"Beep beep!" The bus kept changing lanes on the road. The driver honked the horn and scolded the private car in front of him for not moving fast enough.
The passengers in the bus were sitting and playing with their phones, but the ones standing were swaying left and right. Their faces were pale as they gripped the railing tightly. The grumpy ones cursed from time to time.
Standing in the middle of the bus, Han Yan held the tab on his head with one hand and Wu Yue's belongings with the other. He looked out the window blankly, turning a deaf ear to what was happening in and outside the bus. He was going to Wu Yue's place to see if there were any baby items he needed for the next few days.
Han Yan's feelings were complicated. He felt like he was dreaming. Wu Yue was very cold in his impression. At that time, they didn't communicate much on the train. The two of them didn't even speak more than 20 sentences. Yet, she had sex with him unconsciously and even had a child with him. It was said that a child was the product of love, but did he and Wu Yue ever have love? Wu Yue's heart was pounding.
Han Yan was looking forward to Wu Yue's "boudoir". For a girl like Wu Yue who had suffered the loss of her family since she was young, her iceberg side might just be a ribbon that tightly wrapped her fragile heart. She lost her family and couldn't escape the fate of a beautiful woman. But Han Yan wanted to know how Wu Yue had lived all these years.
Holding the address given by the hospital, Han Yan came to the door of Wu Yue's rented house. He took out the key from the bag and hesitated for a moment before opening the door and walking in.
Opening the door, Han Yan saw a sea of pink colour in the room. The slippers were pink, the tablecloth was pink, the curtains were pink, the sheets and quilt were pink. This was a girl's room. Han Yan found it hard to believe. Wu Yue was very mature and cold outside, but in private, she was like a child. Half of the small bed was occupied by a huge plush bear pillow.
Han Yan had read a psychology book before. It said that people who liked to sleep with stuffed animals felt insecure. Han Yan now felt that this sentence was a complete psychological portrayal of Wu Yue.
There were no male slippers in the shoe cabinet. It seemed that the owner had never had a male guest before. Han Yan had to change into a pair of female slippers.
The room was very tidy, but also very monotonous. There was only a bed, a desk, and a dining table. There was a covered laptop on the desk, and a row of books were stacked against the wall. Some of the books were about pregnant mothers and babies, and there were bookmarks on them. Han Yan picked up one of the books and saw that there were a lot of notes in the book. There were two baskets on the dining table. One contained the owner's tableware, and the other contained a lot of baby utensils, bottles, nipples, bowls, and spoons. They were all clean, and the sunlight slowly refracted through the window, spreading out a little bit of light.
He hadn't noticed it before, but it turned out that there was a baby bed placed against the wall at the foot of the bed. The wood of the guardrail was very smooth, and the inside of the bed was surrounded by a thin cushion. Even the small pillows were all adorned with cute Winnie the Pooh pictures. There were a few sets of baby clothes stacked next to the quilt. The fabric was very delicate, and even the edges didn't feel rough.
It could be seen that Wu Yue had put in a lot of effort. She was full of joy and looked forward to the birth of the baby. She had prepared almost everything for the baby and was ready to welcome the arrival of a new life. However, she didn't make it. She didn't see the baby before she went to another world. Han Yan looked at the room full of baby products. His nose was sour, and his heart was filled with panic.
Han Yan sat in front of the desk and opened the drawer. In addition to some receipts and lists, there were a few thick hardcover notebooks. He pulled out the topmost notebook, turned on the lamp on the table, and opened the first page.
This was Wu Yue's diary. Han Yan understood when he saw the date of April 3rd, 2010. Han Yan read very quickly, flipping through the pages every few seconds. It wasn't that he didn't read carefully. On the contrary, Han Yan reads very carefully, word by word.
Since he came back from his graduation trip last year, Han Yan found that his mind had become very clear, and he was no longer as bad as before. It was as if he had been reborn overnight, and he had the mysterious ability of eidetic memory. This was also the secret of Han Yan becoming the backbone of the company as soon as he graduated. He knew all the information of the company and even the company's competitors by heart. Coupled with his excellent English ability, no one could stop him!
Han Yan quickly saw the page of the diary where they had sex.
"In today's company trip, the chairman's son actually drugged the wine. I didn't expect that I would still fall for it. I should have known that this person wouldn't be so ungrateful! … I didn't expect that I would lose my virginity to a student after 25 years. Under such circumstances, I can't blame him. He didn't do it on purpose. I was careless. He was very gentle and considerate. He covered me with the quilt, just like my father when I was young … He also called a girl's name in his dream. Was it his girlfriend? It seems that he loves his girlfriend very much. Don't worry, I, Wu Yue, won't destroy other people's happiness. Let me take responsibility for this mistake alone. Goodbye, Han Yan. What a strange name. "
"So that's how she left at that time." Han Yan scratched his head and smiled bitterly in his heart. "But I'm still in the dark."
Han Yan continued reading. He saw Wu Yue's resignation, her being ostracized when she applied for a job again, and her shock and struggle when she found out that she was pregnant two months later.
"I went for an interview today. When I came back, I retched so badly. I don't know what I ate to make my stomach hurt. I've been so busy these days. I must rest well. Wu Yue, you can't tire yourself out …
Today, I suddenly remembered that my period hasn't come for two months. I went for a checkup, and the doctor said that I'm more than two months pregnant! How could this be? I'm pregnant just because of that accident? What should I do? …
I didn't sleep last night. I don't want to abort the child. After all, it's a life. It's my child. But I'm so scared. Can I do it alone? Should I talk to Han Yan? … Is it good to destroy other people's happiness for your own? No, Wu Yue, you can't be such a villain and a third party! You have to believe in yourself. You can take care of yourself for more than ten years. Now, it's just a child. You can definitely do it! Beauty Wu Yue, fighting! "
Han Yan's eyes were a little wet. He didn't dare to continue watching. He felt that his conscience was condemning him. He had committed a sin, but a girl had secretly shouldered it and suffered all kinds of torture. Yet, he was living happily in his own world.
"It's time for a prenatal checkup again. Baby, how did you grow so big? Look at Mommy's belly. It's like a big rubber ball. Hehe …
Boohoo, baby, you're so bad. Mommy's face has some black spots. I've become so ugly. Tell Mommy what to do. I don't even dare to go out …
Baby, Mommy's heart is so sad. I want to eat pickled cucumbers at night, but no one helps me buy them. Mommy really wants to cry. Other mothers have family members to take care of them when they're pregnant. Mommy has been doing everything alone for so long. Today, I almost fell while washing clothes. Mommy is so scared …
Today, the baby moved for the first time. You kicked Mommy's stomach. Mommy is so happy. You must be an angel sent to Mommy by God. With you around, Mommy isn't afraid of anything. With you around, Mommy will definitely persevere …
You've become so fat. Baby, do you think Mommy can still be as beautiful as before after giving birth to you? What? You think you can? Baby, you know Mommy too well. Mommy will definitely become a great beauty again!
Looking at the time, baby, you're about to be born. Mommy will definitely endure the pain and give birth to you smoothly! Mommy can't wait any longer. Thinking about how small you are in Mommy's arms, my heart is about to melt. Baby, hurry up and come into Mommy's arms. Muah! Hehe. "
The date of the last diary entry was the day before yesterday. It was April 26, 2011.
Han Yan flipped through the diary and seemed to touch the most real Wu Yue. She was a girl as pure as a snow lotus. She was pregnant with the new life that was sleeping soundly in the hospital with the love that she yearned for the most. Han Yan seemed to be able to feel that Wu Yue was lying on her side on the bed with a bear pillow. Her head was leaning on it, and her big eyes were filled with a sweet smile. Her whole body was blooming with the radiance of motherhood.
Han Yan sighed in his heart. He remembered Wu Yue's last words before she was pushed into the delivery room. "You have to promise me that you will take good care of our child." This was a heavy trust and also a heavy responsibility. Han Yan was a little hesitant before. He was worried that his life would be messed up, worried that he couldn't be a competent father, worried that he couldn't stand the strange looks of others. But after reading Wu Yue's diary, Han Yan really wanted to slap himself. Was he still a man? A weak woman dared to carry a family on her own. He didn't even dare to raise his own child?
Han Yan secretly swore in his heart. He also promised Wu Yue who might be watching him from heaven. "Wu Yue, you can rest assured. I will take good care of the baby. I will let her grow up happily. I will love her and take care of her. I will let her be the happiest baby in the world. "
As soon as he made the vow, Han Yan felt a shock in his heart. It was as if a part of his mind was broken. Suddenly, a lot of unfamiliar information emerged.
"Zhang Sanfeng's Internal Martial Arts?"
Han Yan felt that his brain, which had become very smart, was not enough to understand. He thought to himself, "Could it be that Wu Yue heard my sincerity and gave it to me?"
He felt that this was a little ridiculous, but this kind of thing was really too mysterious. Han Yan was puzzled.
Since he couldn't figure it out, he might as well not think about it. Han Yan stood up. It looked like it really was a martial arts technique. Han Yan was a little happy about this. As long as one was a good Chinese man, who didn't know martial arts?
However, it was getting late. Han Yan still had to go back to his place. So he found a luggage bag and packed Wu Yue's diary, some baby items that should be useful, and two sets of clothes. He couldn't take too many things at once. As for the rest, he could only pack it up next time.