wanted her to live in her own colors, not cower inside her protective shell, merely aiming for a secure and uneventful existence.