"The last thing she remember is that she died because of the car accident, she was admitted in hospital and announced comatose. Until she was out of breath, out of heartbeat and out of line. Not until she resurrected, but in another world."
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The last thing I remember, I was hit by a truck and was taken to the hospital. After an hours, I see nothing but white ceiling, white walls and I am on the white bed wearing white gown. Suddenly, I was out of breath and was announced by the doctor that I am in comatose.
Even my physical body is asleep, my soul is wide awake. I can hear people's talking, laugh, cries, and even insults from my parents. They want me dead, but I still love them.
My soul left my body, and saw my two sisters sleeping besides me. I want to cry but there's no tears coming out from my eyes and I wonder why. I think it's because I am walking as a spirit? Soul?
I went to the chapel and kneel, pray that I want to live longer. Apologized for my sins and for my parents who doesn't love me. As I stood up, an unfamiliar face looked at me. She is smiling, she has white wings and white long gown and it gives me goosebumps when she smiled at me again but widely and suddenly flew away.
What was that? Is that an Angel? A-Am I going to die? Is that a sign?
I've heard a loud noise so I run back towards my room and shocked seeing lot of people doing something on my chest. They made me wear a mask where it's giving me oxygen, they pumping my chest and checking my pulse. My sister are just crying while covering their mouth to avoid loud noise, my Dad who is just coldly looking at my body while Mom is giving me no care. Great! I just kneeled, helplessly looking at my lifeless body. Doctors are doing their best to revive me but I just smiled, even I don't know them and they don't know me still they are trying their best to give me life again.
"Time of death, eight-thirty in the evening."
After the announcement, light came out, it's behind Dad's. I smiled, it's giving me comfort when I look at it, I am the only one who can see it. I walked towards the light and touched it, and the whole place changed.
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I didn't expect that I'll be gone so soon, without proving myself to my parentsâthat I can buy them a house even though they don't like me as one of their daughtersâ without settling to my friends that are still mad at me because I left without a notice in our class meeting and lastly, to my boyfriend. I didn't even get to tell him that I already forgive him before he'll ask forgiveness after he cheated on me with my mom.
So ironic right? He's with my mom ever since we started our relationship and I didn't know what to feel back then. Mom cheated on my dad but dad doesn't care about her, he is busy with his business and girls. They are just the same! My two younger sisters are still in high school but you can tell that they already know what is wrong and right. They love me, they protected me from dad and mom's scolds, insults and violence. I'm gonna miss them, big time.
When the time the doctors reviving me, I do hope that my parents will cry and beg them to make me live again. To do their very best for me to live again, but nothing happened. They want me dead, and gone. It's kinda sad, I think it's a good thing that I died so they won't feel so disappointed again, they won't feel stressed and mad at me anymore. They will live happily with their own life, without thinking of me. Without having a problem because of me.
Until now, I am still curious why they treat me like that? Why they abandoned my innocent life? So sad! I am so sad! I died carrying all the burden, all the sorrow and pain without knowing why they hate me. I died still questioning my worth, I died leaving my sisters and friends without saying goodbyes.
I don't hate my life, I don't hate my parents. I just hate my fate,
So where am I by the way? Well I don't know, having a monologue in my mind within a minute is giving me nothing but a nightmare while standing and observing the weird place in front of me. Took me few hours to be here in front of unfamiliar building, it looks old but has a greek style of interior and kinda dusty. Their windows, doors and even walls has webs and lots of dirt.
The light brought me here, is this the Heaven? But as far as I know, Heaven is clean. Place of purity and white. Cleanliness and innocence. Lot of angels, green trees, good ambiance and with lots of animals. But here, it's gloomy and the ambiance is kinda creepy.
"What a dirty place." I whispered, but I almost jump because of someone's hand touched my right shoulder. I immediately stared at the man who is coldly looking at me, with those dagger red eyes like it is literally burning inside is very opposite of his cold personality.
"I don't hire people who insult my place, you caâ", he stopped after I shouted so loud because of what I have just witness. The fuck? T-That was a ball of fire! It's floating in the air and I gasped when it's coming to our way! Shit! The door slammed open and another man appeared and it almost killed me because of a heart attack! He is fucking floating in the air! He is flying!
Geez, Alfalla Rey! What world is this? This is not Heaven!