I woke up the next day with anger and hatred as well as pity towards myself… I walked out of my house with my brain in a state of chaos… Perhaps it was the humiliating, undesired realization I had yesterday or maybe something else but my anger was certainly not normal…
As I walk through the street thinking of how pathetic I am and was and how everyone else also is, I begin to feel the urge to kill striking back at me refilling me with unjustified hatred towards strangers as well as people I don't know…
My anger reaches high, and my killing intent even higher. Something inside of me is happy and attempting to break free from its chains, while the other is questioning its actions and my thoughts with fear, dread and disappointment…
I restrain myself as I repeat what I've been doing for the past week and a half before I get on the same bus as usual…
Yet something is different today… Unlike the usual old, ugly women who usually ride this bus… I see a very beautiful lady around three years older than me.
My thoughts get lewd, I think of how weak and fragile she is… How easy it'd be to take what I want from her… All I need to do is take action.
No… What the hell am I thinking?!? I hate r*pe and will never do such a horrible thing to any female… Why in the world would I think of such a thing?! What's wrong with me?!?!
I try to take my attention away from this subject as I wait for the ride to be over as usual, yet I still take a few glances at the beautiful lady right in front of me.
Looking at her small, weak, pale shoulders inserts a certain feeling that I don't recognize inside of me… I sense my killing intent getting lower alongside my anger as I feel something else rising…
I look down to see a huge stick standing with all its glory inside my pants.
'Damned hormones!! '
I switch my thoughts into something else as I continue my 'wait for the ride to be over ' process…
This day, nothing interesting happens either as It's merely another boring day at this equally boring job.
But what's actually interesting happens when I'm back home to be greeted with the news that my family found another job for me…
Something easier, pays more, and is very close to our house… Therefore I don't need to wait a whole FUCKING hour inside of a barely working bus just to get to my workplace…
I instantly agreed as I called the owner of the place I'm going to hoping I'd somehow get the job… And I did, which led to him asking me to arrive at the workplace's location to learn about what I'm supposed to do and understand my job…
I went there despite my exhaustion. I was tired and wanted nothing more than to relax, but I couldn't, I needed to get this job… I needed more money… I had to get this job.
….
When I arrived at the location I was sent, my eyes caught the glimpse of an overweight, fat ugly human being, he was the worst-looking person I had ever seen and I believed he could work out perfectly in a horror game or a zombie movie.
He had many lumps over his body, neck, face and basically looked like a fictional monster.
And unfortunately for my pure, innocent eyes… He was my boss.
"Hmm, it's you… Come, let's talk inside…"
Once he noticed me and without any greetings, he invited me in as I followed him with no questions asked…
Looking around me I was able to see that this place was sort of a small cinema, well… Kinda.
It was very small to be called a cinema yet it had a big TV and a few sofas for people to sit on while watching a movie…
After a few questions he asked me, I felt very grateful and happy as It seemed like this was such a good job.
From what he explained to me it wasn't exhausting either, it felt too good to be real and made me very grateful and have huge respect for this person despite his ugly face and obese shape…
"Do you want to watch a movie with me???"
He asked all of a sudden, I answered with a yes, and so he turned on the TV and started to scroll through the list of shows he had in stock…
After landing on a certain movie, I moved my attention towards it, trying to get a comprehension of my boss's preferences and personality.
"This one has some 18+ scenes though…"
He announced, It didn't really surprise me nor made me uncomfortable as with the current way technology is accessible for everyone, it wasn't a shocker that I had already seen that type of thing.
"It's fine…"
I reply to him with a nervous tone, I'm still not that comfortable talking to him, he still feels like a stranger, and it usually takes me time to talk easily with strangers.
As the movie progressed and I was feeling kinda attached and intrigued by the story, I heard the sound of my new boss once again…
"Come sit beside me…"
He ordered and I obeyed as I didn't see anything wrong with his request and so I got myself a seat on the couch he was on…
While my eyes and mind were still focused on the movie I felt something weird…
I look down to my special spot and there I see it…
My eyes open wide as my blood runs cold, my breath becomes uncontrollable, unstable, clearly showing the signs of my fear…
I couldn't see myself right now but if I could, I would definitely say that my face lost all its colors and was paler than ever before…
The reason for my fear was that right on my special organ, a big disgusting hand reached out to it and began to cuddle it…
This… This was the hand of my new boss…