From when did it all start to go downhill? Was this my fate from the onset? Was I just treading the path that had already decided upon by my destiny?
Those were questions I found myself contemplating over as the realization of the fact that a life no longer waited for me after this charade.
Loosing Marcus was something I hadn't even considered, even if I had sometimes come up with the thought that he just might be screwing some other woman. But actually loosing him was more heartbreaking and soul crushing than I had imagined.
Maybe I was the selfish one for thinking I could eat my cake and still have it. Or maybe I was just pure evil and the universe was perfect at ensuring evils, such as myself, get their appropriate judgement. And maybe that's why I got served divorce papers after five years of comfortably thinking this would be my forever.
I had no one to blame but myself.
Yes!!
