i.1
Compared to her older sister, the girl named Rem had a very difficult
everyday life.
Even among humanoids, the might and mana possessed by the demon race
were head and shoulders above the rest. Their robust bodies and the quality of
the mana they employed granted them peerless fighting strength. They boasted
the title of the mightiest of all humanoid races.
The single weakness the demons possessed was their crushingly low
population. A race dedicated to producing the mightiest individuals did not give
breath to great numbers, and so, despite their strength, the demon race was
obliged to dwell in poor villages deep within the mountains.
Because they were a race dwelling far from human habitation, there were
strict taboos among the demons to protect their limited numbers.
To their race, twins were abominations. This was one of the unbreakable laws
of demon kind.
By nature, demons are born with two horns on their head. In tranquil times
the horns are hidden, but when circumstances change and their demon
instincts awaken, the horns appear on their heads and consume mana from the
surrounding area. Their horns draw in and control mana from the atmosphere,
greatly heightening their combat capabilities. This purpose made them the
pride of their race.
But twins were born with only one horn each.
Among demons, the "hornless" were considered the dregs of society. Losing
even one was cause for ridicule. Twins lacked something deeply precious from
the moment of their birth. What else could they be but abominations?
And so, it was taught that twins were to be discarded immediately.
The fate of this pair of twins ought to have ended then and there. And it
would have, had one of the twins not displayed her gift from the heavens with a
tremendous burst of magical power the very moment the chief, having made
the bitter decision, was about to render judgment by his own hand.
i.2
The older twin was named Ram; the younger, Rem. Both occupied the lowest
rungs on the ladder among the tribe.
Their daily lives were far from pleasant. Even though their lives had been
spared, they were still twins. Both were treated as hornless from the beginning
and raised inhospitably by their people.
In spite of their connection by blood, their own parents acted distantly
toward them. Their fellow tribesmen did not hide their contempt for the two
"abominations." For both of them, it was the worst childhood imaginable.
The hostility continued until the demons realized what they were capable of
—or more precisely, until the older of the twins became aware of it herself.
The most accurate term describing Ram during childhood was wonder child.
She had talent that exceeded even that of great demons throughout their
storied history. Indeed, their entire race was enthralled by the beauty of Ram's
horn, which allowed her to use a vast amount of mana in spite of her youth. Her
demeanor was as forthright as the single, pure white horn on her forehead,
lacking any hint of becoming drunk on her own might and potential, making it
seem natural for their brethren to bow their heads before her.
It was very special treatment for a girl who was not yet ten years of age.
Even their cold and distant parents, even their kin who had openly scorned
them, even the chief who had tried to slay the twins shortly after birth—all
were speechless before Ram's authority. She was destined from birth to
become the pinnacle of the horned demons, the mightiest of all humanoid
races.
Members of a race that prized individual strength were flawless in their
politeness toward an individual with such power. And yet, Ram never once used
the tribe's reverence for her own benefit.
All Rem could do was stumble down her older sister's path to glory.
She had no abilities above the norm. Her mana supply was strictly average,
with her body's capabilities in line with what a normal demon with only one
horn could do. Compared to Ram, she did not have a shred of confidence; she
cowered behind her sister's back like a shadow.
That was how the young Rem coped. That was how she protected her
immature heart.
It wasn't that she was jealous of her older sister. She admired her. She adored
her.
It wasn't that her parents hated her. They loved the younger as well as the
older.
It wasn't as if their people had spurned Rem. Of course they had high hopes.
She was her little sister.
Her sister, kinder than anyone; her parents, full of expectations; all her kin,
cheering her on to excel like her twin—these were the little cuts that chafed
Rem.
No doubt it was the direct consequence of her and her sister looking like two
peas in a pod. Yet even though their heights and faces were identical, their
qualities as demons were on completely different scales.
Of course, Rem strived to change those circumstances. It may have been no
more than shallow, clumsy trial-and-error efforts by a young child, but Rem
tried any and every way of getting closer to her older sister, to beat her in even
a single area.
But Ram was simply better at everything.
And so, Rem was still a young child when she learned that the sister to whom
she was closest, the sister she loved more than anything, occupied an area that
she could never, ever reach.
She could never stand by her sister's side. Ram would always walk ahead of
her, bathed in the light of the world. Rem's place was behind her sister,
cowering behind her back, peeking out once in a while, only to shrink away
from the dazzling light.
Once she gave up, she could accept the sufferings of daily life, like a reed
bending with the wind.
—She wondered how long she would have to bear her own weak capitulation.
i.3
One night, Rem awoke, unable to sleep well because of the heat.
She slid off the wooden bed and pulled the blankets off her sweat-covered
body. When Rem looked around, she suddenly realized that her older sister,
always sleeping beside her, was gone.
I have to look for my sister right away, she thought.
If her sister was awake, she had to follow behind her majestic gait. To do so
without fail, even for matters as trivial as waking up briefly to pee, was Rem's
obsession at the time.
I have to go outside—but only then did Rem belatedly notice the source of
the warmth—flames that enveloped her home.
When she touched the doorknob, she yanked her hand back from its heat. At
that moment, the truth sank in. Rem's sleepy sense of smell was awoken by the
scent of something burned; her forehead felt itchy as her horn grew, appearing
fully.
Instantly, she used her solid body to break the door down and dash out of the
house enveloped in the hellish flames. She didn't know why this had happened,
but she obeyed her instincts to flee, to get outside.
Rem kicked apart the brittle fence and rushed from her home to the outside
world.
Even then, a single, fanatical thought ruled in her mind: I have to leave the
house and have Sis tell me what to do.
But then, that thought fell by the wayside at the sight awaiting her once she
left the house.
In the center of the village was a pile of burned bodies. The burning houses
and flame-swept trees had turned her familiar world into a reddish hell in one
night.
When Rem saw the faces of her parents among the corpses swallowed by the
flames, she immediately abandoned all rational thought and fell to her knees
then and there.
Rem remained kneeling as a group of men dressed in black robes calmly
surrounded her. Even up close, the deep shadows of their hoods hid their faces
until they were very close; even then, they were not faces she recognized.
However, when Rem did not sense a single trace of goodwill from them, a smile
came over her that seemed alien on her cheeks.
That smile was the one that hid her despair for the good of everyone else.
The figures did not respond in the slightest to the expression or the pain
behind it.
The shadows approached her, raising their hands and swinging the
glimmering silver blades within them down at the girl—but their heads flew off
in the next moment.
Blood. In a single moment, four lives had been taken with such skill that the
heads never raised a shout, never even realized what had happened.
The familiar feel of the mana pulsing against her skin instantly told Rem it was
the work of her sister. She stood up.
If her sister was here, Rem had to follow her lead.
She didn't even need to look around. Her eyes located her older sister
immediately.
The face identical to Rem's own was warped with grief. The older sister ran
over to embrace the younger, sighing with relief and relaxing her body when
she realized Rem was unharmed. Rem hugged her sister back, never feeling
more pathetic, or happier, in her life.
—Rem did not clearly remember what happened next.
She thought that she'd leave everything up to her sister.
That was best. That was right. Sis always chose the finest option among all
available possibilities.
And yet, they had been surrounded before she realized it.
Even with silhouettes so numerous they formed a wall, Rem looked at them in
a daze, still believing that Sis would somehow overcome.
Her sister pushed before her, straining herself yelling. Tears flowed from her
cheeks; her body seemed to shrink as she made a desperate plea.
When they threw her sister to the ground, Rem felt troubled. To look down at
her sister was to contradict her way of life. To stand behind her sister, to hide
behind her back, was what brought meaning to her existence.
Her sister screamed. She returned to her feet and spread her hands out
before her. She unleashed the mana. The power would flow through her sister,
and invisible blades would descend upon the world, slicing everything around
them.
But the moment before unleashing it, her sister turned around, embraced
Rem—then, an impact.
And then, Rem could only watch.
She saw steel flash at her sister's head from the side. She saw a white
glimmer dance in the reddened sky.
She saw the severed horn spin round and round and round.
She saw blood gush out from her sister's forehead. She heard someone's
high-pitched scream.
She listened to the cries of the sister she adored, the sister who had shielded
her and taken the blow for her, as the beautiful white horn that she had so
envied tumbled through the sky.
—Finally. It finally broke off.
That was the thought she had.
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i.4
Rem did not understand the details of what occurred after that point.
What she did grasp was that at some point, they'd lost consciousness, only to
awaken far from home with a huge mansion all around her, and that her sister,
who had lost her horn, was there with her.
Her sister had regained consciousness first and was overjoyed to see Rem
awaken, but Rem was lost in thoughts of her twin, whose abilities ranked lower
than the average person's now that she had lost her horn.
On the surface, her behavior was largely unchanged, but there was no trace
of the talent she had commanded in every area. Now that she struggled with
even minor things, Rem had many opportunities to help her.
And so, one would think that Rem would develop a superiority complex
toward her now universally inferior sister—but one would be wrong; the
inferiority complex took root in Rem's spirit even deeper than before.
In other words, Rem felt shame at the fact that her sister had gone from
beloved by the whole world to having to endure life at the bottom.
Rem's guilt was spurred on by the admiration she had for her older sister. Had
Rem's heart been filled with only jealous thoughts, no doubt it would not have
been so. But Rem loved her sister. And she was not so shrewd or self-serving to
live and forget the thought she'd had that moment when her sister's horn was
broken.
"I have to do everything in Sis's…Sister's place…"
Rem changed how she addressed her older sister and put her days of hiding in
her shadow behind her. Rem's battle had begun.
In all things, in all duties she was assigned, all she could think was, Sister
would do this. She'd always been right behind her sister, watching. Her sister's
judgment had never failed.
Even so, the results were always less than she expected. That was natural, for
her sister was incredible. With a flawed little sister like her, even both of them
working together could not reach the same place.
Rem had to blaze the trail that was properly her sister's to have blazed, to
have walked, to have led her down, and to lead her older sister along it by the
hand.
—There was no longer any individual life for the girl known as Rem.
To Rem, the only thing she could do was "live the life Sister would have." That
she could not fulfill such a role made her unable to believe that she had any real
value.
Days and months passed. There, in the mansion that had taken them both in
when their homeland was burned away, the gap between their reality and
Rem's ideals wore at her day after day.
It was not that she minded her role as a servant. The lord of the manor had
benevolently given them a place to stay, and moreover, she adored her older
sister enough that she did not mind offering up body and soul.
If problems arose during these untroubled days, Rem took full responsibility.
You have done well, the master would say in praise. She had heard such
words from her homeland many times over.
Don't force yourself, her sister would say to Rem out of concern. But even
forcing herself was not yet enough.
Why do you push yourself so hard? one irresponsible person had asked Rem.
—That was obvious.
Because she was inferior in anything and everything. Even if she pushed
herself to the breaking point, whittling away her soul and burning her body to
ash, she would never reach that which ought to have been.
—What could she do to atone?
And so, Rem dedicated her life to cutting open the path that her sister ought
to have walked herself but that Rem had stolen from her.
For Rem was a substitute for her sister in all things and nothing more.
i.5
With her obsession strengthened, the seven years wore upon Rem.
Others dutifully commended Rem on a daily basis for her earnest hard work,
though to Rem these efforts never yielded satisfactory results. Even Margrave
Roswaal praised her as a capable worker, to the point that he commanded her
to serve at his side during that significant time when the royal selection was
underway.
And yet, all the praise she earned filled Rem's chest with vague unease.
The days and months had not made her sense of guilt fade away; indeed, they
had only reinforced it—and she continued to live her life for the sake of her
older sister.
And then, Lady Emilia and Sister had returned from the royal capital, bringing
a foreign element into the mansion.
"My name is Subaru Natsuki. Zero work experience! Pleased to meet you!"
The wounded lad had been brought into the mansion because he had saved
Emilia's life. Upon waking, the young man negotiated with Roswaal and gained
for himself the position of apprentice servant in no time at all.
Naturally, Rem was gripped by a deep sense of distrust toward the youth of
uncertain origin. In particular, she could find nothing to like during the first two
days, when the young man had plastered a smile on his face and worked
constantly to win her and her sister's favor.
Furthermore, there was a scent wafting around him that triggered memories
in Rem that she could barely endure. It was the scent of the witch—the miasma
that surrounded only a few beings in the entire world.
Ever since her homeland had become a sea of flames, Rem's nose had learned
how to pick out the scent.
She did not know why. She knew only that it triggered abominable memories
and that seven long, bitter years had taught her that nothing good came from
that which accompanied the scent.
She had been unable to make her antipathy plain in front of Roswaal and
Emilia, but instead, she had often found herself staring at the young man while
he seemed at war with himself.
Now that she had lost her horn, Sister had no need for any relationships other
than her one with Roswaal, whom she adored. To Rem, who had stolen her
sister's proper place, there was nothing more important than protecting the
place her sister could be at ease. And Rem would show no mercy to those who
threatened their home.
As far as anyone else could see, the boy showed no sign of untoward behavior
whatsoever. Yet even as her sister told her that they should only watch, Rem
thought he should be driven out of the mansion as soon as possible.
By the time something happens, it will be too late. Such was the conclusion
Rem had formed at the time.
—And then, she saw Subaru sleeping on Emilia's lap.
Rem gave Emilia's opinion on the matter a great deal of weight, but internally
she was still struggling to think of how she should treat the person known as
Subaru.
Rem, who had strictly observed Subaru's every action because he was an
outsider, understood that he tried his utmost in everything he did—including
the sarcasm. It was in complete contrast to his frivolous manner.
And seeing him struggle so hard to produce results in spite of inferior ability
reminded her of someone, but she couldn't put her finger on it.
From the following morning onward, she saw Subaru's demeanor and
behavior in a different light. The strained atmosphere evaporated; how he
approached everything changed, even if his technical skill had not.
He had gone from striving without a tangible goal to burning with desire to
accomplish something. Naturally, his approach to work changed as well. He still
held others back, but the quality of his work did rise a little bit.
Rem, who welcomed no changes to her environment, still regarded Subaru as
a troublesome interloper, but she felt like she should at least not regard him as
an enemy.
Then, when Roswaal was absent, disaster struck.
"—Worst case, the whole village might get wiped out."
Rem, ordered by her older sister to accompany Subaru, half doubted the
extreme scenario he'd suggested so seriously. However, when they reached
Earlham Village, the children really were missing, and the barrier that should
have blocked off the forest had been breached and was no longer functioning.
"Rem, let's go. We have to do something."
Rem had recoiled at Subaru's invitation to go into the forest to rescue the
children from their plight.
Of course it was strange. Rem could not grasp why someone so powerless
would act so desperately for children he barely knew.
Subaru was not being reckless. He was well aware of his own weakness. And
still he did not hesitate to ask others for the things he lacked. What incredible
arrogance, she had thought.
They had gone into the forest, found the children, and used magic to save
them. Even when Subaru wanted to go deeper into the forest to find the
missing last child, Rem was not surprised.
With eyes that said he was useless, an expression that said he didn't measure
up, a voice that bit back the urge to give in many times over—Subaru never
stopped struggling.
When Rem watched Subaru head into the forest by himself as she healed the
children, her heart fluttered furiously. She was filled with warmth that words
could not express.
After Rem had handed the children over to the young men of the village,
relying on the miasma of the witch to reach Subaru once more, she had found
him in a life-and-death situation, surrounded by a pack of demon beasts.
Seeing the sleeping girl in Subaru's arms had cleared away all Rem's doubts.
As Subaru ran, Rem leaped into action, running interference for him against
the attacking mob of demon beasts. Blood and pain toyed with her, but Rem
felt light, as if a weight had been lifted from her heart.
Not once had she imagined that trusting someone, trusting Subaru, could feel
so good.
The next moment, Rem had sustained an impact that plunged her mind into
darkness. In its place, her demon instincts took over, and she began an
indiscriminate slaughter.
She learned the pleasure of making flesh fly apart. She felt delight at indulging
in her power, completely forgetting her goal.
Her demon instincts demanded more blood, more lives—
"—!"
The collision against her back had sent Rem flying, dulling her reactions.
Something was holding her down. When she looked behind her, she saw
Subaru's face. The relief on it snapped Rem from reflex to rational thought.
She saw a ferocious demon beast right next to him, its fangs drawing near.
She needed to jump, to reach out, to save him—so thought Rem when
suddenly, the miasma tickled her nose.
That made her delay her decision by a single moment.
And then…
"—Gaaaaah!!"
…Rem finally realized that she had not changed at all.
She had committed the sin from long ago…again.