Waking up from that bed ,I remember hoping it was all just a long bad dream that would be all gone when I woke up . I opened my eyes there he was looking perfect ,his brown eyes ,my hand locked inside his ,placed near his heart . When he saw my eyes were opened I expected him to smile ,but he just broke down in tears . That jut showed me I was in no dream ,it was just my life .
" How could God hate us so much ,let us fall in love then drops this huge bomb on us " . He asked that looking straight at me as if I had an answer .Tears filled my eyes ,but I tried not to let them drop . When I raised my eyes his friend Malik was by the door and he looked sympathetic towards us . " So it's not all a bad dream ? " stupid question I know but I just had to make sure . He broke down ,my hand became wet from his tears . He grabbed something from his pocket ,it was a velvet box . " I have just met you but it felt like I've known you all my life ,and I was ready to grow old with you " He wiped my hand of his tears and placed the box on my hand.
When I opened it ,I couldn't stop my tears .It was white gold ,slim but rounded with black diamonds . It was a magnificent sight ." Musa No!" I said those words giving it back to him ." It was specifically designed for you ,so at least can keep it ... please " He kissed my fore head and ran off . " I'm really sorry " those were the words of Malik as he ran after his friend . My mouth trembled ,stomach went flat and for that minute I couldn't breathe ,until my cry went out . That was the hardest things in had to accept and couldn't change .
I cried myself to sleep that night and the pains from the stiches did not help . There was this one time when I put the ring on and it fitted like a glove ,as if it belonged . I kept in my hand all night long . In the morning I was woken up by Lwandile . He never asked even once if I was okay but he just gave me his love and comfort . " I'm leaving ,Lord knows staying here will just keep on hurting me over and over again "He didn't look surprise . He took my hand ," Baby before you go just talk to Mr. Sokhulu, you have always wanted to meet your biological father now you have the chance ,don't let it go " he was so serious . Before I could answer him " You lost Musa but at least you gained something better " .
He smiled and went out. I managed to sit up ,Mr. Sokhulu seemed to have been standing by the door that entire time ." you can sit down " I told him .He looked thrilled that I actually talked to him . He took out something from his pocket ,it was his wallet he ended it over to me " Open it " . I did as he asked and to my surprise it was a picture of me ...one as a little girl and the other one looked like one before I moved to Jo'burg. " You don't know how long I have been waiting for this day . When your mom told me about the rape I was so mad Lorna ... I wanted to look after you myself " He had tears in his eyes .
Now that I think of it I have seen Musa's brown eyes ...in the mirror . I spent a week in hospital recuperating , Mr. Sokhulu was there all week . This was the side of his story ... He was in love with my mom a lot ,but then she was forced by her family her family to marry Joe . So he also found Musa's mom dated her and Musa was conceived .When he met up with my mom before her wedding ,their love for each other resurfaced and I was the outcome of that affair. He did assure me he was not proud of it all ,but when he begged Mom to let him have me ,she told him Joe refused .
Mom kept communication with him ,letting him know everything about me ,and gave him pictures . He had a whole photo album with my pi tires in it. He told me " You are my angel ,princess ...my last born baby and right now you may not see the love I have for you " when he told me his story I could see he was genuine . All this time Joe Ill-treated me ,I had a dad just waiting to love me . When I laid my head on his shoulders I felt at home ,his touch was warm and that hug was filled with love and care .
I was really glad I met him . After spending my very first birthday with him just the two of us and it was great . He took me to the fun fair told me all about his adventures ,and most of all he treated me like his princess , his little girl . Musa was away so that made it easier for me to bond with him, I fell in love with my dad ,as if he was there all my life. I had never laughed so hard . He told me all about him and my mom when they were younger ,their stories were so romantic . He made me a promise that for as long as he was alive ,he would do anything for me ,absolutely anything, and he would murder anyone who hurt me. Where was he when Lewis turned me to his punching bag
Speaking of Lewis ,he will never let me be ... he haunts me every night ,the thought of him follows me everywhere I go . I began pretending to be happy so people around me don't see I was slowly dying inside . The air in Jo'burg was becoming too toxic for my liking and I couldn't handle it anymore . My dad ,Mr. Sokhulu had a beautiful house ,with loads of room and he ordered me and Lwandile to move in .He was so amazing towards Lwandile treated him like his own . He became the dad I was yearning for all my life .
We began the new year but I was still stuck in the past and it was slowly consuming me ,I was drowning .This is not how I imagined turning twenty one would be like . My dad and Sheila could see something was eating me up . She told me about the place ,it's like a therapy rehab center ,where I can get closure and begin healing . She told me she knew it wouldn't be easy ,but it will help . Dad suggested whilst I undergo my therapy I should think about getting a degree .
It certainly took a lot in me to tell Lwandile I was leaving ,not just for a few days but it could be a few years . When Dad told him about how he could fly over every weekend ,just to chill with me ,he was over the moon . But most of all he was happy I was going to get back to normal .I was worried about leaving Lwandile alone ,but Sheila loved having him around the house they forced him to move in .
Varsity was to begin in February ,but I had to travel earlier to settle in and check in into therapy . I was all packed ready to go and the whole family came to the airport to bid me farewell . It was perfect ,well until I saw Musa walking towards me . Oh God ! Why did he have to come back ,I was starting to move on without him . Whilst he was walking to me ,my mind replayed all the good times we shared ,they were short but amazing .
Lwandile just gave me a hug and a kiss " I'll call you a thousand times ,and message you always, okay ?" That what he said as he blew me a kiss and went away . Sheila and Dad also said their goodbyes and went off . " You looking better ..." Musa said those words giving me a hug . That was endearing and it made my heart stop for a moment. " Look what I got ...so you won't forget me ." He took out silver plain necklace ,he took the ring from my right hand ,slipped it on the necklace and placed it around my neck .
I could feel his breathing down my neck . It brought back the night of passion we never had . When I turned around we stared into each other's arms for some time . " You have no idea ,how I have been praying that I find out my mom cheated ,and Dad was not my dad ! " When he said those words I couldn't help but smile ." We would have been something superb ,hey ? " I said that and he smiled too, flashing out those white teeth of his . Now that we had accepted our lives as they were , it was a little better .
I had a few minutes left before I boarded the plane ,so we had to say our final goodbyes ,and as they say it's never easy . I took my bags and began walking ,he grabbed my hand and turned me around ...he did the unexpected . Lord he kissed me and it was amazing , I didn't push him away ." Lorna ,let's just run away ,forget about our family ,my dad, You have crept deep into my heart and I can't let you go out and leave that big hole in my heart ." when he said that ,I was tempted to go with him ,carry on loving him as I had planned ,and as my heart wanted .
I just looked him in the eye and gave him the biggest and tightest hug ever . I gave him a big kiss on his cheeks " next time when I exit that plane, I'm hoping we will be the best of siblings " .He wiped his tears and just nodded . I made my way to the plane .I don't know what triggered those emotions ,but as soon as I took that seat ,tears went down my cheeks and my hand was clinging on that ring dangling in my chest . There was this cute girl seating next to me ,she just handed me her pink handkerchief which smelled of strawberries.