Trust me, I wasn't myself, like I have never felt this terrified In my entire life until today. Afterwards the hasty race I competed with my self and my shadow, I got to an express-way, I looked left and right, I even looked up to the sky to ensure if I was indeed loosing my sanity and then I turned my face to the ground, I shrieked you chest with my finger like I was trying to pierce it to my chest, I couldn't even noticed when a drip of tears fell off my left eyes, then I said to my self so sorrowfully, "I am lost." it seems like I was still in my illusion of my unconsciousness, I stand at a spot, just immediately the entrance of the busy express-way, I stood there for about one-hour and some minute, I stood right there because I still can't believe that my body is in a location that I have no clue of recognition of that very environment. Then a thought snapped out of my mouth, my mind couldn't even read what I spat out, I'm sure my mind would've been so displeased if it has first crossed it way... just saying. this word came out like water slitting gently off your weak lips, the word reads "do I go back that apartment I found my body?". Upon my staggering lips repeating the words for the second time, then, just then my mind has regained its full stamina to hold that words for processing, guess what, my mind came to realization that this is the only way, and this is the only way I can really get to know how I actually get here. But here comes the problem. This problem left me even more discouraged like never before, this problem is a little but mighty question which came from my sound mind of reasoning, it was actually meant to question my lips which at first brought out this so called only hope, it says "can you re-allocate the way to the apartment you ran out from". It seems I was destined to suffer on Mondays. Me having no choice at hand, decided to find the apartment I never rented or built. Trust me I didn't know where I was going, all I knew I was doing was, I was just going backward , I lost traces of the roads I came out from due to the intensity of fear I was grieved under during my intense running, swears I was faster than the speed of light, I ran so hard and fast leaving my shadow behind.
I attempted knocking on so many people's doors as I progress with my ultimate search journey, but no one seem to know me or even accept me into their building. I felt like a rabbit hopping on every building that looked like the one pictured in my head. I ended up at the river side of that community. So I concluded on staying there until further notice, yea it's better to harbor near a living spring of flowing water than on a dry land, for water felt to be more accommodating to me, the environment of the river felt welcoming and the cooling atmosphere is overwhelmingly pleasurable, I plugged some fruit there and so I ate those which I plugged for my dinner, I ended up passing a night there, I hooded my self so tiny beside a little tree, embedded my self with its leaf I plugged, that was how I was able to sleep without any fly or mosquitoes stinging me with their fierce hooks, even though it wasn't that comfortable for me, I was able to manage.