Why is life too cruel to me? Can I really not have a peaceful life? All these kind of thoughts always cross my mind ever since that moment happen to me. Yes, as hurtful as it can, my heart was torn into pieces, all because I can't supress these feelings.

I did say it was a load off my shoulders, but it still hurts like hell.

I confessed to the person I liked ever since 4th grade, but things don't go well all the time for me. I'm a fourth year high school student right now. I confessed, got rejected, and fell into the thought that i should've never told her these feelings, since its just a hindrance for her. Its a bother but let me tell you a little about it.

I'm Opher Mystic, 18 yrs. old. I have this girl I liked since 4th grade, whom was the most cheerful, most cute and beautiful person I have ever known. I liked her so much that all I could think was the optimistic part that she would reciprocate my feelings towards her. I was her classmate ever since. I tried and gathered courage to tell her my feelings. But life isn't always on the happy and joyful days. When I told her what I intended to say, she turned down my confession, saying I'm merely a stranger to her. I was hurt, hurt so badly that it changed my life forever. My confession was when I was 6th grade in middle school.

Days gone by, and life was cruel as it was. I was dying inside, barely holding on. The optimistic me became the pessimistic person who can't think brightly anymore. I thought that i could never fall in love with another person, that maybe she didn't accept me because of my looks, my plain and boring me.

6 months after that, and my heart slowly moved on from the pain. But i was never the bright, joyful and outgoing person anymore. I'm almost halfway through the graduation day and I'm turning into a college student next school year. I sure hope life wouldn't be so cruel to me this time...