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Chapter 5 - Breather

She was the last person to leave The Kings quarters everyone else had left or escorted the Gemir royal family to their carriages, Freya felt a cold trickle down her spine whether it was sweat of her back giving out she didn't seem to care. She couldn't get over the fact that the man she had a one night stand with just a couple of weeks ago would end up being the prince she's being contracted to marry.

All her fears of the marriage started coming to fruition, she can't love a man like this the best thing that she could get out of him was the night they had when they met she couldn't imagine herself spending the rest of her life with this man right here

" The nerve of him , he just acted and moved as if nothing happened between us " she furiously whispered to herself on her way back to her room.

She would spend the rest of the day sick to her stomach, thinking and pondering about what to do with herself and her life. She went to sleep sad.

She hadn't been able to really go out herself and get some alone time since the day the news broke out but unlike before she had to go get permission from Her Father, since she was told she's getting married her father had put her under tight supervision, she didn't find it offensive although because she was aware of how unpredictable she could be.

" Princess Freya your Majesty " The butler announced. God did his voice irritate her today

" Have her come in "

She walked inside and met him having a time of leisure he was delighting him self in a book , Freya could see the cover before he set the book down and took off his glasses. THE WEALTH OF NATIONS by Adam Smith, she rarely saw her father take sometime to read and it must mean he was in a very good mood.

She had been avoiding him for most of the past two weeks, but here she was face to face with him. They used to be really when she was younger before her other two siblings came along , they would spend almost all his available time with each other.

" Freya, how're you doing? " he said in his coarse yet smooth voice

" Good morning Father, I came to seek for permission I want to go out and have sometime to myself "

" No problem Freya, you can go out "

That was surprisingly easy, She was expecting this dialogue to be much more complicated

" but I'm coming with you, it's been a while since we spoke. Let's take a walk around Bristol central park and thereafter I'll leave you to it"

The ride to the park was awkward they didn't utter a single word to each other, she was supposed to be furious and boiling with anger but most of the intimate memories she made with her father was at that park. They would take walks, ride on horses and sometimes fish in the pond Over the years their relationship had been slowly fading she came to realize as she got more older she got the more differences in their personalities had surfaced.

They got off the carriage and The king waived off the guards to leave them be. Unlike her nature, she hadn't gone out for more than two weeks she was happy at that particular moment to take the fresh air and all the green scenery in, She had never known the park to be not peaceful and that's what she loved about it.

It was open an open Area with never ending shadows of towering London Plane trees to both your right and your left , Autumn was fast approaching so the floor was full of golden leaves the King swept some leaves off a concrete bench and gestured her to sit down.

" Freya "

" Yes Father " she replied while sitting down beside him and she took a long look at him

He's aged so much , she'd been living her life too fast to notice what would be his thick black hair and full beard was noe predominantly silver colored and it's only a shell of what it used to be before. The skin beside his eyes too had started to wrinkle and he took much more deeper breaths than usual. Being the king had certainly been taking it's toll on him.

" This must all be too overwhelming for you I understand, but his is not coming from a place of hate or displeasure towards you. you're born a princess there are some luxuries that come with it so are equally some vices "

She didn't say anything so he continued...

" There are things that come with managing an entire Land with it's citizens I hope you'll understand someday, that's why things are done the way they are "

" but why make it a contract? " it took all she had no to break while she said it.

" it was requested by The Gemir's, for his vague reasons. if you leave our alliance would be dissolved but if anything else and the prince so chooses to leave himself then nothing of negative effect will occur "

" Freya , Do so with that information with what you wish. He's coming to Bristol in a few days you should do your best to acquaint him" He told her as he got up and left.

Everything her father said seemed so distant and distorted for even after minutes he left she was deep in her own thoughts and didn't realize she was alone, she stood up and decided to take a walk around the park and reminisced her memories growing up, all the aspirations she had as a child and the freedom that came with it.

She wanted to go abroad and learn about so many cultures and civilizations, the wonders of the world and every other thing on the endless list of stuff she wanted to do. She had always entertained the ideas she would love to do most of those with the man she was in love with, a man who understands her and deeply yearns for passion just as she does but all that seemed so far and unachievable any longer. Her heart was in a lot of pain.