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Chapter 19 - confused

Everything was happening so fast that I could not comprehend anything. First I am given a lecture on the history of the school and next thing I have Triston's mouth in mine, but one thing was sure I wanted him in a way I have never wanted anything else before.He pulled away, his fingers grazing my chin. I looked at him, my eyes taking in the beauty in front of me,The feeling of his fingers on me made me think of things I never thought I was capable of, thoughts I had buried away never to be awoken because I thought them to be distractions yet at this very moment can't stop thinking about. His kisses were needy, wanting, l loved every bit of it. His hand wrapped around my waist pulling me closer to him, how can I resist him. My mind went crazy with possible outcomes of this "reckless behavior" as mum would have called it,"is this what we're doing now? Are you going to have sex with Triston a guy who could not stand the sight of you a few days ago in a RESTRICTED FOREST!" my subconscious hinted loudly but I didn't care, yes it's reckless, yes it's naive and foolish but it didn't not matter I wanted him and he wanted me. He kissed my neck, brushing my lower lip with his thumb, I placed my hand on his face gently pushing away the curls which fell on his neck, he looked at me , his eyes looked desperate, confused, unsure, which made me wonder why. I ran my fingers on the butterfly symbol on his neck and I regretted it. In a second everything changed, his eyes narrowed at a spot on my neck.He grabbed my wrist pulling it away from his neck, which caught me off guard, his eyes were fixed on my neck, on my birthmark.

" What's wrong" I said,my heart racing . He looked angry, he lifted my hand in the air and with the other tilting my head "where did you get that?" He said, his eyes fierce, scary infact. "I don't understand let go of my hand " I stuttered trying to break free from his grip, he pulled my hand higher my toes barely touching the ground. " Don't play dumb with me where did you get that mark?" He said louder than before, what was happening, I pushed back the urge to cry or scream my legs went numb and my fingers felt cold. "Triston let go of my wrist your scaring me" I cried, how did things go from amazing to terrifying in a split second. He let go of my wrist, he looked at me like I had hurt him in some kind of way before walking down the hill. I could hear the sound of my heart pounding in my chest. I didn't know what to do, should I follow him or not. "Triston! Wait please" I yelled running after him, what sought of person is he. I grabbed his arm and he turned facing me. "Don't you ever do that again" he said effortlessly breaking free from my grip. "What did I do wrong?"my eyes tearing up , my head hurt,I couldn't believe what was happening. He looked away, his jaw clenched. Right then I couldn't take it any longer " What kind of a monster are you, what did I do to you, I never asked for this. You said you wanted to apologize is this how you apologize,by making me feel worse" I said,my face covered in tears but I didn't care . He turned facing me, " your right I am a monster are you happy now" he said running his fingers through his hair. For some reason I felt he didn't mean what he said, I wanted to believe that he was hiding something that's why he had to be this uncouth, arrogant ass . I didn't say anything else, I had nothing to say once again I have been made a fool. I walked past him heading back to civilization, a part of me wishing to relive the moments before the disaster.

We silently walked back to my hostel, I couldn't wait to get to my bed and just cry. My steps quicken as soon as my hostel came into view, I needed to get far away from him as possible. There were groups of people outside the building as usual most gasped and stared at me then at Triston but I didn't care they could think whatever they wanted to, nothing happened. I saw Tisha and the others coming towards me, I didn't want to talk to any of them especially her, I think I have had enough drama for a day, for the rest of my life even. "I knew it, you said it's best to stay away" Tisha said walking past me like I didn't exist and so did the others. " Triston why? you're putting all of us in danger " Tisha said angrily, I was right, he was hiding something but why,why did he need to stay away . "I needed to be sure about something and now I am" Triston said, his voice cold, his eyes held no emotion. "So that's it, that's why you wanted to see me alone,wow! Real smooth asshole" I said angrily, I felt so used. "Go inside Serena now" Tisha said, she looked tensed, I have never seen her like this before. " No you can't tell me what to do" I didn't know where the confidence to talk back was coming from but I liked it. " Serena get inside please for once can you just fucking lesson please " Tisha rubbed her head, "No!" I yelled back folding my arms cross my chest. "Uhh little daisy here got teeth, sweetie it's safer for you to do as your told " Becky said the corner of her lip pulled up in a smirk. "Oh shut up Becky no one is talking to you!" I yelled letting my hands drop to my side, I'm tired of this bitch, I'm tired of this entire freaking school. "Why don't you come over here and say that princess.." "Becky just shut the fuck up " Xavier yelled, I totally forgot he was here . "Of course you are on her side you are always on her side no matter how many times she has betrayed you, no matter how many times she has betrayed all of us you all are still on her side what a..." "You would do well to hold your tongue Beck " Triston said, his emotionless eyes resting on me. He walked towards me and I stepped back, he looked scary. "Triston..." Tisha said, she sounded worried which made me worried, what was he going to do me. He grabbed my arm pulling me close to him " go inside now " he whispered into my ear, my bones turned into mush and my feet felt glued to the ground. He let go of me and I immediately ran towards the hostel without looking back. "She's the one, she has the mark" I heard Triston say before I entered the building.