Days passed by. I am still overly obsessed by the former child actress, and now Mom constantly got angry with me because of my collected pictures of her. Yes, I was in delusion. I was infatuated. I was obsessed. And, I am only ten. Even my friends, don't understand me. I don't blame them.
Cain is a basketball player, so we don't get to be around much because of his strict dad and always furious tutor, on the other hand Elheiner, is a musician. At such a young age such as ours, he's called a prodigy piano player, he plays guitars too but I like his piano playing better.
Meanwhile, I, the boy who stacked up pictures of a now bored old lady, still enticed by the beauty, that I seriously didn't get to see up close.
Yet again, I will forever be thankful to them, cause despite knowing my little adversities, they never ruined it.
Or so I thought.
It was a busy day at the bakery, so I decided to let out some fresh air, and tour around the town. My father, well-known for being the best baker, is always influential and famous all around town. So if his kid goes for a walk, most certainly I'd get the attention.
As I turned into a corner someone called out to me and offer me a pie and fruit juice.
"Eat while it's hot" he said. He looks at me in surprise as I happily munch the pie. It has a nostalgic taste yet, I don't remember if I had eaten this kind of pie before.
"I remember someone who has the same taste as you" he said
I smirked"I bet it my old man" I said referring to my dad.
"Yes, it is your old man but not your father. I'm referring to your Grand Dad. "
"Oh"
"Won't you ask me why he likes that pie? "
Don't ask me, is what my mind is saying but, "Why? "
"A certain actress likes the same thing" he answered
I stopped for a moment. "Oh... you mean Lily... Lily Hasen"
"You got influenced to huh? " he said "Your Grand Dad, always order this pie, for one reason. It's because I have met Lily in person, back in the old days, so I knew her favorites, even she didn't say it out on T. V. "
I froze. There's even a tint of jealousy within me.
"So what's your opinion about Hasen? " he asked
"She's cute, pretty, and super talented" I said almost immediately
He laughed, then looked at me. Pitying me. So, what's with eyes?
"Too bad she didn't grow in the same place and with you" he said. That was accurate enough though. I mean even if it is my disadvantage, maybe soon I'll get over it. Just how fast she influenced my life these years, I wish the same tempo with my lingering impossiple emotions.
"It's too bad for your granpa too" he said.
"Yeah.I know. He's already married. "
Then, he looked at me slowly. "No.Although that's one of the reason, but it's decided lately. His marriage I mean, he said he wasn't suppose to marry your grandma"
I was confused."What do you mean? "I asked
" You know that don't you. You can't love anyone who no longer exists for a long time"
I was dumbstruck. What the hell did he just said?
"W-what do you mean 'no longer exists'? " I asked.
He sighed. "Lily has already been dead for almost 75 years"
I almost choked my food. What?! 75 years?!
"She's... d-dead? 75 years... a-ago...? " I dissapointingly asked.
"Of course" he said, saying as if it's a-matter-of-a-fact. "Supposedly Hasen should be around..."
"...92"
"Yes, 92, but she died on a car accident.That's what they say.I hardly know the story,she was 17 when she died and it was even her exact birth date"
My childhood love was crushed.Tears fall down my cheeks.There's no way.I'd accept the fact that she was old...but dead? My heart ached.I shouldn't have this feelings to begin with.
"You alright kid-" he was about to comfort but I run away from them.I know that the reality was harshier and hurtful to me than my expectation, yet I still went out with my expectation, then got really hurt in the end. I hate this. I mean what else do I expect? That she was still young?
I sadly tore off all of Lily's pictures from my room. Enough. I've got enough of these. Then, I threw them inside a huge box and kept it hidden behind my closet.
"I won't ever open you again" I promised to myself. Yet, something is playing on my mind. Should I bring her back to life?
I laughed. Clearly, I was blinded. Both by love and her beauty. I won't change the fact that I had feelings. But. I will slowly remove it. I will slowly revived from it. So. Goodbye Lily.