Many emotions, such as grief, guilt, or suffering, may be experienced by someone who is in a one-sided love situation.
Yet taking those feelings into account would be pointless because the other person you were hoping for would not be able to recognize them, especially if it was your best friend.
A lot of words may or can describe what ones feel in a one-sided love. Yet, one will undoubtedly illustrate it. IT SUCKS, it really feels sucks.
"Lia"
"Lia!"
A loud pitch voice call out to her name, making her jump out of her thoughts.
"Hey you doze off for a moment there, is everything okay?"
Lia turn look on her side, to only see her best friend standing with a marshmallow stuff in her mouth.
Before Lia can even speak for her self, Thea interrupted, adding another words to her sentence.
"You have been drowning in your thoughts again are you?" said she then let out a mocking chuckle, which made Lia to immediately opposed it.
"Okay, in my defense, you took so long to buy your food, that's why the blame is not all mine" remarked Lia while Thea dumbfoundedly scoffed by her reasoning.
"Yeah a 3 minutes time that I take to buy is far too long" Thea respond in an obvious sarcastic tone which Lia just rolled off and ignore as she turn her gaze back where she was originally looking at.Thea notices the strange of her stare on to something or possibly someone.
As to her interest and curiosity, she sat down beside her to looked exactly at the direction she's looking at.
"Who are you even looking at?" asked Thea with so much curiosity in her.
From across the room, there stand two boys whose chatting with each other.
In amidst of their conversation, there's the girl who butt in, causing for them to be disturb.
"Hey Kire you're being called by miss park into her office ".
Both of them turn their heads from where the voice came from, and then saw woman standing in between of them. Oliver can't help but to notice how Kire's gaze suddenly soften and glimmer upon seeing the lady.
"Yeah I'll be there" answered Kire smiling.
The girl nod as a response before leaving the place.
"Hey are you okay?" Oliver called him as he saw Kire being dazed in his current position, which made him jolt from his place to eventually get his senses back.
"Ah yeah yeah, by the way I'll just see you later at the practice" Kire abruptly state as he burst out of the room, running off before Oliver can even respond back.
"Yeah" Oliver muttered, which Kire didn't heard since he was hurrying out of the classroom.
An hour or so went by when the practice started. Oliver And Kire, along with the other teammates exhaustedly lie down on the gym's floor once the coach give a signal for their dismissal.
"Okay that's it for today, I'll see you next time, make sure to clean up the gym. State the coach as he dismissed them.
'you mean see you never' Oliver utter in his thoughts sarcastically caused by exhaustion, lying down on the gym's floor. His worn out that he can't even complain a word, rethinking his life decisions for picking basketball as a club to join.
The worst thoughts added up as he remembered that Kire and him is in charge for today's cleaning. He just heave out a sigh to ease himself up.
"You look like a soaked out rug" Kire casually commented while drinking a water on his bottle, causing Oliver to halt from his place, staring at him dumbfoundedly.
"And who's fault is that?" replied Oliver in such bewildered tone, darting a glare at him.
"Well— at least you're getting exercise from it" he randomly state as a response to counter what Oliver just said .
Oliver just sigh hopelessly, upon the fact that he can still vividly remember why he got into this hellish training. It is because of Kire who asked him to join the basketball team along with him when they were first year, and Oliver from that time know for himself that he can't refuse him.
"I should've tried out for photography" he uttered dispiritedly as he began to clean up the gym.
The whole cleaning took at least 5 minutes of Oliver's lifespan which could've more shorter if Kire didn't decide to fool around.
At last they get the last batch of the other equipment and put it in the storage room.
Before Oliver could celebrate from finishing their task, he speak to point out something.
"Okay your continuous sighing is getting annoying, what's the deal?" Said Oliver as he gets tick off by Kire's continuous sigh.
Since the last time he stop blabbering a minute ago. Kire's sighing also started at that moment.
"It's just— it's about Alexa" claim Kire as he Takes a courage to open it up to Oliver.
Oliver briefly paused from his movements upon hearing the sudden drop of name that happens to be his close friend.
"Alexa? W-what about her?" asked he, still remaining in his place, not looking at him.
"As time pass by, I'm starting to realize that my feeling for her keeps growing" revealed he in such a honest statement.
That something Oliver have already been expecting from his observation to Kire's recent change of reaction whenever he sees Alexa. Yet he still can't stop himself from being shock from Kire's announcement that came right from him.
There's a sudden pain he felt from inside him, like a little thorn pieces plunged at him. Which he also immediately discarded, not wanting to conclude something from it.
He forced his thoughts out of his head and sat down next to Kire, who was slouching on the ground, staring into nowhere.
" What a coincidence, Alexa actually have a crush on you when we were first year—but she's totally over about it now." Oliver revealed casually that obviously shock the guy on his right.
"Really!? Why didn't you tell me before" he shouted out which echoed into the whole gym.
"As if I could, you're totally head over heels to Sabrina at that time" uttered he, rolling hi eyes through the air upon remembering such sight.
"But it's gonna be different this time because I'm sure about her this time." Said Kire confidently, looking soo determine.
"Hmm—sure" He murmured absentmindedly, refraining himself on getting his emotion take over him.
Each day goes by and Oliver notice how Kire determinedly get close to Alexa, making bold move like giving hints about his feelings.
Thus it takes Alexa to finally asked Oliver about the whole thing, which he quickly makes a lie for it.
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Today is the day of Saturday which is a perfect chance for some relaxation for Oliver from all the school works that he had from the whole weekdays and it is the best time to just laze around his bed all day and watch movies.
Yet here he is, standing somewhere in a crowded people while a loud music keep blasting.
"Oliver! Good thing you came" shouted Kire along the crowds noise around them, running towards his direction.
"Remind me to kill you later after this." State Oliver in an annoy tone which he made obvious for Kire to see how he despise being in here.
It was a while ago when Oliver was about to watch the series that his been wanting to watch. Until Kire call him and interrupted, saying that he should join him into a party throw by their teammates since Alexa would be also be there.
Which Oliver obviously don't give a shit and hang up as soon as Kire stop from talking. But after a couple of minutes of continuous ringing from him phone, he didn't a choice but to give in the series of miraculous ladybug that he's been watching for six years and agreed.
"I hate you" said Oliver as he groan in irritation, not just because of Kire but also to himself that easily fell for it like that.
"Love you too" Kire casually said, grabbing his hands to pull him to side where their other classmates is located.
"You do know that we're underage, and if you decide to drink, I won't" exclaim Oliver as he start scolding Kire for bringing a liquor.
"Yeah I know I know, that's why I have a cola with me just for you" said he, pulling out the cola and give to him. Oliver rolled his eyes, breathing out a sigh In annoyance, though he eventually takes the cola from him since he doesn't have anything to drink other than that.
It turns out that it is their last talk before Kire was drag by their other teammates from basketball team, leaving Oliver all alone.
' that jerk, he invite me saying that he was alone, but left alone In here' he uttered I his thoughts In disbelief.
His thoughts were disrupted when a voice called out to his name.
"Oliver?" said the person that sounded like a lady's tone.
"oh Alexa!" He pointed out, startled upon seeing her in such surprised.
"Its really you Oliver, I didn't know that you would come, who are you with?" exclaim Alexa with the same surprise as Oliver.
"Don't even get me started, that stupid Kire drag me in here and now left alone In here" complain he, fusing all about the earlier scenarios, as Alexa takes a seat beside him.
"He's here?"
"Y-yeah"
A deafening silence followed by that only the people's noise is heard between them.
" So- how's it goings between you and Kire" Asked Oliver, popping the silence around them which he eventually regretted to asked as he realized how awkward it is to asked about it In this situation. But Oliver can't think of anything else to ask that he managed to abruptly blabber out the things inside his thoughts.
Alexa was quite surprised with the question, though she tried to answer it so she can let out her thoughts about it.
"I honestly don't know what to conclude from his strange action since his always been gentle and generous to the people he meet, so it's been really hard to not interpret it In other way". Alexa state, struggling to put on words that would better describe what her thoughts about it.
"well I guess he's been like that since before, always kind, always caring and even though he's sometimes stupid he will still look after you if need him." Oliver dazedly uttered, drown in his thoughts upon remembering some memories and having a smile in his face without even realizing until Alexa spoken.
"I know I've asked you about this before but, are you sure that there's nothing with Kire this day, have he said anything to you"
"Other than his being goofy and corny self and there's nothing that Kire have mention about me recently" answered Oliver which the two shared a laugh while the truth is Oliver has been telling her a lie.
Even before Oliver become friends with Kire, he have already noticed his peculiar personality on treating everyone he meets nicely, that even Oliver made himself believe that there's something from it. But Oliver already wake up from that lie long before and get used to it.
After talking for another minute or so about some random topic, Alexa bid farewell when her friend came, looking for her.
And Oliver was again left alone in his place with his cola being his accompany.
An hour pass by when his peace was again interrupted by someone's breath blown in his ear that cause him to yelp out of shocked and fall into his chair.
"You idiot why did you do that!?" Oliver exclaimed huffing from disbelief while holding his right ear.
But Kire just laugh, grinning at him as an only response.
"Are you dunk?" Asked he upon noticing his current state, to his flush cheeks, and unto his stumble body.
"What drunk?" answered Kire with a chuckle. Which convince Oliver that he is actually drunk.
"Yup you're drunk, let's go" remarked he then snatch Kire's wrist to walk out of their, but when Kire is not on the state to even walk properly, Oliver didn't have a choice but to carry him, putting his arm on top of his shoulder as he carry his weight on his back.
"No I'm not" he persistently said
"You are" Response Oliver into a listless tone.
That argument last until they got out from the party's venue and was walking on the road.
They decided, well Oliver rather, to head their way to his his house since Kire's house is on the other subdivision which is far to walk and it'll be harder to handle Kire's weight on his back any longer.
"Stop struggling you're too damn heavy" he complain when Kire almost slipped from his hold while he keep his eyes on the road, since he can't bear to even turn around or swift his head that might cause an accident from his wrong move.
Meanwhile Kire o his back that has been noisy a while ago, have become completely quiet in his position, which bothers Oliver for a time now.
"Hey" Kire murmured right Into his ears, thus it makes him startled from his sudden action.
"What—" asked he, turning his head to Kire's direction which turn out to be a big mistake.
His heart starts to pound faster, feeling the urge to ran away from his position but something inside him telling to stay from where he is. Not a second after, their closed, intact lips parted, which give Oliver an air to breath from short of breath. He began to pant from anxious, from shocked, from scared, from everything.
'Shit shit shit'
Though before he even began to explode from terror the guy on his side seems to stay quiet even from what happen. He open his eyes only for him to see Kire who's busy snoring.
He doesn't know how he got himself and Kire home, but he do know that he didn't get a wink of sleep.
Ever since that incident happen, Oliver started ignoring Kire for almost a week. Which bothers Kire for the same week since all he can remember from the party was that Oliver was taking him back home and everything just turn black that when he woke up, he can't barely remember anything afterwards.
On the other hand, Oliver is still going on with ignoring Kire, rather avoiding him, as soon as they got to school.
He tried to avoid getting into a conversation with Kire about what happened, not trying to know if he even remember what happen that Saturday night. He can't bear to hear what he's gonna say about that matter.
It's been a total of five days since Oliver has start eating at the school's rooftop during lunch because there would be a huge possibility that he would ran into Kire at the school's cafeteria.
While Kire who has been trying to take a chance to speak with him during class time, but didn't succeed even once.
Oliver lie down on the cold cement when he finish eating his lunch while his mind is dazed from the sight of the clouds.
"Oliver" call out by a manly tone.
He immediately raise on his feet as he heard a voice, a very familiar voice to be exact.
"Kire? W-what are you doing here?" he asked with an obvious stuttered caused by his shocked to suddenly see Kire Infront of him. His heart began to pound faster as his mind also began to panic.
"I finally found you" uttered he between his breath, catching an air to Inhale from the exhaustion of running through the stairs.
"Don't even think of running" He added when Oliver tried to take a step, sneaking out from his current place. That obviously make him halted from his position.
"You've been avoiding me this couple of days and I know now why" state he in such serious tone which cause Oliver to be stunned. But the next step that he makes is even more surprising than what he expected.
"I'm sorry to puke on you when I was drunk!" shouted he, slamming his head as bow down to the floor, apologizing.
Oliver was dumbfounded by his action and words he uttered which leave him hanging his mouth open, speechless fro brief moment.
"What?"
" Isn't it the reason why you've been avoiding me?" He look up as he speak.
"What!? No It's not that!" Exclaimed Oliver when he finally pick himself up from
" It's just that I have some personal problems that I've been handling" state he, covering it up a lie from the real thoughts in his head
" Well what ever personal things that is, you have to remember that you can tell me about it and I cared about those personal problems of yours since I'm your best friend" Kire assured, Patting Oliver on his shoulder as he have those reassuring look to comfort him, but what's truth is that he's the personal problem.
" By the way, what's the deal, why did you ran up here" Oliver suddenly pointed out to change the course of the subject before it gets even more awkward.
" Besides the reason of finding you, I've been meaning to tell you that i— I already confessed to Alexa about my feelings" Announce Kire in a rapid voice, feeling unsure about how to say it.
Oliver was obviously shocked of course from what Kire revealed, however Kire speak for the second time that Oliver didn't get a chance to comment.
"Well…. She rejected me, of course, but I still feel relieved from letting out what I feel" Uttered Kire with a clear sadness in his tone.
For a moment, he hated himself at that time, hate himself from feeling relief, perhaps happy inside that Kire was rejected by Alexa.
"But still, I'm not gonna give up just because of that, I'll work hard to earn her yes" state he blatantly with those chessy words.
And another factor that Oliver hate, is how Kire is so persistent about things he wants.
" You're truly a hard head" muttered Oliver under his breath.
And as what Kire said. He works his ass off in courting Alexa. He continuously did that for their whole year. Along in that year is when Oliver grave his feelings for Kire.
Days turn into weeks, into year till they reach their graduation in highschool.
Every students starts to depart to their own part for their own career and their own lives. Same through with Oliver and Kire.
They start to become busy because of their courses that neither of two see each other often. But it was actually Oliver who made excuses everytime Kire decides to meet up. He was favor from this set up at least since it'll be easier for Oliver to Set his feelings in danger.
It was Saturday morning. A new day with it's current wonderful weather, along with the people whose still be sleeping from the exhausting weekdays that pass by.
With their body lying close to each other and leg tangled, along with the blanket that still covering them up. Both of them lying with each other's scent.
" Good morning" muttered by a manly tone from a guy beside him. Oliver smile from the sight. They relax from each other's presence until he slowly close their gap, slowly closed his eyes.
" Oliver?" Called out by a man's voice from the other telephone line, that gives surprised to go him
" Are you still there?" Asked Kire for the second time when he noticed that Oliver seemed to stay quiet for a moment.
"Y-yeah" Oliver stuttered as he didn't stop it.
" Thank God you finally contact me, I—"
"Kire" Before Kire could've start with his talk again, he was already cut off by Oliver who suddenly called his name.
" I always have lov—" The next thing he said was
unfinished from the unexpected loud crush heard from the Oliver's line.
Kire didn't have a time to make a reaction when he was interrupted by a lot of noise coming from people and loud horns coming from cars.
"hey!"
" gurl you're day dreaming again, get yourself up"