The cool evening breeze blows, the scent of evening still fresh in the air, the sight of the swallowing abyss that at anytime would if I reach out to it, it will embrace my hand, the deafening sound of fans and crickets filling the small, confining space that others call "home" but I like to call my prison. I stare into the abyss hoping, that it welcomes me, that as I stay confined in these four walls my weeps of regret stay hidden, that those who've been with me at best know that this is the worst I've been. I am reminded yet again of how I came to be the very individual I hated the most.
It was a normal morning of the 10th of the 3rd month, doing everything normally as I skim through what have in my daily agenda, my brother seems to be in a great mood today, "Someone seems to wake up on the right side of the bed." I jest to him as he sways around while cooking, "Oh by the way, are you free this afternoon, we'll be having a rehearsal later don't be late, we've already been late last week." he reminds, "was that today? I don't really feel like going, it'll just be tiring us out for the whole afternoon." I say, though this is just complaining, though my brother just smirks as he knows me to well to know that I'll go anyways.
We head off for the rehearsal and as usual, the ETA was the time that we go out of the house, "Louie come on, would you please hurry up, we're late again cause you guys don't have a sense for urgency." my brother scoldingly says to me. "Where's Meg?... Meg let's go!" I call. Heavy footsteps can be heard getting closer and closer, "Wait for me!!!" a little girl with her plushie comes out door, it was the youngest! "Come on let's go we'll be late if we don't go now." I say while bending my knees and patting her head, I notice someone else was nearing the door, Meg also hears the subtle footsteps, she then turns around and waves "Bye mommy we'll be back later!!!" my sister waves erratically. "Mom, we'll be going now." I say to my mom while giving her kiss on the cheeks. And go on our way, as we walk to the bus stop I remember the piece that I forgot to bring, and told to them to wait for me at the bus stop while I go and get the piece.
"Mom, I forgot the piece, have you seen it anywhere?", I ask at the doorstep while removing my shoes, "I think it was somewhere near the socough* cough* cough*." my mom coughed in a very concerning way, "Mom you okay? that sounded very painfull" "I'm fine, it's nothing its just a cough nothing to be concerned about", "Are you sure, cause that sounded really painful than a normal cough.", " I'm not so weak that a mere cough would have any effect on me though, I'll be fine go now, you'll be late.", "Okay, but remember to call us if anything happens." "Will do my little worrisome troublemaker". I head out of the house and see first thing crows and a cat fighting, I don't mind it and hurry on to the bus stop.
At the end of the day we got home safely, tired, and sleepy being drained from all the hard work we've doing lately. My brother turns on the TV, and news was just about to end maybe he just wanted to watch the next show but what got my attention was what the reporter said at the end, "Man that epidemic that's been going around sure has gotten a lot of people already." I say to my brother, "Yeah, we probably need to wear masks now while that's not over. anyways lets eat dinner's ready, I wanna sleep really early today" "We're missing a lot of people where are they?" "both Rie and El still have to finish their work, they said they'll eat later. Mom's already eating so it's just us." as we finish our meals, we all head to bed and call it a day.
In the middle of the night I can hear the faint sound of people talking just outside the room. "Huh??? what happening?" there seems to be a commotion at the room across mine. If I remember correctly, that room was being used as an office for !!!!
MOM!!!
I hurriedly get up from bed and head immediately outside, as I walk outside I see my mother having difficulty breathing, gasping for air. "Take her to the hospital now!!" Rie our eldest said, "An ambulance would take to long just grab a taxi outside." El the second child said. "No need to call an ambulance, I can still get there." mom said despite having difficulty breathing. They went and grabbed a taxi to the hospital that night. however, there this eerie feeling that was in my chest this whole time, a whole new emotion sprouting from within Louie, since this was a feeling he's never dealt with.