Her mind and body were so longing for the release of death that even the guilt towards Alex Miller and Amelia Miller couldn't suppress the surging urge to kill; she was truly shattered inside and out this time, unable to muster the energy to fight the invasion of the disease.
She no longer knew how much courage it took to continue living.
After the turning point in her life, she seemed to have encountered very few things that made her feel joy. However, what made her more desperate was the realization that the reason she had survived so long after the Moore Family's bankruptcy was actually rooted in her love and hatred for Trenton Smith.
Once that emotion had no foothold anymore, Norris Moore crumbled completely.
She could no longer love him, nor could she continue to hate him—the child truly couldn't be born, and he truly couldn't be with her.
She couldn't say that everything Trenton Smith did to her was right, but not leaving that child was indeed correct.