Her voice was shattering my heart. Knowing that my own daughter wanted to know about the merchant, a man she had only know for a few days. A man I've known for the majority of my life. He was the man who helped Adamsin throughout several of his missions. I'm glad I met him once again before his death, the memories that I had with him. Well I think they are with him. I can not tell anymore, maybe it's just me or am I losing my sense of sadness. I have to get rid of this part of my life. I know that death is a beautiful thing, I just wished it's wasn't like this. Maybe this is what God has planned for me. Well I have to drive the carriage to Nord, I can't let this stop us from reaction our destination. Maybe one day death on this world won't be so common. The journey to Nord is less than a day away from us now, maybe our rest was longer than a day. How long were we out for ?, he could have died for exhaustion. I'm not sure neither does it matter. I can't change the date of this man now, as the carriage began to make it's way to Nord. The conversation I heard inside of the carriage was very pleasing to hear. I'm very glad to hear my wife and daughter laugh with others, I know that they were probably tired of my taking all the time. Understanding that I always love this type of moments in my life. These moments overshadow the harsh thing I've done, sometimes I wonder if I'm not doing enough on this world. Am I truly being a Christian?, or is it that I'm overthinking it?. I wish it wasn't this hord for me to understand what God wants me to do. I've read the book from cover to cover, tried living the best life I could while having a strong faith in him. Sometimes my actions are not enough for me though, he knows that I've tried saving those who have lost themselves. Only if I was in their life earlier maybe I could have saved them. Looking back at those who I had buried, am I being to harsh on myself. No I have to do the works of those who don't want to do it. Just once I would love for people to accept the differences of the world rather than judge those who don't see the ideas. I regret not being able to do more, wondering if all I'm doing is for nothing. Telling those that has already passed away that they were loved. After a day has passed since the death and burial of the merchant, we are closing in on the road leading to Nord. A lot had happened to us on this journey back to Nord. This journey has lasted us four months due to some unforseen hurdles, it was suppose to be no later than a month. While riding the carriage to Nord. I started to notice the grass had changed colors while we were gone. That is a beautiful thing to see, the small things in life are very precious to me. The grass knows nothing of right and wrong. This world was not made for evil, the creation made it evil. Some questions I would love to ask God, when I make it up there I will ask him. Or should it just take it all in when I reach heaven. I have total faith in God. This life of mine has been a very tough one to say the least, the Kingdom of Nord. Where the answers to the question that I have will be found in there. Before I go exploring the Kingdom, I have to visit Marcus. It's been for too long since I've seen him. I did not leave in a good spot, well mentally I did not. I had a mixed feeling's on the woman who had said she can take care of him. I would wake them up when I reach an area of rest, but it's much better to wake them now. " Wake up!. Everyone we are here!". The guards of Nord met is infornt of the gate, these are not the same guards. " We need to see your transportation card sir!.". I reached inside of my bag that was sitting next to me on the trip, the other guard saw my face. " Stop. You don't to need to do that sir. Welcome back to Nord, Jim. ". I'm glad that they recognize me, I feel kinda bad that I don't remember them. I can hear the rest of my party waking up. My daughter with bed head poke her head through the curtains of the carriage. " Daddy. Are we there yet?. Also I have to pee.". Before the carriage took off again. I asked the guards a quick question, " if you don't mind me asking. What been happening here?. Did time speed up for y'all?". They both look at each other with confusion. Maybe I had lost my mind while on this roller coaster of a ride, I could have swore that these guards were younger. The guard on the right responded to my question. " Sir. I'm sorry to tell you this. You checked out of Nord eleven years ago sir, it's surprising cause you didn't age at all. You and Marcus are a lot like.". Ten years ago they must be mistaken, it was only a few months ago since we left. Maybe it has something to do with Elven Forrest. I thought Marcus was trying to keep a low profile, what has happened in the past eleven years. As we past the guards. While strolling down the streets of Nord, how am I going to break the news to rest of them?. It's kinda hard for me to explain to them, that we been gone for eleven years. All I know is that we have to find Marcus!.