THE FIRST SNOW FALL COMES TWO WEEKS LATER.
A slight dusting, just enough to cover the truck with a fine powder. Since just after Halloween, once the Loric crystal spread the Lumen throughout my body, Henri has begun my real training. Weve worked every day, without fail, through the cold weather and the rain and now the snow. Though he doesnt say it I believe hes impatient for me to be ready. It started with disconcerted looks, his brows crinkled while he chewed on his bottom lip, followed by deep sighs and eventually sleepless nights, the floorboards creaking under his feet while I lay awake in my room, to where we are now, an inherent desperation in Henris strainedvoice.
We stand in the backyard, ten feet apart, facing each other.
Im not really in the mood today, I say.
I know youre not, but we have to anyway.
I sigh and look at my watch. Its four o'clock.
Sarah will be here at six, I say.
I know, Henri says. Thats why we must hurry.
He holds a tennis ball in each hand.
Are you ready? he asks.
As ready as Ill ever be.
He throws the first ball high in the air, and as it reaches its apex, I try to conjure a power deep within me to keep it from falling. I dont know how Im supposed to do it, only that I should be able to do it, with time and practice, says Henri.
Each Garde develops the ability to move objects with their mind. Telekinesis. And instead of letting me discover it on my own as I did my hands Henri seems hell-bent on waking the power from whatever cave its hibernating in.
The ball drops just as the thousand or so balls before it did, without a single interruption, bouncing twice, then lying motionless in the snow-covered grass.
I let out a deep sigh. Im not feeling it today.
Again, Henri says.
He throws the second ball. I try to move it, to stop it, everything inside of me straining to just make the damn thing move a single inch to the right or left, but no luck. It hits the ground as well. Bernie Kosar, who has been watching us, walks out to it, picks it up, and walks away.
Itll come in its own time, I say.
Henri shakes his head. The muscles in his jaw are flexed.
His moods and impatience are getting to me. He watches Bernie Kosar trot off with the ball, then he sighs.
What? I ask.
He shakes his head again. Lets keep trying.
He walks over and picks up the other ball. Then he flings it high in the air. I try to stop it but of course it just falls.
Maybe tomorrow, I say.
Henri nods and looks at the ground. Maybe tomorrow.
I am covered in sweat and mud and melted snow after our workout. Henri pushed me harder than normal today and came at me with an aggression that could only be steeped in panic.
Beyond the telekinesis practice, most of our session was spent drilling technique in fighting hand-to-hand combat, wrestling, mixed martial arts followed by elements of
composure grace under pressure, mind control, how to spot fear in the eyes of an opponent and then know how best to expose it. It wasnt Henris hard training that got to me, but rather the look in his eyes. A distressed look, tinged with fear, despair, disappointment. I dont know if hes just concerned about progress, or if its something deeper, but these sessions are becoming very exhausting emotionally and physically.
Sarah arrives right on time. I walk outside and kiss her as shes coming up to the front porch. I take her coat from her and hang it when were inside. Our home-ec midterm is a week away, and it was her idea to cook the meal before well have to prepare it in class.As soon as we begin cooking Henri grabs his jacket and goes for a walk. He takes Bernie Kosar with him and Im thankful for the privacy. We make baked chicken breasts and potatoes and steamed vegetables, and the meal comes out far better than I had hoped.
When all is ready the three of us sit and eat together. Henri is silent through most of it. Sarah and I break the awkward silence with small talk, about school, about our going to the movies the following Saturday. Henri rarely looks up from his plate other than to offer how wonderful the meal is.
When dinner is over Sarah and Iwash the dishes and retreat to the couch. Sarah brought a movie over and we watch it on our small TV, but Henri mostly stares out the window. Halfway through he gets up with a sigh and walks outside. Sarah and I watch him go. We hold hands and she leans against me with her head on my shoulder. Bernie Kosar sits beside her with his head in her lap, a blanket draped over both of them. It may be cold and blustery outside, but its warm and cozy in our living room.
Is your dad okay? Sarah asks.
I dont know. Hes been acting weird.
He was really quiet during dinner.
Yeah, Im going to go check on him. Ill be right back, I say, and follow Henri outside. Hes standing on the porch looking out into the darkness.
So whats going on? I ask.
He looks up at the stars in contemplation.
Something doesnt feel right, he says.
What do you mean?
Youre not going to like it.
Okay. Lets have it.
I dont know how much longer we should stay here.
It doesnt feel safe to me.
My heart sinks and I stay silent.
Theyre frantic, and I think theyre getting close.
I can feel it. I dont think were safe here.
I dont want to leave.
I knew you wouldnt.
Weve kept hidden.
Henri looks at me with a raised brow.
No offense, John, but I hardly think youve stayed in the shadows.
I have where it counts.
He nods. I guess well see.
He walks to the edge of the porch and places his hands on the rail. I stand beside him. New snowflakes start falling, sifting down, specks of white shimmering on an otherwise dark night.
Thats not all, Henri says.
I didnt think it was.
He sighs. You should have already developed
telekinesis. It almost always comes with your first Legacy. Very rarely does it come after, and when it does, its never longer than a week later.
I look over at him. His eyes are full of concern, and creases of worry traverse the length of his forehead.
Your Legacies come from Lorien. They always have.
So what are you telling me?
I dont know how much we can expect from here on out, he says, and pauses. Since were no longer on the planet, I dont know if the rest of your Legacies will come at all. And if that is true, we have no hope of fighting the Mogadorians, much less defeating them. And if we cant defeat them, well never be able to go back.
I watch the snowfall, unable to decide whether I should be worried or relieved, relieved since perhaps that would bring an end to our moving and we could finally settle. Henri points at the stars.
Right there, he says. Right there is where Lorien is.
Of course I know full well where Lorien is without having to be told. There is a certain pull, a certain way that my eyes always gravitate towards the spot where, billions of miles away, Lorien sits. I try to catch a snow-flake on the tip of my tongue, then close my eyes and breathe in the cold air. When I open them I turn around and look at Sarah through the window. Shes sitting with her legs beneath her, Bernie Kosars head still in her lap.
Have you ever thought of just settling here, of saying to hell with Lorien and making a life here on Earth?I ask Henri.
We left when you were pretty young. I dont imagine you remember much of it, do you?
Not really, I say. Bits and pieces come to me from time to time. Though I cant necessarily say whether they are things I remember or things Ive seen during our training.
I dont think you would feel that way if you could remember.
But I dont remember. Isnt that the point?
Maybe, he says. But whether or not you want to go back doesnt mean the Mogadorians are going to stop searching for you. And if we get careless and settle, you can be assured theyll find us. And as soon as they do, theyll kill us both. Theres no way to change that. No way.
I knows hes right. Somehow, like Henri, I can sense that much, can feel it in the dead of night when the hairs on my arms stand at attention, when a slight shiver crawls up my spine even though Im not cold.
Do you ever regret sticking with me for this long?
Regret it? Why do you think Iwould regret it?
Because theres nothing for us to go back to. Your family is dead. So is mine. On Lorien there is only a life of rebuilding. If it wasnt for me you could easily create an identity here and spend the rest of your days becoming a part of someplace. You could have friends, maybe even fall in love again.
Henri laughs. Im already in love. And Ill continue to be until the day that I die. I dont expect you to understand that. Lorien is different from Earth.
I sigh with exasperation. But still, you could be a part of somewhere.
I am a part of somewhere. Im a part of Paradise, Ohio, right now, with you.
I shake my head. You know what I mean, Henri.
What is it that you think Im missing? A life.
You are my life, kiddo. You and my memories are my only ties to the past. Without you I have nothing. Thats the truth.
Just then the door opens behind us. Bernie Kosar comes trotting out ahead of Sarah, who is standing in the doorway half in and half out.
Are you two really going to make me watch this movie all by my lonesome? she asks.
Henri smiles at her. Wouldnt dream of it, he says.
After the movie Henri and I drive Sarah home. When we get there Iwalk her to her front door and we stand on the stoop smiling at each other. I kiss her good night, a lingering kiss while holding both her hands gently in mine.
See you tomorrow, she says, giving my hands a squeeze.
Sweet dreams.
I walk back to the truck.
Henri pulls out of Sarahs driveway and steers towards home.
I cant help feeling a sense of fear while remembering Henris words the day he picked me up from my first full day of school: Just keep in mind we might have to leave at a moments notice.
Hes right, and I know it, but Ive never felt this way about anyone before. Like Im floating on air when were together, and I dread the times when were apart, like now, despite having just spent the last couple of hours with her. Sarah gives some purpose to our running, and hiding, a reason that transcends mere survival.A reason to win.And to know that I may be putting her life in danger by being with her well, it terrifies me.
When we get back, Henri walks into his bedroom and comes out carrying the Chest. He drops it on the kitchen table.
Really? I ask.
He nods. Theres something in here Ive wanted to show you for years.
I cant wait to see what else is in the chest. We pop the lock together and he lifts the lid in such a way that I cant peer in. Henri removes a velvet bag, closes the Chest, and relocks it.
These arent part of your Legacy, but the last time we opened the Chest I slipped them in because of the bad feeling Ive been having. If the Mogadorians catch us, theyll never be able to open this, he says, and motions to the Chest.
So whats in the bag?
The solar system, he says.
If they arent part of my Legacy then why have you never shown me?
Because you needed to develop a Legacy in order to activate them.
He clears the kitchen table and then sits across from me with the bag in his lap. He smiles at me, sensing my enthusiasm.
Then he reaches down and removes seven glass orbs of varying sizes from the bag. He holds them up to his face in his cupped hands and blows on the glass orbs. Tiny flickers of light come from within them, then he tosses them up in the air and all at once they come to life, suspended above the kitchen table.
The glass balls are a replica of our solar system. The largest of them is the size of an orange Loriens sun and it hangs in the middle emitting the same amount of light as a lightbulb while looking like a self-contained sphere of lava. The other balls orbit around it. Those closest to the sun move at a faster rate, while those farthest away seem to only creep by.All of them spinning, days beginning and ending at hyperspeed.
The fourth globe from the sun is Lorien. We watch it move, watch the surface of it begin to form. It is about the size of a racquetball. The replica must not be to scale because in reality Lorien is far smaller than our sun.
So whats happening? I ask.
The ball is taking on the exact form of what Lorien looks like at this moment.
How is this even possible?
Its a special place, John.An old magic exists at its very core. Thats where your Legacies come from. Its what gives life and reality to the objects contained within your Inheritance.
But you just said that this isnt part of my Legacy.
No, but they come from the same place.
Indentations form, mountains grow, deep creases cut across the surface where I know rivers once ran.And then it stops.
I look for any sort of color, any movement, any wind that might blow across the land. But there is nothing. The entire landscape is a monochromatic patch of gray and black. I dont know what I had hoped to see, what I had expected. Movement of some kind, a hint of fertileness.
My spirits fall. Then the surface dims away so that we can see through it and at the very core of the globe a slight glow begins to form. It glows, then dims, then glows again as though replicating the heartbeat of a sleeping animal.
What is that? I ask.
The planet still lives and breathes.
It has withdrawn deep into itself, biding its time. Hibernating, if you will.
But it will wake one of these days.
What makes you so sure?
That little glow right there, he says.
That is hope, John.
I watch it. I find an odd pleasure in seeing it glow. They tried to wipe away our civilization, the planet itself, and yet it still breathes. Yes, I think, there is always hope, just as Henri has said all along.
That isnt all.
Henri stands and snaps his fingers and the planets stop moving. He moves his face to within inches of Lorien, then cups his hands around his mouth and again breathes onto it. Hints of green and blue sweep across the ball and begin to fade almost immediately as the mist from Henris breath evaporates.
What did you do?
Flash your hands on it, he says.
I make them glow and when I hold them over the ball the green and blue come back, only this time they stay as my hands shine upon it.
Its how Lorien looked the day before the invasion.
Would you look how beautiful it all is? Sometimes even I forget.
It is beautiful. Everything green and blue, plush and verdant.
The vegetation seems to waver beneath gusts of wind that I can somehow feel. Slight ripples appear on the water. The planet is truly alive, flourishing. But then I turn my glow back off and it all fades away, back to shades of gray.
Henri points at a spot on the globes surface.
Right here, he says, is where we took off from on the day of the invasion.
Then he moves his finger half an inch from the spot.
And right here is where the Loric Museum of Exploration used to be.
I nod and look at the spot he is pointing to. More gray.
What do museums have to do with anything?I ask. I sit back in the chair.
Its hard to look at this without feeling sad.
He looks back at me.
Ive been thinking a lot about what you saw.
Uh-huh, I say, urging him on.
It was a huge museum, devoted entirely to the evolution of space travel. One of the wings of the building held early rockets that were thousands of years old. Rockets that used to run on a kind of fuel known only to Lorien, he says, and stops, looking back to the small glass orb hanging two feet above our kitchen table.
Now, if what you saw did in fact happen, if a second ship managed to take off and escape from Lorien during the height of the war, then it would have to have been housed at the space museum.
Theres no other explanation for it.
Im still having a tough time believing that it would have worked, and even if it did, that it would have gotten very far.
So if it wouldnt have gotten very far, then why are you still thinking about it?
Henri shakes his head. You know, I'm not really sure.
Maybe because Ive been wrong before.
Maybe because Im hoping I am wrong now.
And, well, if it had made it anywhere, then it would have made it here, the closest life-sustaining planet aside from Mogadore. And thats to assume that there was life on it in the first place, that it wasnt just full of artifacts, or that it wasnt just empty, meant to confuse the Mogadorians. But I think there had to have been at least one Loric manning the ship because, well, as Im sure you know, ships of that nature couldnt steer themselves.
Another night of insomnia. I stand shirtless in front of the mirror, staring into it with both lights in my hands turned on.
I dont know how much we can expect from here on out, Henri said today.
The light at Loriens core still burns, and the objects we brought from there still work, so why would that magic have ended there? And what about the others: are they now running into the same problems? Are they without their Legacies?
I flex in front of the mirror, then punch the air, hoping that the mirror will break, or a thud will be heard on the door. But there is nothing. Just me looking like an idiot standing shirtless, shadowboxing with myself while Bernie Kosar watches from the bed. Its nearly midnight and Im not tired in the least.
Bernie Kosar jumps off the bed, sits beside me, and watches my reflection. I smile at him and he wags his tail.
How about you? I ask Bernie Kosar.
Do you have any special powers? Are you a superdog? Should I put your cape back on so you can go flying through the air?
His tail keeps wagging and he paws the ground while looking at me through the tops of his eyes. I lift him up and over my head and fly him around the room.
Look! Its Bernie Kosar, the magnificent superdog!
He squirms under my grip, so I set him down. He plops on his side with his tail thumping against the mattress.
Well, buddy, one of us should have superpowers. And it doesnt look like its going to be me. Unless we go back to the Dark Ages and I can supply the world with light.
Otherwise, Im afraid Im useless.
Bernie Kosar rolls onto his back and stares at me with big eyes, wanting me to rub his belly.