A few days had passed since meeting Saz.
Leon tried to control himself but every time he had his cell phone in front of him, he impulsively dialed his number, hoping each time to hear his voice, an answer that, to his disappointment, never happened.
He had a lot of faith, and he knew that if he was given the opportunity he could definitely be with Saz. He knew he would choose him. The first time they slept together was incredible, and even then, he told him he never does the same person twice. Apparently he was the exception to the rule.
On the other hand, there was his boyfriend He couldnt ignore the fact that his boyfriend has been calling him since Sunday. No matter how much he forced himself to reply, he did not manage to call him back, or even reply to any messages. He knew he had to do something.
His mother knocked on the door.
"Leon, someone is looking for you."
He opened the door, his mother looked at him, concerned.
Before he could ask who it was, his mother disappeared up the stairs.
When he reached the living room, he let out a barely audible groan. There, sitting on the couch, was his boyfriend.
He looked up when Leon entered the room. His serious expression and his murderous look told him that it was going to get ugly.
He felt sorry for him, but at that moment he realized, he had no longer feelings for him. How could he tell him that it was over?
"What is it? It seems like you saw a ghost" his tone was sour, something that clashed with his delicate features, and his beautiful eyes "Of course I must be a ghost, since you haven't answered any of my calls. It looks like you've already buried me."
Leon realized that his partner wasn't angry, he was mad as hell.
"I was about to, have been very busy," he said, not sounding very considerate.
"It's interesting to know what your preferences are."
"You're right. We have to talk."
"Talk? Now? And what exactly you wanna say? Because I don't think you've been thinking about apologizing at all..." He was still sitting there with his eyes fixed on him, daring him to answer.
"I don't have to. After all, you're the one who decided not to come with me."
His boyfriend smiled sideways, shaking his head.
"Oh Leo, your arrogance has no limits..." his eyes were fixed on him again "I don't understand how you can be saying something like that. Fine, let's talk."
"We should leave it for next time, you're too nervous."
"Not a damn thing. Tell me right now what you were planning to tell me" he was raising his voice.
Leon had the feeling that he was looking for a good fight and he was getting it, he didn't care anymore, he was grumpy about the whole situation.
His sweet eyes were shining, he thought he would burst into tears at any moment, and he felt suddenly bad about it
" I'm sorry."
A tear rolled down the guy's cheek. Suddenly he felt an enormous desire to hold him in his arms but that was not the solution. Everything was over.
"You are sorry? Hard to believe, you don't feel...ANYTHING! "tears rolled down his face "it's my fault. I'm the idiot, for having chosen you."
Leon looked at him stunned, he didn't know how to react.
"I don't feel anything for you anymore," he finally said. The young man did not seem surprised. He stopped crying and looked at him with contempt.
"Did you meet someone?," his voice trembled.
"No." He didn't have to explain either.
"Liar," he pushed him with all the weight of his body, Leon staggered, surprised by the attack.
Tears rolled down the young man's cheeks again.
"You're a piece of shit. Do you think I don't know you have someone else? As if you didn't know this hell we live in, is a pretty small circle.
"Fuck, who told him that?" Thought Leon
"You know what? I regret dating you and spending time together, because now I know, I never meant anything to you," he was serious with his cheeks still wet with tears, "but I can't turn back time so I have to fuck myself"
"This discussion makes no sense."
"Who is it?"
"Don't you know? Didn't they already tell you?"
"the dancer."
So they had seen him, Leon wondered who, exactly.
"Great, I'm such an idiot that I was still hoping it was a misunderstanding" his voice was cracking " and it had to be him.." he added, obviously hurt.
"Let's drop the subject...."
"No, now I wanna know, why Saz, is the way he fucks? Good, isn't he? I guess because he doesn't lack experience. Did he charge you? Because that's the only thing he...."
Leon's expression changed.
"You know the exit, right?"
The young man looked at him with disdain, he approached him until he was only a few millimeters away from his face.
"Leo, you were wrong about me. I'm going to make you pay" his voice sounded sharp, as he turned to leave, Leon's hand held him by the arm. He felt afraid, not for him but...
"If you touch him a single hair ...I swear I'll...""
"What? Are you going to kill me?" his eyes filled with tears again, he looked at him incredulously, "You, son of a bitch."
The blonde guy slipped away and headed for the exit. The sound of the door closing brought him back from his thoughts. He looked at his phone, and realized that he should call Seleika and Manon to meet that day but he didn't feel like it.
The phone rang in his hand
"What do you want, Seleika?"
"Hun, you're in a bad mood, may I know what's wrong before you hang up?"
" I broke up with my boyfriend"
"What did you do to him?"
Leon got angry when he heard the question.
"Hey, why am I always the one to blame?"
"Because I know you, sweetheart, you can be the worst... as a partner."
"I think I'm in love, Sele"
"Again?" Seleika let out an ironic laugh from the other side "Now tell me something new."
"This is different, seriously, it's something that never happened to me before and... I'm going crazy and I can't even reach him" he claimed in despair.
"Oh Leo, he seems to have hit you hard, is the dancer?
"He is insanely hot."
"I believe you, if there's one thing you have to be recognized for, it's good taste."
"Ah what should I do?"
"Leo, listen to me, if you're really interested in him, look for him. Otherwise, enough with the whimsy. That's it."
"What do you mean?"
"Leon, you like someone, somehow you always get to date them, then you get bored and you throw them away. You should take into account their feelings too."
"Well, don't exaggerate. Nobody here is looking for marriage, ok?"
" I am not, wait until someones does the same to you,"
"You're my friend and..."
Seleila sounded annoyed as she replied
"So...I am supposed to go along with the shit you pull? Call things by their name hun, you're a bastard with your partners ... but a great friend!"
Leo sighed.
"Ok, tell me love, what were you calling for?"
"Oh right, we are heading to the Theater with Manon. Are you coming?
"Is her brother coming?"
"Leo"
"Sorry"
"At the usual place at 8 pm."
After hanging up Leon went back to the sofa, his mother was also sitting there leafing through a magazine, when Leon approached her she put the magazine aside and looked at him seriously.
"No mom please, lecture for tomorrow... today I had too much."
"Did you at least apologize to him?"
"No, we're done."
"You'll know what you're doing, you're a big boy now."
He got up to get ready for the night, he should at least try to enjoy as much as possible.