"Evana! it's time to get up, the meetings starting soon" I woke up in a dark room. Sirius stood in the door way, lighting up the room around his silhouette. I slowly sat up in my bed, I dangled my feet over the side of the bed. Sirius left back down stairs. it came back in a flash, I remembered everything that happened. my face went pale, They new! no one was supposed to know! the only person I had told about the pregnancy was my mom, but she didn't know who the father was. and now Sirius Lupin and my mom all new and they new who the father was. Mom had told me to tell the father at the beginning of summer, but by the time I saw him next, I'd lost the baby. I couldn't bring myself to tell him, he had enough on his mind with the dark Lord and everything that came with that. I got out of bed and walked to the mirror making sure I was presentable and that my eyes weren't to puffy from crying. I fixed my hair, there was nothing I could do for my puffy eyes, everyone would know I've been crying. and at this point I didn't real give a shit. I was so done with everything going on. I just wanted to curl up on my bed in a ball, and stay there forever. I straightened out my black dress that had a few wrinkles, and put on a Slytherin colored sweater over it so that I was wearing a black skirt with a sweater. I pull my brown wavy hair over my shoulders and put socks on my feet. it was colder than one would think in an old house with heating other than the fire in the main room. I headed down the stairs to the kitchen the meeting I assume had already started due to the door being closed, I turned the nob, and the door squeaked. and when I walked into The dinning room, I saw every order member that had earlier been laying on the floor with blood all over them, dead. Except now they where all very alive in front of my face. Everyone stared at me, except for Severus who was apparently very interested in the grain of the table, (every now and then I could catch him looking at me, but he would look away once he new I saw him). Everyone looked at me as if they had pity on me, and I remembered my eyes where red, and they had all probably heard that I'd run into a Bogart, just not the specific details. I found the only open seet, with Sirius at the head of the table I sat on his left, with luping on his right. Migonnigall sat on my other side. With Snape across from her. and Tonks sat of the right of him, and next to migonnigall sat Mad-Eye. with My mom pacing the room, and my dad standing quietly behind Tonks. Dumbledore finally arrived through the door. He stood on Sirius right side, he addressed us all with his calm voice. "Hello everyone, I'm happy to see that everyone is doing well, and that you where able to get Harry back safe. Do we have any new information?" the voice that answered him sent shivers down my spine, the last time I heard it he told me "your the reason everyone's dead! tell them! tell them what you did!" I shook the feeling of and listened to what he had to say. "the Dark Lord continues to seek out the prophecy, and he continues to get closer, we should have someone garding it at all times." "Thank you, Severus" Dumbledore started. "we must also be aware that when if we are garding the prophecy...they are to." with that there was a pause until Sirius shifted in his seat. "ahh.. Sirius, do you have something you would like to say" Dumbledore said in his calming voice. Sirius gained confidence and straitened in his chair. His confidente voice broke the silence "I think we should tell Harry!" Mom stopped pacing and gasped, "he is just a boy!" she said with a mix of anger and fear. "He's done more than most of us against the Voldemort he deserves to know!" he said angrily those who dare not speak the dark Lords name gave a collect gasp. Then a calm deep voice interrupted Sirius and Molly's quarl before it good escalate, "I don't disagree, he has escaped the Dark Lord several times...no doubt with some...degree of...luck if I might say, also he is still a child, and will he be able to handle...the pressure." - Snape said it with a smirk, he new he would set Sirius off. Sirius stood abruptly and Dumbledore had moved to stand next to Tonks. Sirius seemed angry, more angry than he should be at Snape's comment. All the anger he had towards Snape was about to explode, and I had a feeling it was going to end horrifically. "and what would you KNOW about anything Snivellus! You can't even keep the love of your life from hating you!" Snape tried to stay calm but to him Sirius had crossed a line, they new why he had to end thing! he had to protect her from himself and the job he had to do. " that has nothing to do with this!" Severus said angrily as he stared at the table. "It has everything to do with it! If you can't even keep her heart safe, when she handed it over to you willingly! How are we supposed to expect you to keep Harry alive! when you can't keep her love alive!" he screamed, I couldn't take this, everyone new he was talking about me (except for Tonks and Dad who had very confused looks on their faces), and I new all eyes where on me. I started to tear up. "Sirius please stop." I begged him. his face softened, "but.. it's all his fault!" I went pail, I new what he was talking about now, and I didn't blame Snape, I blamed myself I was supposed to keep the baby alive, but I failed. I couldn't see how he blamed Snape. Lupin interjected because I couldn't keep myself from tears slipping out of my eyes quietly. I felt everyone's stares, and only three others who knew my secret. "Sirius that's enough. it's none of your business!" Sirius seemed to gather some sense, he looked at me as I quietly cried, and he seemed to be done with his whole argument. "what isn't his business, I don't know if you FAILED to notice Sirius...but no one knows what your talking about." Snape said quietly. I sighed, these two would never get through their differences. "Of course YOU don't know Snape, cause if you didn't decide to be a "hero!" everything would be perfect!" Sirius yelled, his face was red in anger. And my face was wet with tears. Snape's face read of confusion, but he said nothing, he looked at me for an answer. But I didn't give him one, I made my face unreadable, I wiped my tears, I looked at Sirius with a face that read of anger, "remind me to never tell you anything ever again." I said calmly, and with that I got up from the table and I took one last look around the room, Dumbledore stood in the corner with a smirk on his face, Mad-Eye seemed annoyed about the interruption, while Tonks and Dad seemed to be whispering around trying to figure out what they where talking about, I headed to my room, ready to cry myself to sleep again. I wasn't hungry for dinner anymore.
A/N: I hoped you Enjoyed this chapter, I'll try to keep updating once a week. Have a great day/night!