she was having a hard time and I couldn't even notice it 'it was just because I was busy?!?' I'm such an assh*le and don't deserve this precious.
[Darcie's pov]
I was lost and the thin thread which I was hanging onto was about to snap, I heard a familiar music coming from far. unconscious I turned and walked towards it as I stood amidst the crowd, I felt a wave of comfort as a tear fell on my cheek... the wetness brought me back to reality as everything turned dark around me and could no longer hear the music and only ringing in my ears surrounded me...making me miserable..
I turned back and walked away to the place where I found the most comfort from....my safe little place.
I stood on top of the bridge taking in all the beautifulness of the view while I felt sharp pains from everything going on in my life as I clasped my chest tight from the unbearable pain...the voices in my head started to take over.
I turned over and closed my eyes as I felt this refreshing breath of air hitting as my hair followed it's direction, smiling I leaned towards the lake.
I felt warmth around my waist and next thing I knew I was on someone's grasp breathing heavily on top of them ,I soon moved away..I looked down at the hard ground laughing to myself...I can't have my choice even in death.
and that was how things started out and as of recently my boyfriend and the actress Marie..... well I didn't mind it at first as I knew it was a part of his job but as she started to use me for her personal reasons I felt very low as I couldn't do anything about it.....I tried refusing her but she went complaining to the director and producers and they just asked me to do as she says...but it's not really my job to keep her comfortable but I had no word to say as I was not a well know makeup artist and this was a big opportunity, I didn't want to loose it.
Once kai even got hurt on the set while acting and everyone rushed over to him, my heart dropped to my stomach but I couldn't help him at all and just stood there.....I felt soo useless and worthless.
marie helped him and took him to the hospital and this was few of the many other instances which made me feel worst about myself.
she- she was perfect, had the best body and also had a promising career in front of her and I know that I shouldn't read the comments but as all the comments said they were perfect for each other and that they look like the couple from a highschool movie well I slowly got convinced of it... they did look perfect with eachother.
I started to starve myself without even realising as I kept feeling so useless and worthless I thought I didn't deserve to eat.
things were getting hard for me.