November 23, 2023 the day I will die. Having a such an hopeless life, nothing is holden me back to commit a sucide tomorrow. I am 20 years old male student and at this point I don't think it's crucial for you, readers to get aware of my fucked up life, which was full of failures and traumas. I just want to relax, close my eyes and jump from that 20 story building. it's 11:00 PM, only one hour left before I die. I'm far from being comedian, but I must say that weather is perfect, I mean really "aesthetic" for dieing lol, heavy raing, lightnings plus night time. as soon as I got top of the building I felt little bit nervous and started shaking. Then, I slowly got close to the edge, closed my eyes and started deep breathing. Gradually, shaking was gone but I was still nervous. I looked on my watch and only 5 minutes remaining. I didn't wanted to think so I started counting. 5... 4... 3... 2... 1.....
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Imagine silence, darkness, no feelings, I mean totally nothing and suddenly I opened my eyes. I was feeling weird and and confused by my surroundings. Looking at my tiny body made me go crazy and I started screaming, I was like newborn baby crying. Nevertheless, I could not ignore the fact that the woman who seemed so happy and was supposed to be my mother was such an attractive, beautiful female in her early 20s. Middle aged woman, who was holding me, laid me down to the bed with that young lady. The lady huged me instantly and kissed me a lot. Long time had gone since I felt that safe and relaxed.