I look up at the darkness, my eyes look past time and space as i look my old self going through the same routine over and over again, sleep, eat, work, eat, sleep, repeat.I remember those times that i was powerless, ignorant of the beings in higher planes and the power that i could only image in my dreams. Sometimes i read novels before going to sleep, so i can escape reality from time to time, imagining those fantastic worlds with different views, power and even people with different ideology from my own world.
I sighed as reminiscing of those old times, the world that i only saw black, but how wrong i was back then and how peaceful they truly were, no bloodshed, no planning how to survive one more day and trying to get stronger, even if you sell your own soul to an unknown entity for more power at the cost of your rationality.Those were peaceful times not like i m now, a conqueror, ruler of countless worlds and people, i stained my hand in rivers of blood to get where i m right now and i m regretting it.
You think that once you reach at the apex of power you will get what you want, money, women, fame and so much more, but that's just how people who don't have them think. Now at the peak of power everything just gets dull. You got no purpose, your feelings have gotten dull and nothing excites you like it did at the start of the journey.
That's why i m gonna watch over my past self while providing him a system with my memories but different personality so nothing like that ever happens to him, for him to live with emotions unlike my current self, to give him a person to talk to so that loneliness doesn't get to him, for him to regret nothing of what he will be doing and to not go on the wrong path of getting powerful.
I will be watching my past self change as i disappear but it will be all worth it.