As I enter Miu's house I notice that it hasn't been cleaned for a long time. It's difficult to take a step and not sink into the garbage littered around. I refrain from asking Miu about it. She and her mother must've gotten lazy after her father's death.
"Sorry for the little mess, Tsubasa. The cleaning lady hasn't come in a few days." Liar. You already told me about your father's death so why not just tell me the truth? "Actually, the truth is that my mother and I haven't found the time to clean; we can't afford a cleaning lady."
"So, what shall we do for the remainder of the day?" I ask confused about why we didn't just part ways and instead go to her house.
"Well, I thought we could have a little fun. Have you ever drunk before?"
"Alchohol? Of course not, we're underage."
"Well, let's disregard our age for now. Would you like to try?"
"What? Of course not! They say that our brains aren't fully developed until around the age of 25. Drinking will have drastic negative effects on us considering our age."
"Don't be such a party pooper." As she says this, she heads to what I assume to be her kitchen and grabs a bottle of vodka. "Well, there's a first try for everyone. Here, drink some."
I know I should decline her offer, but I choose to drink. Tsuasba, will your first time consuming alcohol be because of peer pressure? Coward.
I take a sip. "Ugh, it tastes awful. How can anyone go out of their way to drink this?"
"People don't take it for the taste, obviously. People take it to ease the pain of everyday life. Some men also take it to make women seem more attractive. Please don't be one of those men. I'm already super hot."
"Whatever. Anyways, how long is it going to take until I get drunk?" As I finish my question Miu begins to drink and drank way more than me. How drunk is she trying to get?
"Well, considering you and I haven't eaten anything for lunch, we should start feeling the effects pretty soon. Here, take another swig." Jesus, how much does she expect me to drink?
"Why did you want to drink in the first place? We could've just watched the TV or a movie. Why drink?"
"Don't tell me you've never dreamt of getting me drunk and having your way with me. I can tell that's what you think about while you're daydreaming in class. Pervert…"
"I've never once thought of such a vulgar thing! I bet you're the one who imagines that!" I try to stand up to scold her more, but I find it difficult; I stumble as I try.
"You're starting to get a little tipsy, aren't you?" I uncontrollably laugh as she finishes asking her question. My body begins to move on its own and I clumsily collapse on top of Miu. I've never been as close as I am now to her. I can't help but realize how beautiful she truly is. I love her eyes. I love her beautiful, smooth face. I love the way she has her hair. I love her humongous breasts. I love—
"Tsubasa! Stop staring at me, it's creepy."
"Sorry, I can't really function properly. I may have drank too much. By the way, may I play with your nipples?"
"What was that?"
"I said are you a nympho? Yes? No? God, please tell me, I need to know!"
"What was that?"
"Didn't you just ask that? What's not clear? I said 'Do you ever feel like you're stuck in limbo'. I do sometimes. Ever since my friend in primary school killed herself, I've been feeling like every day is just a repetition of the previous day. Nothing interesting happens and I dwell upon her death for the entire day. It's been a long time since, but I know I could've done something to prevent her death. I was just too much of a coward to do anything. Do you think I'm a coward? Of course, you do. Everyone does. I know it. Why the hell do you even try to be a part of my life? Are you lonely or something? Are you only using me to strive off your lonesomeness? Maybe that's what I'm doing with you. No, not maybe. Jesus, am I really tearing up? Coward. Coward. Coward. I hate—"
"What was that?"
"I said spending lunchtime with you reminds me of spending lunchtime with my friend who killed herself. You remind me so much of her. I hate it. I hate—"
"What was that?"
"I said I love you, Miu. With all my heart, I love you." Wow, she must be pretty drunk. Well, I am, too. Did we even drink that much? We didn't eat, so that must've made the alcohol hit harder.
"I love you, too, butter— I mean, Tsubasa. With all my heart, I love you."
"Miu, in this very moment, this singular moment that no one in the entire universe will ever get the chance to experience, I'm happy. It's been so long since I've ever felt this happy. Thank you."
"Tsubasa, can I kiss—." I kiss her. I press my lips against hers. My first kiss. And hopefully her first, too. Her soft, tender lips upon mine. I hope she's enjoying this as much as I am. I've never been this close to someone before. I don't want to back away, but I'm finding it hard to breathe. I try to breathe through my nose, but I find it difficult. We stop.
"Sorry for just going into it, I just really wanted to kiss you."
"Don't worry about it, it made me happy. But you know, you stole my first kiss." This really was her first kiss. "Let me guess, this was your first kiss, too."
"Is there a problem with it being my first kiss?"
"It means that for fourteen years, you've been a virgin. A virgin and a pervert, choose a struggle."
"First of all, virginity is based off of sex, not kissing. And second, this was your first kiss too!"
"Please don't remind me. I can't believe I lost my chastity to a pervert."
"I can say the same..."
"Whatever… Well, I think it's time for you to go home it's getting late and I'm sure both of us have sobered up by now."
"Yeah, I think you're right." I begin exiting her home. I open the door and as soon as I'm about to step out, Miu grabs my arm.
"Tsubasa, please don't tell anyone about today. Especially what we talked about at the park. Promise me you won't."
"I promise I won't."
"I love you." She kisses me, only briefly though. "I know you're not a liar, so you won't let me down. Goodbye."
"Goodbye." I leave her house thinking that I have to do something to save her from her abuse. I just have to.