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Chapter 3 - Monster In My Heart

The next day I felt extremely strange. I looked at myself in the mirror and panted heavily. I noticed golden veins forming around my eyes. My scleras slowly became black and my eyes became a pale silver color. I covered my mouth and hurried to the toilet and began to vomit. I gripped the toilet seat and panted. It felt like I was dying.

'What the hell is happening to me..?! Why am I feeling like this..?' I thought to myself.

I heard my dogs barking and my mouth began to water. I shook my head and gripped my hair. I couldn't stop thinking about flesh. I craved living flesh like I was a wild animal in a jungle.

"Oh my, you seem to be struggling with keeping your humanity~" Alice said as she stood behind me.

I grew silent and my eyes widened. I looked back and noticed the legs of Alice. I grabbed some tissues and wiped my mouth then threw it in the toilet and flushed it. I stood up and slowly walked toward Alice.

"What did you do to me..?" I asked softly then I lunged at her and pinned her against the wall by her neck. "What did you do to me?!"

Alice looked at me and her eyes shined. She held my wrist and bit her bottom lip. "Ryan..~ You're so perfect..~ The last guy didn't react this badly..!~ You're...not a vampire it seems..~"

"What did you and Lilith do to me?! Answer me right now!" I yelled and began to strangle Alice.

Lilith appeared behind me and hit my neck with a karate chop. I grunted softly and my vision became blurry. I let go of Alice and fell to the ground.

Alice rubbed her neck and smiled. "Well then..~ It would appear that he can tap into his Feral State..~"

"He doesn't smell like a vampire, yet his energy is similar to that of one. What is he?" Lilith asked.

"He's a Ghoul. A Vampiric Ghoul. He's only in Stage 1, the change itself. Let's allow him to rest more. He'll calm down soon." Alice said and she helped Lilith pick me up.

They took me to my bedroom and laid me down on my bed. Lilith watched over me for a while before deciding to leave.

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An hour passed and I had woke up. I noticed I was in my room and sat up on my bed. I noticed my dogs on my bed then noticed my body was no longer reacting to them like it once was the first time.

I looked at Coco then looked at Scout. I pet them and closed my eyes. "They converted you two as well huh..? Probably to get me to not feed on your flesh...I wouldn't want to hurt you two no matter the cost..."

I checked my phone and noticed the Commander had texted me five times to know of my whereabouts. I got out of bed and got ready for work. After getting ready, I went downstairs and noticed Alice and Lilith sitting in the living room.

"I'm heading out!" I called out to them.

"Oh no you aren't!" Alice said and quickly hurried over to me. "Not as you are! You need to rest!"

"I agree!" Lilith said as she reformed behind me from a swarm of white bats. "You can't go out in public with a bunch of humans—"

There was a knock at my door and the doorbell rang. "New Mulai Police! Detective Ryan, open up!"

I walked to the door and unlocked it then opened the door. My mouth was watering as I looked at the officer in front of me. My lip quivered as I tried to contain myself. I gulped and wiped my lips.

"How may I help you, Officer Jenkins?" I asked.

"The paramedics and the firefighters reported something interesting to me yesterday. As they were putting out the fire from the Alucard Residency yesterday...they said they were smelling the scent of dead flesh and found some charred flesh. I need to speak to them." Officer Jenkins said.

I bit my finger and held myself. My body shook and I could barely keep my composure. My mouth was dry and saliva began building up in my mouth. I began drooling and I panted softly.

'Sis...He's losing control...We need to stop him before he ends up killing the officer...' Alice said to Lilith via telepathy.

Lilith nodded. 'I agree...but this officer wants to arrest us. We can't allow that..! We never did anything...except kill that one guy but we needed blood. We can't let them link that body to us..!'

"Detective, I know this is a lot to take in taken you've already helped them out and probably showed them around, but this body is linked to a man that went missing five days ago. His name was Finley Davis. I'm sure you know him?" Officer Jenkins said and noticed me shaking and drooling more. He noticed golden veins forming around my eyes.

I kept my eyes closed so he couldn't see my eyes. "You...need to run...!"

"What..?" Officer Jenkins asked.

"You...need to...RUN!" I yelled and opened my eyes, revealing my black scleras and silver eyes.

Officer Jenkins looked terrified and took a step back. He tried to run off but a black tentacle made from dark energy wrapped around his waist then flung him into his car. He groaned as his body put a dent in his unit.

I held myself and groaned, covering my left eye. I groaned and panted. 'I need it...I need blood, flesh...I need human meat!'

"Unit...J-04...to dispat—" Officer Jenkins groaned as one of my bladed tentacles went through his chest.

I looked at Officer Jenkins and my eyes shined brightly. "Foood...I need flesh..! I need it!"

I rushed toward Officer Jenkins and got on the ground. Without a second thought I bit off a piece of his flesh and began eating his flesh. Alice and Lilith watched and looked at each other.

"We need to get the fuck outta here.." Alice said.

"Agreed!" Lilith said and whistled loudly for Coco and Scout to hear the whistle.

They barked and rushed downstairs. Alice and Lilith ran outside and toward my car then opened the back door. They hopped into the car and Alice ran to me.

"We need to go..!" Alice yelled as she pulled me away from the body.

"Let me go..! I need to satisfy my hunger..!" I yelled and reached out to the body.

"You can do that later! We need to leave so control yourself!" Alice yelled.

She forced me into the driver's seat and tossed me my keys. She got into the passenger side and watched as I started the car. I listened to Alice and quickly drove away from the scene.

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Ivory and Altro investigated the scene and made sure no one could cross my property. Ivory used her drones to scan the area and smoked a cigarette.

"This is a horrific scene. I refuse to believe that Ryan did this. I mean he's not even here." Altro said and crossed his arms.

Ivory watched her drones work then looked at Officer Jenkins' body. "It couldn't have been. Officer Jenkins' body was mauled and parts of his body was eaten. It looked like a wild animal did this.."

"I couldn't gather his body camera footage either...it was destroyed during the attack." Altro said and moved his hair from his eyes.

"Detectives." A man said as he walked forward.

"Commander Wayne!" Altro said and stood straight then saluted him.

"Mmm~ Seems like we have something very supernatural amongst us~" A woman said as she walked forward.

Ivory looked at the woman and scoffed. "Trixie...You are on the case as well..?"

"Well, we have to be, Sister~ Ryan never showed up today...Now he's gone and his two fugitives are missing." Trixie said and took her lollipop out of her mouth.

Wayne's eyes shined and he scanned Officer Jenkins' body. "An animal did not cause those bite marks. It was the work of human teeth. Not even fangs were used. We got a case of a cannibal on our hands."

"A cannibal eating raw flesh?" Ivory asked.

"A stupid person...commiting a terrible crime. They need to be found...and killed on sight." Wayne said.

"Based on the bite marks, it would seem that this cannibal...was very, very hungry. The hole in his chest was what killed him. Not the biting." Trixie said and stood up.

Beta beeped and finished scanning. Everyone gathered around Beta and she showed a digital screen. She began to show what happened moment before they arrived.

"So Jenkins arrived at the house to interrogate Alice and Lilith. Everything seemed to be fine." Wayne said and crossed his arms.

"Look at that, why is Jenkins—" Trixie started and noticed the black shadow tentacle wrap around his body and fling him to the car.

"What the fuck is that?!" Altro asked and his eyes widened. He noticed a figure rush toward Jenkins. "Pause it! Beta enhance the video!"

Beta complied and paused the footage then enhanced the image. Ivory's eyes widened and she covered her mouth.

"Is that...Ryan..?" Altro asked.

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I stopped my car in front of a building and looked at it. "Where are we?"

"Welcome to the Alucard District. Lilith and I own this entire district with our leader named Aucrias Nocturna. He's been helping us stay safe until we decided to branch off and blend in with humans...but now we can't after your stunt." Alice said.

"It sounds like you're putting blame on me. I can't be blamed for that! I...just can't! I can't control myself..! I needed it, my body was aching for it! If I didn't have it...I would have lost more control!" I yelled and panted, placing my head on my steering wheel.

Lilith rubbed my back gently. "Ryan... I'm sorry...but this is how it is when someone is first converted. They lose their part of their humanity...but it seems like you still have yours because you feel guilty. Most of us don't even retain our humanity most of the time.."

"I already hate this...I just ate human flesh and I ran away...I need to go turn myself in.." I said.

"No way! With a crime like this, they will kill you! That's what that officer was going to do to us! We can't let you turn yourself in, especially not after we just converted you. We will need you to tough it out!" Alice said.

I stayed silent and sat up. I chuckled softly and covered my eyes. "Tough it out..? You want me to tough—"

I grabbed Alice's head and slammed it against the instrument panel of my car. She groaned and held her head.

"Ow! What the fuck?! Can you stop fucking abusing me?!" Alice yelled.

"Ryan! What the heck are you doing?!" Lilith asked in shock.

"You want me to tough out the fact that I fucking killed a man?! You want me to just get over that shit?! Are you kidding me?!" I yelled.

"I understand—"

"No you don't! You don't know how it feels to be a human! I went from a human and turned into a fucking monster! Tell me how you can relate or even sympathize with me?! Tell me! You can't!" I yelled.

Coco and Scout whined softly and lowered their heads.

"You agreed to this! You don't have the right to be angry!" Alice yelled back.

"Wha— The mother fucking gall you have to say that shit to me! You're gonna spin this back on me?! Really?! Really?! Know what, get the fuck out of my car. Both of you!" I said.

Alice looked at me and her left eye twitched. "Let's go, Lilith."

Lilith watched us and stopped Alice from leaving. "We're all angry and I get that, but we need to calm down! Please...let's talk about this, okay..?"

I looked at Lilith and sighed softly then sat back in my seat. Alice crossed her arms and looked out of the window.

"I know this change is hard to take in, but you literally agreed to this...and Alice we could've warned him earlier that this would happen, but at the end of the day we're stuck together! There's no way we can go back out there now!" Lilith said, being the voice of reason.

"Can we just apologize to each other and move forward? We honestly do need you, Ryan...Truly...We need you for more than just reproducing. We need you to become our next leader..." Lilith said and looked at me.

"No we don't! This HUMAN wants to remain a human even though there's nothing we can do!" Alice said.

"Alice!" Lilith scolded.

Alice sighed. "Fiiine we do need you...Like sis said...Aucrias is dying. We are in need of a new leader to basically become the head of the Alucard Bloodline and protect us from the Supernatural Hunters."

I looked at them. "I'm not that fit to be your leader. I just turned into this ghoulish freak."

"Our Guardian can train you...he can show you the ins and outs of everything you need to know." Lilith said.

I sighed and closed my eyes. "Fine alright...only because you're right that there's no turning back... Let's go.."

We got out of my car and headed toward the main building.