LAURA
Throwing that dagger was the most difficult thing to do in my entire life as a mother and as a police officer.
KAI
I feel like a failure for not being there for my best friend all this while. For going MIA on her. I shouldn't have pulled myself away even though I was trying to protect my heart.
BENJAMIN
We lost a member of the pack and it would leave a very big scar we would never recover from.
"It's been two weeks now and Zayn hasn't said a word" Lucas says, Standing with a cup of coffee in his hands.
"I don't expect him to be talking to anyone, his mate died and none of us knows how that feels' 'Kate replies from the couch they're sitting on.
"He needs time," Olivia adds.
"Time" Benjamin echoes. "Losing a mate Is like a soccer player losing his legs, it's like a writer losing his sight, it's like losing your soul and you're left empty" Benjamin pauses for a moment, thinking. "It's a mental pain. A soul crushing pain." Benjamin's tone becomes somber when he finishes. "Time isn't going to solve anything" Justin sighs and takes a drink of his coffee as everyone thinks.
Slowly knocking on the door Jake walks in, carrying a tray in his hand and his eyes scanning the room. He spots Zayn seated on the corner across the room, watching video clips of Diana on loop, some videos they had made with both his phone and her phone.
"Zayn?" Jake calls, softly walking into the room where Zayn sits on the floor, knees brought up to his chest. Jake places the tray down next to him, "Can I talk to you?"
He sits on the ground next to Zayn, he's about to start speaking when Zayn speaks.
"Is that chocolate?" Jake looks at the glass of chocolate drink and nods frantically because it's been awhile since Zayn's voice was heard.
He stretches his hand taking a hold of the glass before sending it flying across the room resulting in pieces of glass and the liquid shattered everywhere.
Jake stares wide-eyed at the glass shards scattered on the floor, before turning to face Zayn who's sitting next to him, looking sheepish. "She was allergic to chocolate..." he murmurs.
Jake gets back on his feet and starts gathering up all the broken pieces. "It's okay" he assures Zayn. "I'll just... I'll just pick up these pieces, yeah?" He smiles.
Jake returns after disposing and cleaning up the mess that was created. "You need to eat something..." Silence "You haven't had anything to eat for two weeks" Silence "We cannot understand how you feel but we'll always be here for you" Silence.
Jake sighs. "Try to have something to eat, I cooked your favorite -"
"It's all my fault" The words spill out from his mouth before he can stop them."All my fault" They repeat over and over again and it makes tears spring to Jake's eyes because he's so used to seeing Zayn smile every day, to seeing him laugh, to seeing him happy. He never thought it would end this way, he never thought that Zayn would ever be this way. "All my fault"
Zayn doesn't look at Jake but instead keeps staring at the TV "She didn't deserve any of this-" He breaks off, his voice sounding thick and raspy. "None of this, she deserved better" he whispers, the last three words falling from his lips almost too quiet for Jake to hear. But somehow Jake does.
"Zayn-"
"I can't do this" His words are barely audible, but still loud enough for Jake to make out what he's saying. "Please leave" He adds, his voice shaking slightly and Jake can tell he's trying to not cry.
"No, I'm not leaving, I'm your brother and I'm meant to be here for you" Jake kneels down beside him as Zayn buries his face into his hands and begins to sob.
"I want her back" He sobs, "I wanted her back so much. We were supposed to be together forever." He turns his head towards Jake, eyes full of unshed tears "I could have done something...I could have saved her" He continues, his breathing becoming rapid, and his voice getting louder, "I could have-"
"Zayn, shhhh" Jake pulls him into a tight hug, feeling Zayn shaking against him, letting himself get held. He abruptly pulls away running to the toilet and vomiting violently, and crying into the sink, his body racked by his sobs.
Tears roll down Jake's cheeks as he rubs his back, listening to the sound of Zayn's harsh breathing.
"This is bad" Noah murmurs as they all listen to Zayn and Jake from downstairs with their abilities.