BREAKING NEWS!!
NEW COUPLE OF THE NEW YEAR?
Rapper Jun Seo had been spotted hanging out with the rookie junior from the same company, Soo Ha from HOPEGIRLS. They have been spotted since January. Sources said they love spending time alone in the rapper's studio.
The agency has yet to confirm.
***
I don't think it's a good idea to read the comment section. It will crumble my emotions, stack on my insecurities, and hurt my feelings the most. I know this is a risk of having a relationship with an idol. I chose this road. I have to face it.
Jun did call, and convinced me to rethink about my decision. Saying that we can sort things out and it's just a misunderstanding between us. Yet, the conversation was kinda hurried. He seemed to rush over something. I can feel nothing.
If you ask me about my feelings towards him, I can say that I do love him, but it's not the same anymore. Ever since the incident at the practice room, I feel somehow distant from Jun. We still talk, and we still haven't decided to break up or at least take a break. He spends his time promoting his new collab with Soo Ha.
It's all business, he said.
Nevertheless, I'm not a saint. My patience level is on the peak but not for long. I know, someday I will explode. I didn't expect it to be so soon.
But I guess, time never fools you.
***
I was standing in front of the agency's building. Why? Because I had enough of being a fool sitting alone, waiting for someone who forgot about his dating schedule.
I'm still a relevant person who can think. But what I saw made my mind insane.
The explanation makes me even more devastated.
"It's all for branding, jagi..."
"Since when you and Soo Ha are branding?" I asked him.
Jun ditched me just because he wanted to feed these shippers who have a delulu about this imaginary couple thing; JunHa couple. He does not explain his current status.
"You're the one who refuses to date publicly!"
"Have you read the comment section?" I ask.
The comment section... I lost my words when I read the comment section.
@gigibunny: it's good that Jun Oppa has a relationship with a young girl. Rather than dating some psycho 30+ groomer.
@hopeboys4ever: it's good to know that Jun Oppa has ditched his old saggy girlfriend. I mean, she's a sus. How can she date someone 10 years younger than her? Fxxxking pedo!
@amesipachy: it's just a rumor. The woman is not even his girlfriend. Maybe she's the one who imagines herself as his girlfriend. Shameless!
@yurijiko: we stan JunHa! #junha #lover
"Tell me, with those hateful comments, how can I date you in public?" I asked Jun.
I never raised the question before. Probably because I never feel insecure around Jun? And now with this Soo Ha thing, suddenly I feel like having a rival?
We fought again that evening. On the day that we were supposed to celebrate the most meaningful moment of us.
The 1st anniversary.
Only a year. The feeling starts to fade. Imagine, what will happen after this? Will we survive the crisis or not?
"You're being emotional!"
"Me? Emotional? Am I being emotional when I ask my boyfriend where did he go that made him forget that he has a date today?" I asked Jun.
"Okay, I admit I was wrong. I'm sorry for not informing you that I have a scheduled live streaming today-"
"Schedule? That means, it's set already..."
"Jagi..."
"And you didn't say anything? Seriously?" I asked.
Jun just put his head down. I don't know if he truly felt guilty for not informing me about the schedule or something else.
I walk towards him, staring at him with my so-done face.
"You know what... if you feel like this promotion is important to you... Just go ahead. I appreciate that you love your job that much. I don't mind it at all, Jun. You know me more than enough to know that I'm being respectful all this time," I said. "And here I am respecting your choice in life. I think it's time that we should part ways. We can still be friends, I'm still your supporter. But I don't think this relationship will work."
I took something out of my bag and handed it to him. He took the small box while shaking hands. It's a locket with his name engraved with mine. Coupling necklaces, a handmade present that I chose personally for him. He looked at me with his gloomy eyes.
"Happy anniversary, Jun Seo. This is the first and last. Hope you will achieve success in your life," I said before I left him hanging alone in the foyer of the agency, and made a promise to myself that I wouldn't cry even if it felt hurt.
It's not worth it.