Light and Dark, White and Black, Day and Night.
Duality.
Duality will always exist, no matter what aspect, one may be evil, one may be good.
One may be blessed, one may be forsaken.
Those that are forsaken by grace lives in the shadows of the blessed ones, as the light shines upon them brightly, the heat embraces them, those who are living under them can only watch, receiving not a single ray of light.
Change, If you're tired of living in the shadows, why not change?
The Universe is a cruel place.
Those who seek to reach for the skies and grasp the stars are shot down, unable to fly again, wounded, scarred.
It's what the world wants, those who are below will always be below.
Just like I am... When i reached for the light, It was no light... It was a flame, waiting for me so it may scorch my hands, rendering it unable to grasp anything, not even myself.
Those who lives under the shadows... Eventually, they will sink further, deeper, and deeper.
The moment I lost what I was holding onto, I have no choice but to sink.
Until the pressure becomes stronger, crushing everything.
The only noise I'm hearing are the voices in my head, drowning me in thoughts.
I should've done this, I should've been like that.
I wish I can be like everyone, smiling carelessly throughout their day.
Full of optimism...
Why am I like this? Why do I have to be this way? Why am I so... Nihilistic... So hopeless.
I just wonder, what is there in for me in this world? What kind of fate do I have?
Tell me... If there's any God out there... What should I do?
I feel like its over for me.
These things... Things I never discussing to anyone with, people are too busy with their own life to care about what others feel, my feelings will be just rejected, discarded. Someone once told me that I'm young and I shouldn't think about it, but I just can't...
So I just kept everything to myself. Never to let them out again. No one understands anyway.
I feel sick...
I have been thinking about this since yesterday when I was Denied by the only light I had.
A small, flickering ember, the only warmth I possess.
Blown away by a harsh cold winds, her words itself.
This terrible feeling keeps getting worse...
My chest feels heavy.
If only I have a family to cling onto... But I have no one.
I have no value, not to a single soul.
I don't feel like going to school today but here I am... Walking.
I hate this... I hate this
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I̷̹͈̹̤̣͕͚̜̊̃̆͂̄̕͝ ̷̢̟̤̭͉͂́̑̄͗̕̚͝h̴̲̫̜̻̰͈̠̘̻̍̽̾̽͐͆̾̂́̌͜a̵̞͊̊̿ṱ̶̀̍͆e̷͙̼̩͆̌ ̷̢̩̣̗̘̪̇́̊̿́́͠͠͝t̸̢͎͔̘̙̤̙̂͂̆̌͊̍͗̽͝͝ͅh̶̡̲̼̞͔̟̲̬̓ͅį̵̨̮̮͖̟͍̳͌̔̏̓̇ŝ̵̛̼̙̓͑I̷̹͈̹̤̣͕͚̜̊̃̆͂̄̕͝ ̷̢̟̤̭͉͂́̑̄͗̕̚͝h̴̲̫̜̻̰͈̠̘̻̍̽̾̽͐͆̾̂́̌͜a̵̞͊̊̿ṱ̶̀̍͆e̷͙̼̩͆̌ ̷̢̩̣̗̘̪̇́̊̿́́͠͠͝t̸̢͎͔̘̙̤̙̂͂̆̌͊̍͗̽͝͝ͅh̶̡̲̼̞͔̟̲̬̓ͅį̵̨̮̮͖̟͍̳͌̔̏̓̇ Ȋ̷̧̙̥̪̮̞̩̠̲͈̫̥͙͍̘͚̗͇̺͍̈́͒̈̈́̈́͐̊̀̽̏̕͜ͅ ̸̭͈̮̺̙͓͒̾̒̿̆́̽́̓̒̀̀̋̇̂͗̒̒͋̕͘h̶̡̨͚͕̖̬̳̺̤̗̯͍͇̙̮͙̱͓̙̦̮̖͖̥͎͎̖͇͖͈̟̗͆́͊͋̈́͊̅͊̅̀̆̿̾͑͂̚͠͝ą̵͈̱̲͎̱͎̲̞̥̤͚̘̰̣̬̺̫͓̠͈̑͋̆͒̓̄̎̂̆͆̓̏̀̽͒̋̃͗͘̚̚͜͠ͅț̸̢̨͚̫͚͇̥̠̪͚̩̗̖͙̙̖͎͓͚͔̻̙̤͎̻̀͒͑̂̓̒̈́̂̿͘͠͝͠e̴̛̻̮̮̋͒̾̎͌̎̍̀ ̴̨̨͕̼̮̬̼͚̬̩̟͇͙̰̠͉̮̦͇͕̙̊͛͑́̆̏̾̒͋̂͑̅͐̇͊͛̌̕̚̚͝ͅţ̵̧̛̫̂̍̄͊͌͑̓͋̒̏̈̉́̉͐̑̑̌́̉̀̽͑̈̋̑̍͝͝h̴̡̛̟̮͇̣̣̫̙̤͔̙̰̮͚͔͔̖̼͕̝͗̏̈́̇͂̐̍̆̈́̄̂̓̓͆̀̎͆̄͊̽̋̈́̕͘͜͜͝͠͝ͅį̸̛̛̼̖̰͓͖̞̦̳̬̻̅̈́͋́́͊͑͂̾̾͛̾͑̓̆͊̂̀͑͒́̅͑̈́́̒͗̀͌͐̂̈́̾͛̔̂̉̕͘͠s̵̨̧̢̛̟̫̞͉͇̬̬̮̺̘̟̪̈́̍̇͑̽̆̅͑̆́̂̾̉͊̀͌̀̑̕͝͠ I̷̲̱̘͎̘̙̺̓̒̈̂̈͐̏̂̈́͂̈̀́̎̑̅͛̕͘̕͝ ̵̣̖͍͎̘͂̀͂͑̋͘͝h̷̰̙͈̜̖̀̈́̐̏͝a̸̰̗̗̘̠͉̼̯͍̥̻̬̻͎͇̺̯̥̜͑̽̆̂̋̕̚͜͝t̸̢̧͎͕̝̩̯̪̣̖͓̮͇͈̜̻͈̏͒͛͂̈͊̆͘è̷̥̰̀͌̓̂̽̋͛̑̾̂̋̈́̀́̏̍́̔͘̕͝ ̶̧͓͉̥͙̞̻̱͇͇̻̺̖͉̥̠̖̟̌͛̑͐̀̉͐̓͂͜ţ̶̬̙̮̦̗͈͇͎͗̇͐̾̔̄͂͂͌́̽̊̽̕͘h̷̢̲͍̬͍̯̤͍̣͑̂̐͂̆́͌̍̓͂̋̓̓̎̎͌̍̚̕͘͘͜͠i̴̡̢̢̜̠̼̘̔̅̊̄̄̆͂̅̕͜͠s̴̢̛͚̼̩͎̎̽̈́̾́͆͊͒́̒͛͂̐̓̌͊̆̚̕
ŝ̵̛̼̙̓͑I̷̲̱̘͎̘̙̺̓̒̈̂̈͐̏̂̈́͂̈̀́̎̑̅͛̕͘̕͝ ̵̣̖͍͎̘͂̀͂͑̋͘͝h̷̰̙͈̜̖̀̈́̐̏͝a̸̰̗̗̘̠͉̼̯͍̥̻̬̻͎͇̺̯̥̜͑̽̆̂̋̕̚͜͝t̸̢̧͎͕̝̩̯̪̣̖͓̮͇͈̜̻͈̏͒͛͂̈͊̆͘è̷̥̰̀͌̓̂̽̋͛̑̾̂̋̈́̀́̏̍́̔͘̕͝ ̶̧͓͉̥͙̞̻̱͇͇̻̺̖͉̥̠̖̟̌͛̑͐̀̉͐̓͂͜ţ̶̬̙̮̦̗͈͇͎͗̇͐̾̔̄͂͂͌́̽̊̽̕͘h̷̢̲͍̬͍̯̤͍̣͑̂̐͂̆́͌̍̓͂̋̓̓̎̎͌̍̚̕͘͘͜͠i̴̡̢̢̜̠̼̘̔̅̊̄̄̆͂̅̕͜͠s̴̢̛͚̼̩͎̎̽̈́̾́͆͊͒́̒͛͂̐̓̌͊̆̚̕I̷̲̱̘͎̘̙̺̓̒̈̂̈͐̏̂̈́͂̈̀́̎̑̅͛̕͘̕͝ ̵̣̖͍͎̘͂̀͂͑̋͘͝h̷̰̙͈̜̖̀̈́̐̏͝a̸̰̗̗̘̠͉̼̯͍̥̻̬̻͎͇̺̯̥̜͑̽̆̂̋̕̚͜͝t̸̢̧͎͕̝̩̯̪̣̖͓̮͇͈̜̻͈̏͒͛͂̈͊̆͘è̷̥̰̀͌̓̂̽̋͛̑̾̂̋̈́̀́̏̍́̔͘̕͝ ̶̧͓͉̥͙̞̻̱͇͇̻̺̖͉̥̠̖̟̌͛̑͐̀̉͐̓͂͜
ţ̶̬̙̮̦̗͈͇͎͗̇͐̾̔̄͂͂͌́̽̊̽̕͘h̷̢̲͍̬͍̯̤͍̣͑̂̐͂̆́͌̍̓͂̋̓̓̎̎͌̍̚̕͘͘͜͠i̴̡̢̢̜̠̼̘̔̅̊̄̄̆͂̅̕͜͠s̴̢̛͚̼̩͎̎̽̈́̾́͆͊͒́̒͛͂̐̓̌͊̆̚̕I̴̧̨̫̳͎̗̞̟͗͗̄́̃̆͛̾̌̈́̂̈́̚͘͘̚͠ͅ ̶̨̡̡̼̙̫̩̻̤͈̪̺̬̦͔̠̳̯̣̙̲͈̊̀́̆̓̍̊͘̕͘ḩ̴̧̫̗̻̞͖̗͕͔̺̘͕̱͓̩̟̰̼͎̖̯̯͇̭̂͌̆̀͌͘a̶̧̢̱̦̙̥͚̬͚̺͍̱̣͎̬̻̱̹̭͈͖̮̲͎̮̤̱͇̠̔̋͐̑͌̀̌̒̏̓̏̌̚ͅẗ̶̢̛͚͈̰̩̗̦̥͎̖̹̖͍̩̗̖̝͈͈͓͙̉͂̂̒̈́̌̇̈̌̈́̊̐͊͌̃͐̽͌̀̋̓͊͒͐̈́͋̕̕ę̷̧̫̼̖̤̱̲̼̙̠͇̪̟̥̺͎̝̟͇͈͂͒̎̆̋̎̌̏͐͐̈́̈́̀̄͜ͅͅͅ ̶̨̛̩̩͔̖̪̰̪̰̭̝͍͉͔̱̾̆͋̓̍̐̄̎̏͛̓́̑̊̐̽͛̑̈̎̀͋͌̀͘͜͜͝͝͝͝t̵̟̟͇̙̰͒̊͊͐͛̈́̈͆͝h̶̢̥͚̭̦̙̻͕̱̹̲͙̓i̶̧̡̢̡̧̱̣̤̤̳̪̬̠̳̞͕͍̯̥̾̉͊͑͌͑́̂͑̉̿̆͑̈́́̾̂̃̌͑̃̄̊͒͠͝͠͝s̷̡̹̼͉͍̪̬̤͙̝͎̪̯͈̦̳͖͚͓̞͎͍̞̭͖̃̓͌̄̽̉̀͒͜͝ I̷̲̱̘͎̘̙̺̓̒̈̂̈͐̏̂̈́͂̈̀́̎̑̅͛̕͘̕͝ ̵̣̖͍͎̘͂̀͂͑̋͘͝h̷̰̙͈̜̖̀̈́̐̏͝a̸̰̗̗̘̠͉̼̯͍̥̻̬̻͎͇̺̯̥̜͑̽̆̂̋̕̚͜͝t̸̢̧͎͕̝̩̯̪̣̖͓̮͇͈̜̻͈̏͒͛͂̈͊̆͘è̷̥̰̀͌̓̂̽̋͛̑̾̂̋̈́̀́̏̍́̔͘̕͝ ̶̧͓͉̥͙̞̻̱͇͇̻̺̖͉̥̠̖̟̌͛̑͐̀̉͐̓͂͜ţ̶̬̙̮̦̗͈͇͎͗̇͐̾̔̄͂͂͌́̽̊̽̕͘h̷̢̲͍̬͍̯̤͍̣͑̂̐͂̆́͌̍̓͂̋̓̓̎̎͌̍̚̕͘͘͜͠i̴̡̢̢̜̠̼̘̔̅̊̄̄̆͂̅̕͜͠s̴̢̛͚̼̩͎̎̽̈́̾́͆͊͒́̒͛͂̐̓̌͊̆̚̕I̴̧̨̫̳͎̗̞̟͗͗̄́̃̆͛̾̌̈́̂̈́̚͘͘̚͠ͅ ̶̨̡̡̼̙̫̩̻̤͈̪̺̬̦͔̠̳̯̣̙̲͈̊̀́̆̓̍̊͘̕͘ḩ̴̧̫̗̻̞͖̗͕͔̺̘͕̱͓̩̟̰̼͎̖̯̯͇̭̂͌̆̀͌͘a̶̧̢̱̦̙̥͚̬͚̺͍̱̣͎̬̻̱̹̭͈͖̮̲͎̮̤̱͇̠̔̋͐̑͌̀̌̒̏̓̏̌̚ͅẗ̶̢̛͚͈̰̩̗̦̥͎̖̹̖͍̩̗̖̝͈͈͓͙̉͂̂̒̈́̌̇̈̌̈́̊̐͊͌̃͐̽͌̀̋̓͊͒͐̈́͋̕̕ę̷̧̫̼̖̤̱̲̼̙̠͇̪̟̥̺͎̝̟͇͈͂͒̎̆̋̎̌̏͐͐̈́̈́̀̄͜ͅͅͅ ̶̨̛̩̩͔̖̪̰̪̰̭̝͍͉͔̱̾̆͋̓̍̐̄̎̏͛̓́̑̊̐̽͛̑̈̎̀͋͌̀͘͜͜͝͝͝͝
t̵̟̟͇̙̰͒̊͊͐͛̈́̈͆͝h̶̢̥͚̭̦̙̻͕̱̹̲͙̓i̶̧̡̢̡̧̱̣̤̤̳̪̬̠̳̞͕͍̯̥̾̉͊͑͌͑́̂͑̉̿̆͑̈́́̾̂̃̌͑̃̄̊͒͠͝͠͝s̷̡̹̼͉͍̪̬̤͙̝͎̪̯͈̦̳͖͚͓̞͎͍̞̭͖̃̓͌̄̽̉̀͒͜͝I̷̲̱̘͎̘̙̺̓̒̈̂̈͐̏̂̈́͂̈̀́̎̑̅͛̕͘̕͝ ̵̣̖͍͎̘͂̀͂͑̋͘͝h̷̰̙͈̜̖̀̈́̐̏͝a̸̰̗̗̘̠͉̼̯͍̥̻̬̻͎͇̺̯̥̜͑̽̆̂̋̕̚͜͝t̸̢̧͎͕̝̩̯̪̣̖͓̮͇͈̜̻͈̏͒͛͂̈͊̆͘è̷̥̰̀͌̓̂̽̋͛̑̾̂̋̈́̀́̏̍́̔͘̕͝ ̶̧͓͉̥͙̞̻̱͇͇̻̺̖͉̥̠̖̟̌͛̑͐̀̉͐̓͂͜ţ̶̬̙̮̦̗͈͇͎͗̇͐̾̔̄͂͂͌́̽̊̽̕͘h̷̢̲͍̬͍̯̤͍̣͑̂̐͂̆́͌̍̓͂̋̓̓̎̎͌̍̚̕͘͘͜͠i̴̡̢̢̜̠̼̘̔̅̊̄̄̆͂̅̕͜͠s̴̢̛͚̼̩͎̎̽̈́̾́͆͊͒́̒͛͂̐̓̌͊̆̚̕I̴ ̧̨̫̳͎̗̞̟͗͗̄́̃̆͛̾̌̈́̂̈́̚͘͘̚͠ͅ ̶̨̡̡̼̙̫̩̻̤͈̪̺̬̦͔̠̳̯̣̙̲͈̊̀́̆̓̍̊͘̕͘ḩ̴̧̫̗̻̞͖̗͕͔̺̘͕̱͓̩̟̰̼͎̖̯̯͇̭̂͌̆̀͌͘a̶̧̢̱̦̙̥͚̬͚̺͍̱̣͎̬̻̱̹̭͈͖̮̲͎̮̤̱͇̠̔̋͐̑͌̀̌̒̏̓̏̌̚ͅẗ̶̢̛͚͈̰̩̗̦̥͎̖̹̖͍̩̗̖̝͈͈͓͙̉͂̂̒̈́̌̇̈̌̈́̊̐͊͌̃͐̽͌̀̋̓͊͒͐̈́͋̕̕ę̷̧̫̼̖̤̱̲̼̙̠͇̪̟̥̺͎̝̟͇͈͂͒̎̆̋̎̌̏͐͐̈́̈́̀̄͜ͅͅͅ ̶̨̛̩̩͔̖̪̰̪̰̭̝͍͉͔̱̾̆͋̓̍̐̄̎̏͛̓́̑̊̐̽͛̑̈̎̀͋͌̀͘͜͜͝͝͝͝t̵̟̟͇̙̰͒̊͊͐͛̈́̈͆͝h̶̢̥͚̭̦̙̻͕̱̹̲͙̓i̶̧̡̢̡̧̱̣̤̤̳̪̬̠̳̞͕͍̯̥̾̉͊͑͌͑́̂͑̉̿̆͑̈́́̾̂̃̌͑̃̄̊͒͠͝͠͝s̷̡̹̼͉͍̪̬̤͙̝͎̪̯͈̦̳͖͚͓̞͎͍̞̭͖̃̓͌̄̽̉̀͒͜͝
Ǐ̸̡̡̨̡̢̻̱͎̪̩͇̰̯͓͇͓̺̪͖̘̙̺̬̥͉̦͖̘̖͓̩̦̟̟̖̘͓̠̲̩͙̪̝͎̀̇̋̕͜͜͝͝ ̷̢̡̡̡̢̭̲͍̳̬͕͙̘̹̠̙̥̼̗͖̱̤̘̭̖̺̋̀̔͛̿́͛̽̎̍̈́͗̍͆͒̄̅̓͑̕̚͝͝ͅh̵̨̪̙̜̏̍̊͛̈́̿̀̈́͂a̷̡̖͈̘̗̱͈͕̲̰̱̣̜̩̦̼̰̗͆̍̆̾́̈̔̊̈́͗͂̈́̂̿̓̌̀͂͛̎̀́́͊̎͋̒̓̓̕͘̕͘̕͠͝ţ̷̡̧̨̡̨̛̩̯̩͔̞͇̲͍̟̭͔̗̲̮͍͈̘̮̬̥̼̝̱̞̫̹̤̘̭̥͚̎̎̈́̑̋͊̊͐̀̅̾̉͆̑̏͂͐̎͊̅̋̏̇̐͂̀̑̑̈́̂̇͘̕͝ͅe̷̛͓͎͍͉̝͚̲̺̝̹͂̈́̀̄̈́̋̀͑́͛̆̆́̍̎̿ ̷̢̢̢̦̦̗̹̪͍̼͈͍̰̬̬̳̳̯̺̦͇̼̫̞̦͖̥̝̩̦̖̲̙͎͙̤͉̩̺͎̩̞̣͚̔̓̀͌̀͐́̌̎́͆͛̓̍́̿̈́̈̒͑͗̆͗͐̑̚͜͜͝ţ̴̡̨̛͕̪̥͕̭̺̱̪̤̳̻͇̱͍͓̲̳̞͍̠̜̦̝̺̭͚̙̬̱̦̭̘̜͈̘̞̱͕̤̥̲̝͙̗̋͒͐̇͗͂͌͒̑̇̓͒̃͐̉̑̎̒̾̍̓̔̄͒̔̌̈́͗͗͑́͘̚̚͘͠͝ͅh̵̢̨̧̛̛͔̠̣̯̠̻̱̤͎͖͎̣̻͙̯̠̋͌̆̇͊̄̂̃̃͂͊̎̎͛̂̇̉̀̊̑̆̈̑̓̒̈́̊͊̔̓̈̐̀̈̚͘͘̚̕͘͜͜͝͝͝ͅȉ̴̢̡̞̲͖̥̓s̸̡̬̖̳̩̩͎̠̪̻̠͍͙̖̜͌̃͑͒̈͑̊̉̈́̔͜ ̵̩̖̩̺̫̾̀͗͑̈́͗̅̃̎͛̌͌́͛̈́͑̆̀́̋̀͋̀̇̋͘͘͘͝͠Ȋ̷̧̙̥̪̮̞̩̠̲͈̫̥͙͍̘͚̗͇̺͍̈́͒̈̈́̈́͐̊̀̽̏̕͜ͅ ̸̭͈̮̺̙͓͒̾̒̿̆́̽́̓̒̀̀̋̇̂͗̒̒͋̕͘h̶̡̨͚͕̖̬̳̺̤̗̯͍͇̙̮͙̱͓̙̦̮̖͖̥͎͎̖͇͖͈̟̗͆́͊͋̈́͊̅͊̅̀̆̿̾͑͂̚͠͝ą̵͈̱̲͎̱͎̲̞̥̤͚̘̰̣̬̺̫͓̠͈̑͋̆͒̓̄̎̂̆͆̓̏̀̽͒̋̃͗͘̚̚͜͠ͅț̸̢̨͚̫͚͇̥̠̪͚̩̗̖͙̙̖͎͓͚͔̻̙̤͎̻̀͒͑̂̓̒̈́̂̿͘͠͝͠e̴̛̻̮̮̋͒̾̎͌̎̍̀ ̴̨̨͕̼̮̬̼͚̬̩̟͇͙̰̠͉̮̦͇͕̙̊͛͑́̆̏̾̒͋̂͑̅͐̇͊͛̌̕̚̚͝ͅţ̵̧̛̫̂̍̄͊͌͑̓͋̒̏̈̉́̉͐̑̑̌́̉̀̽͑̈̋̑̍͝͝h̴̡̛̟̮͇̣̣̫̙̤͔̙̰̮͚͔͔̖̼͕̝͗̏̈́̇͂̐̍̆̈́̄̂̓̓͆̀̎͆̄͊̽̋̈́̕͘͜͜͝͠͝ͅį̸̛̛̼̖̰͓͖̞̦̳̬̻̅̈́͋́́͊͑͂̾̾͛̾͑̓̆͊̂̀͑͒́̅͑̈́́̒͗̀͌͐̂̈́̾͛̔̂̉̕͘͠s̵̨̧̢̛̟̫̞͉͇̬̬̮̺̘̟̪̈́̍̇͑̽̆̅͑̆́̂̾̉͊̀͌̀̑̕͝͠
When will all of this end?
I have arrived at my classroom before I realized it, my eyes... They're getting heavier... My consciousness is starting to slip. Is this finally it?
Before I knew it, an explosion had destroyed everything, I think I got blown into pieces...
Death by bombing....?
A loud explosion was heard, a classroom was annihilated and as the emergency alarm rang loudly, all students evacuated.
Except for two. You know who.
A fair lady's gaze turned into the location of the explosion with her crystal like eyes.
With the sound and that reaction, there, a young man sitting did the same.
" Hikari... We got another one... " uttered by the lady
" Seems like it, how does it look like, Kaguya? " responded Hikari
" This one might be really bad... " Kaguya answered as the looks on her face shifted to be tense.
" Let's check it as soon as possible then "
I lead the run.
Room by room, as we got closer, the more instense it gets.
I feel like I might throw up from the pressure alone.
Each of our steps echoed across the empty rooms, the silence is really loud here but there's also this strange noise that comes from the explosion, like a hurricane.
We entered the room.
Walls on wreck, chairs all around, papers flying on circles, it feels like storm here.
One more noticeable thing, Light barely reach us here, as if it's being blocked by an invisible barrier.
Light simply fades away before it completely Illuminates everything.
Fortunately, I possess a blessing from a goddess, I am able to see just fine now.
And what we have here is...
A lurker... Dead? And is that a person inside the source of all this chaos?
What's going on here?
" Hikari, be careful, it seems like the witch has awakened. "
Kaguya warned me about the pitch black tornado.
Is it really a tornado...?
It feels more like a black hole that's swallowing everything, a hole? Leading to where?
No point in thinking, it will collapse the whole building if we don't do anything about it.
I made an attempt to get closer.
" What are you doing?! Can't you see its devouring everything?! "
Kaguya concernedly scolded my action.
But I can see something Inside here...
A person.
Perhaps he got swallowed.
" No, it doesn't look like its swallowing anything, it's more like we're falling down to it, it's like a hole in this world, similar to a Hole in the sink, when the plug Is removed, the water falls and gets drained. "
I was able to understand it's nature with a glance
I wonder why? I feel like this Isn't the first time I've encountered this.
I calmly walked towards it
Inside my chest, there's only one feeling present.
I want to caress this person, tell him that everything will be alright.
Why is that?
Him? How am i so sure about that?
Strange but it feels natural.
I just feel like that if I don't do it, it's over.
" Trust me, I got this " I confidently claimed.
Kaguya understood the determination and certainity in my eyes, believing in me, she let me go.
I slowly walked towards It, as I got closer, it started to resemble a gate, a door.
I entered, I entered the world of void.
Unreachable by light. Strange, I'm still able to see clearly here.
But the pressure, it feels like walking against the river here.
— As Hikari got closer, the very world started shaking, unable to sustain the reality that is true to it, it broke, creating a new path for it.
Such enormous event shocked all gods around the world.
" A CAUSALITY BREAK?! " Shocked, uttered by a Demiurge, A pale skinned old man built at 3 meters tall, with long white hair and long beard wearing clothes on fashion of ancient greek.
He stood up from the shock.
The King of Gods, Skies, Ruler of Lightning; Zeus
" And at this level? Just what exactly is happening down there? What event changed? " uttered the Demiurge.
The Demiurge may be revered to be omnipotent, but he isn't omniscient, he only knows what transpires through cosmical awareness
Yet he's unable to tell what's happening.
" Still, this signature, it's similar to that of Selene... "
The Demiurge sat back to his seat, deciding to watch how will things turn to be. —
— The event also shocked the other deities, as it means that someone tampered with how the world should play out, an action that shouldn't have happened, opposing what should happen.
And Hikari, back down there is unaware of it.
He just wanted to grab this person out of here, he said.
Still, It wasn't only the gods who noticed what happened.
A white haired girl, with golden eyes holding an umbrella smiled to herself.
" Finally, huh? " she muttered to herself.
Without saying any more word, she opened a door that showed what seemed to be a huge library inside and entered it.
With the next person, a normal civilian opening it being lead to a restroom —
After struggling to get near, I finally am on contact with the person.
As I touched him, I felt all the weight he carried to himself.
A weight no one ever noticed.
All kept to himself.
— Hikari collapsed and became unconscious.
Is he dead? Nope.
We'll see inside. —
When I became unconscious, I fell, fell somewhere, I kept on falling.
There's no end, there's no ground, just endlessly falling.
All the feelings this person experienced is being forced to me, I took them all in.
Looking at these, It may seem foolish, rubbish or something not worth pondering over to other people.
But it's wrong to underestimate other's suffering, Just because we've seen worse, just because it could be worse, just because we've been in worse, It doesn't give us rights to discriminate the solitude others experience.
This is exactly what happened to him, His solitude was rejected and deemed invalid by the others, thanks to that, he just kept everything to himself, never speaking a word about it again, never opening up again.
Humans are social creatures, I don't believe we can truly live alone, we seek love, to be loved, to have companions. To not be lonely.
There are some circumstances however, where one may be surrounded, but still feel alone regardless, the feeling of Isolation.
And I'm still falling, falling and falling.
After hours, It finally ended.
I slowly opened my eyes, the rays of sun was blinding to me.
The gentle breeze caressed my skin, the sound of waves can be heard.
I'm by a seashore?
" Hey, what are you doing here? "
Asked a Gentle voice.
When I turned my head, I saw a pretty woman— man.
I see, so it was him.
There he sat watching the sun run across the skies until it sets, listening to the Harmony of breeze and waves of seas.
" I ask of you, what is your business here? I just want to be left alone. "
He asked again. I couldn't answer the first question.
" That should be my question, why are you here? "
I expected a response, but only the silence answered.
" Why are you— "
" IT'S BECAUSE I WANT TO BE LEFT ALONE, HAVEN'T YOU HEARD ME?! "
Mu sentence was cut off before i could finish it.
Wow, he's really upset.
Can't blame him...
" Are you sure that's what you really want? "
I asked.
" What do you mean? "
He Responded.
" Because to me, it seems llke you want someone to look for you, is that right? "
Bingo, the looks on his face changed as soon as I uttered those words.
" Huh? What are you —? "
He tries to deny it, but I've already seen through it.
" I have no idea what really happened, but It has been rough for you hasn't it? "
I have no idea what truly happened, but this weight, this, I understand....
No person should live feeling like this.
No person should live uncomfortable with their own life.
I didn't realize, but he started crying already
He was looking down, but I can see the tears falling.
" I'm tired of this... I'm sick of everything.... "
Sobbing, he let out all the things inside his chest
He's a fragile individual, it's amazing how he's been holding for this long
" Why was i even born? I didn't ask for this... Life, living, it's so painful to me. "
" All my life, I walked down the darkness all alone with nothing but a faint light, now, even that light has gone away... "
" What is there for me? "
" I have no one to cling to... I have no family, am I meant to just be by myself? If so, I can't take it anymore, I just want to disappear and never return again. "
" I live everyday, thinking about how pointless life is, I look at others as they smile through the day carelessly, it's so amazing how they're able to do that, I could never comprehend it. "
" Hey, tell me, is there any value at my life at all? "
" I'm so scared, terrified, of being alone, this feeling of solitude "
All those words, I don't know what to say...
I'll just say what comes to my mind.
" Life? Life, huh. "
" It's mysterious, yet fascinating... At the same time, depressing "
" it's a mystery how we came here, what's our purpose. "
" it's fascinating how we are, how we work, we live, how we experience this world "
" and depressing, that it will all come to end, nothing but a speck of dust in a moment through this eternal passage of time... "
" that's where the question rise; is there any point at all? "
I looked at the setting sun, thinking to myself.
" personally, I thinking there's no meaning. "
I looked at Yozora's face with this statement.
Yozora was shocked by my answer
With tears running down from his eyes, he asked.
" Then, why? Why do you cling to life? "
" I believe there's no meaning, because it's up to us to create that with our own hands. "
" to make living worth it, to be able to say that I had fun at my deathbed "
" I'd rather do everything, than regret not being able to at the end of all of it. "
" we make life worth living. "
I put my hands at his head, caressing his hair.
" It's okay to be scared, just don't stop marching. "
Yozora started to rest his head in his knees as he embraced his legs, that way of sitting.
" I can't see any value in it... "
He answered, sadly.
" It doesn't have to be now, we can look for it later... Find that meaning. "
" Value comes as you live life "
I feel like a parent giving lecture, but that's alright
" But i don't have any will for it "
He answered.
" Well, you said that you have no parents right? Why not begin with that? Maybe look for them? Perhaps they might answer your questions. "
That suggestion took all the interest he had left.
" ...my parents? "
Yozora averted his eyes and started thinking to himself.
" Look for them... But they abandoned me. "
In the end, he rejected the idea
" What if I don't succeed? "
" Don't worry, we'll find them. "
" What if they don't want to see me? "
" Trust me, everything will be alright "
" it will be? "
The look on his eyes, like a small child, uncertain and anxious.
" That's right, so instead of asking yourself all the what if, how about we try to move forward? "
What a precious heart... I will not allowed anyone to harm this.
Everyone deserves to know what love is.
Yozora wiped off his tears, with a small gleam on his eyes, his other eye turned golden yellow.
He looked at me, with a small smile, the kind of smile clinging to that small hope.
" I'll be counting on your words then. "
" Right, you can count on me, I'll be your light "
Without a second thought, he embraced me.
Without a second thought, I embraced Hikari.
It's warm...
" How strange, I've always wanted a friend, a friend to share all the troubles in my heart "
Deep down, I really wanted someone to understand me...
Deep down, I wanted to smile wholeheartedly, unbound to any worries.
Truly
I smiled, finally, wholeheartedly.
He smiled, finally a wholeheartedly one.
Sometimes, a person just needs a hug, a heart to heart conversation.
As Yozora Let go of me, the whole place crumbled to darkness.
This whole area was a mental landscape, manifesting the person's heart.
A gentle breeze, a warm light, a rageful sea.
When I opened my eyes, I found myself lying.
It's night already? Where's Kaguya?
When i looked beside me, there Yozora was sitting.
" Thank you. "
Smiled Yozora as he thanked me.
But before anything, the Lurker earlier, knocked unconscious, woke up as well.
At first, it started at as blankly with its pitch black eyes where red teards started falling.
Maybe it got scared?
After a few moments, it went and left the area quickly, submerging itself in the shadows.
Shit, I was supposed to get rid of it...
Yozora asked what that was, which I explained that everything to him.
He took my explanation very well, I suppose it's not that weird given what happened today.
The two of us got out of the room.
Bidding farewell to each other, and see each other tomorrow.
Classes are bound to be suspended for a week or two, so I decided to invite him over my house tomorrow.
I plan to discuss with him about where we'll start out search
And I'd rather not leave him alone.