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Chapter 56 - Chapter 5 - Subaru Natsuki, The Self-Declared Knight

5.1

—Subaru learned of how the tale had proceeded in his absence thanks to

Reinhard and Ferris, who had shown up together in the castle's waiting room.

 "And so the meowgnificent royal selection began," Ferris concluded.

"Subawu, you're going to serve as Lady Emilia's knight, huh? Good luck to both

of us."

 Ferris wrapped up his summary, but the sarcastic twist of the knife at the end

was very sharp indeed. He'd been in the chamber from start to finish; surely he

knew quite well what kind of mental state Subaru was in. But Subaru had no

time to pay the jab any heed. The royal selection details were crucial, but at

that moment, there was an issue Subaru had to find out about even more than

that.

 Seeing how Subaru was too timid to properly ask, Reinhard answered his

unspoken question.

 "—The old man is unharmed. His safe release has been secured through Lady

Felt's kindness."

 "—!"

 "I didn't think he'd come in through the same corridor without you seeing his

face, and I knew you two know each other. It was easy to guess why you were

anxious."

 When Subaru lifted a finger, Reinhard moved quickly to assuage his concerns.

But even he didn't know the true source of Subaru's sense of guilt.

 The instant Subaru had let himself leave Old Man Rom to rot, a dark cloud

formed at the bottom of his heart from which there was no salvation.

 Ferris chimed in, "That's wonderful. You should thank Reinhard and Lady Felt

because it's all thanks to them. Now you don't need to make any excuses at all,

Subawu!"

 "—"

 An icy shudder ran up Subaru's spine. He looked up and turned to face Ferris.

His amber eyes glittered like they could see right through Subaru, all the way

into his soul.

 Having someone look inside him felt deeply unpleasant. So Subaru forced his

stiff face into motion to cover it up.

 "Y-yeah… I'm so glad! Totally like I figured! It really was a good idea to leave it

all to Emilia-tan and Felt—better than anything I could've done… Right? That's

right, isn't it?" Subaru spread his arms wide as he gave both a dose of

deliberate, exaggerated, clownish behavior, his next words even hastier and

more flippant, "But man, Felt really set her heart on winning the royal selection

'cause of me, and that means one more strong rival for the throne. Emilia-tan

might give me a real scolding for this one."

 In different ways, the expressions on Reinhard's and Ferris's faces changed in

response to Subaru's sudden shift, but in the end, they chose not to press the

point.

 Both knights were showing him pity. Subaru, painfully aware of the fact,

ignored his crippled heart's pleas.

 "So now that the talk is all over, where is Emilia-tan and everybody?"

 "The candidates remained in the chamber to discuss the fine details of the

royal selection process. During that time, I said I would go to check on you, and

Ferris came with me," replied Reinhard.

 Reinhard's actions made sense, but he couldn't stop wondering why Ferris

was showing his face, too. Thus, Subaru asked the latter, "Thanks for checking

up on me, but is this all right, not being by your master's side?"

 "It's totally fine. Lady Crusch is much stronger than Ferri, so it's perfectly

safe!"

 "Just laying that out there like that… How's a slacker like you in the Knights of

the Royal Guard, anyway?"

 Ferris gave Subaru a sidelong glance and wagged a finger at him. His fingertip

glowed with a blue light.

 "Mew know why. Ferri's got a special talent that's in high demand."

 "Uh… Why do I feel lighter, like my shoulders, knees, and hips aren't working

as hard anymore…?"

 "Subawu, your body's aching all over like an old man."

 "That's your selling point, eh…? Right, I heard you're a really good water

mana user."

 In the first place, the reason Subaru was allowed to go with Emilia to the

capital was to improve the poor physical condition he was in. The one who was

supposed to heal him was none other than the cat-eared man before his eyes.

 Reinhard replied to Subaru's comment, saying, "The words really good do not

suffice, Subaru. It is fairer to call Ferris the greatest master of water-type magic

on the continent. It is not for nothing that he bears the title of 'Blue,' standing

at the pinnacle of those who share his magical affinity despite his young age."

 Reinhard's praise prompted Ferris to push his chest out, displaying not the

slightest shred of modesty.

 "Meow, the title came from all Ferri's fans."

 Given that he really was a healer as good as his title, Subaru saw his

numerous admirers in a new light. It really put into perspective that this person

was treating him.

 Subaru's tone was heavy and pained as he arrived at the answer he'd

expected.

 "—So Emilia-tan really did…"

 "So Lady Emilia indeed organized it," Reinhard concluded.

 Subaru could only guess at the back-and-forth that arranged for his healing.

That was why he couldn't stop the heavy melancholy rising deep in his heart.

 Asking Ferris, in the Crusch camp, to treat his body meant relying on a

political rival on the very eve of the royal selection. In other words, Subaru had

been deadweight for Emilia…again.

 He asked, "Hey, why do I have to accept the treatment no matter what?"

 "Because she already paid. If Ferri doesn't heal you, Subaru, it'll mean Lady

Emeowlia went through aaaaall that effort for nothing."

 "What's this payment? If it's just some object, you can hand it back, ri—"

 "It's not an object, and once you know it you can't give it back. So Ferri has to

say no to your request, Subawu."

 Shot down at point-blank range, Subaru could only put a hand to his forehead

and cradle his head.

 Even though Subaru didn't want to be a liability, it seemed that was all he had

been to Emilia. He wanted to help her. That was Subaru's whole reason for

being there. It was the one and only reason that gave his existence there any

meaning.

 A tranquil voice echoed through the waiting room. The speaker was neither

Reinhard nor Ferris, but a man with refined features leaning against the open

door—Julius.

 "—If you curse your own lack of strength so much, I believe you have one

choice you can make."

 Subaru's face shot up like it had been slapped.

 "What? Oh, it's you."

 Subaru scowled with resentment. Julius received his gaze with a calm,

composed look.

 "I would rather you did not make such a disagreeable expression. I did not

expect a warm welcome, but letting your emotions get the better of you…"

 "The better of me… So what?"

 "…It brings the character of those who stand with you into question. Strive to

remember this."

 "Ugh…!"

 Subaru's throat constricted with anger. It wasn't the words themselves, but

the sensitive places they jabbed.

 He maintained his silence as Julius strode past him toward an open window.

 "Now, I suppose you wanted to ask me what I am doing here?" The knight

turned his back, surveying the grounds beyond the palace, narrowing his eyes

as a breeze blew. "Naturally, I came to see you. I would like you to accompany

me for a brief time."

 How about it? Julius asked with a wave of his hand. The man's sharp gaze

even then implied this was not some friendly suggestion.

 "Just so you know, I'd never say yes to something like that, not knowing the

place or what it's for, even on one hour's sleep."

 "The place is the parade square. The objective… Yes."

 In response to Subaru's seemingly casual but extremely biting words, Julius

looked down in apparent thought. Then, with an arrogant smile, he spoke with

as much venom as Subaru had.

 "How about…teaching you a lesson or two about reality?"