October 24

Time?, Eve couldn't remember while walking aime lessly after running half a mile on one leg of her Snickers and a dead phone. Drenched to the hill of her feet and out of breath, her heart ached to her stomach, she wanted to throw up but tried that option already. She wanted to scream but couldn't find her voice . Where tears running down her eyes eve couldn't make a difference with it and the rain falling heavily.

" Am tired"

She said , looking straight ahead, lifeless but still feeling pains .

"Am tired "

Eve blurted out again, her feets dragging now . eve fell to her knees and throw up again, her thought where to try and end this , end this pain and lonelyness . Regret field her sorrowful thought as suicide attempted to slip into her head while she walked straight towards the sea .

"Am tired , I've done enough"

She sobbed now togging at her half Opened t-shirt and beating her chest, her jeans heavy now like dumbbell made it hard for her to I've more . She wanted this to end so badly, desperately scratching and beating her chest as if she wanted to scoop out her heart and crush it .

"Yeah , I've done enough"

She concluded , looking up to the sky eve smiled . On her feets now , eve heads toward the shore of the sea . Waved hit on it like a typhoon, unpredictable and unseen . Eve didn't care, she sat and stared with a smile on her face plasted in like the devil got what he wanted .

"I don't have the luxury to cry , to weep to feel sorry for myself. I don't deserve the peace of mind that I craved for. It was pointless to begin with "

Eve laughed impressed by her idotic day dreams and wishful thinking . She wandered?! where all this positive sides of her started from , when she began to hope and dream and when she began to forgive herself after So many years .

Reaching out to the back of her, pulling out a gun , it felt heaver than usual. Probably because of the rain or probably it's because she feels hesitant to do what she's thinking.

Her thought grew deeper and her mind became foggy. Her line of vision was just the gun on her hand , the sigP320 . It was a gift she got from starting her new job from Theo.

"Theo..."

She sobbed again

"Am sorry "

The nose now pointed to her head

" AM SORRY!! "

She screamed before pulling the trigger.....