I lay there, looking up at the dark sky.
'…..What now?'
I have tried everything I could possibly try. What more can I even attempt to do? Do I just have to wait and hope?
I lay there for hours, with no will to get up. At some point, even the light coming from the castle dimmed.
I closed my eyes, hoping for…..something…
...
...
"What are you doing here kid?" Came a voice I didn't recognize.
"…. I don't know. Waiting for the land to swallow me I guess?" I respond with my eyes closed.
"That…. would be quite hard. Why aren't you in your dorm? It is way past curfew."
"I didn't feel like going there. The more I see those faces, the more it haunts me."
"Are you being bullied? You should tell one of the professors. They'll surely help ya."
"No I am not being bullied. And professors are not useful to my problem."
"Hmm… If the professors are having trouble with it, then it must be quite serious. But you know lad, the best part of Hogwarts is that you'll always find help here. If not the Professors, then your friends or maybe the castle itself. You'll always find what you are looking for here."
"*chuckle* Yet I can't find the one thing I am looking for."
"hmmm, well maybe you are not meant to find it just yet. Sometimes, the more we run after something, the farther it gets from us."
At this I open my eyes to see who's talking, to see a giant with face covered by beard standing near me.
'Must be Hagrid.'
"So what, I should stop trying?"
"No I am not saying you should stop trying, but maybe be a bit sneaky about it."
"Huh, try and not make it obvious…"
"Yeah, it might just work. Yes! You are a genius my friend."
I get up and give Hagrid a hug.
"Thanks. But hat are you doing here?"
"Oh I was just taking Fang here for walk. And checking something, in the forest. Now go back to your dorm."
"Don't outside wander after curfew" Hagrid tells me as I leave.
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Hagrid POV
I watch the lad return back to the castle
"Looks like those motivational books really work."
Good to know, I was beginning to think they were all crap.
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I woke up with newfound energy this morning….. or noon.
Anyway, yesterday Hagrid opened my eyes. My brain was actively stopping me from dying, because I was trying to die. But I remember my first day, I put the room on fire and almost did die. Maybe because I wasn't trying to die, that made it not try and stop me.
'So all I have to do, is try to not die. Simple!'
With this resolve I make my way to the library.
I remembered that book about potions that seemingly blast in your face if you make a mistake. Well, I am a noob when it comes to potion making, so no matter how hard I try, it is inevitable that I make few mistakes. And if the resulting explosion blasts me, totally not was I was going for.
I searched for that book among the shelves, finding it in a few minutes.
When I got to the front to issue it, Madam Pince raised an eyebrow at the book but issued it nonetheless after reminding me not to try any of the potions again.
'I definitely will.'
I agreed with her with a smile and left.
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Madam Pince POV
'He definitely will.'
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Ansh POV
I was at the empty classroom, reading through the potion book.
'Hmm, most of these are not that dangerous. These won't be enough for me.'
I want a single one powerful enough for a-
'This is it.'
I found the one, this should do the job. And if a make a large enough badge than this will be more than enough.
"Hahahahahhaha!"
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'Quitely..'
I look back to see if anyone is woken up from the noise of the door.
Seeing no movement, I sneak out.
'Okay, getting out of dorm- Success. Next phase – enter Snape's Potion Lab.'
I make my way down to the dungeons, careful of teachers and Filch….
Reaching there I try to open the door with a quick alohomora, but of course, it doesn't work.
'No problem, I brought my wand with me just in case.'
A quick cast of aberto with the wand, and the door opens itself….. or breaks, whatever you want to say.
I step inside and quickly open the book.
'Let's get started.'