I finally look down and see his private parts. A few times, I blink very hard. Without a doubt... I'm going to cry before this is over.
But before I knew it, things got in the way. "Sir, we've arrived in Seattle--ohh..." It's Dagger, who speaks German.
It's Dagger, of course. Claude just gives him a hard look.
The brakes on the train start to be put on. "Guess we'll have to put this off for now, Doll," he says as he stuffs that big thing back into his pants.
He leans over and takes his belt off my wrists. Instead of watching himself undo the belt, he looks at me, clearly seeing the desire in my eyes as I look at him.
When the belt is taken off, I stand up.
After giving Dagger a haughty look, Claude laughs as he looks at him, then squats down and grabs my lips.
Claude, Claude, Claude! He's. He's. He is kissing me in front of someone else.
As his hand squeezes my waist, his tongue jumps into my mouth and takes over.
I put my arms around his neck, and he grabs my waist and pulls me even closer to him.
He moves away and licks his lips while looking happy. He's made a lot of faces today that I've never seen him make before. Usually, he just scowls or looks sad.
"Okay, don't tell anyone about this or it won't happen again. Now go away," he tells me as he pushes my face away. I laugh and walk away.
Dagger left and I didn't even notice.
I sit down next to Ana when I get to the cart where she is. She asks, "How did it go?"
"Terrible like look at me," I tell her as I show her the marks. "Dagger said he was going to look for you, and when I tried to seduce him, he dumped me," she huffs.
So, he did find me.
She says, "Maybe I should have done something to Claude and you should have done something to Dagger."
No.
I say, "I thought something was going to happen, but then Dagger came in." She is staring at me. She says, "That jerk."
I get up. I squeal, "Come on, we get to go home!" When I say "home," I mean Claude's huge house, which is also known as the Desdemona Mansion.
We usually stay home for three weeks to rest and train while we're not on tour.
We open the train's big doors to get off. I jump off the train with a box of my things in my hands. Dagger says, "Here, I'll carry that," and then goes to get my things.
"It's fine," says Claude as he takes my things and walks away.
"Prick," Dagger says to him with a hiss.
"It's okay, I have more than just that box," I tell them. "I'll have it all in the truck and at his house soon, Doll," he says as he pulls himself into the train and scratches the back of his neck.
"I can do it," I tell them.
"You shouldn't have to work, Doll. You've been working hard for the past few months; go rest."
Why does he act so nice?
Fernando says, "Dagger, just admit that you want to follow a Doll."
Dagger asks Fernando, "You know how to speak English, so how would you like it if I just spoke German to you?"
"You learn something new every day," says Rose.
"What exactly did he say?" I ask. "Not gonna lie, it was about you," she tells him.
"Fernando, just admit that you want to be a Doll too," Rosemary says.
"All done! I'm just going to stop speaking English and start speaking German so that no one can understand me, you two, or your Spanish," Dagger huffs as he continues to grab my things while looking away.
Rose tells Doll, "I don't want you to get mad, so please go talk to Ana."
"Just say it, yeesh," I tell them. She says, "It's to protect Dagger from what Fernando said, which might make him feel bad."
I tell her, "Okay, well, I'll be over here," and then I go help Ana with her things. She says, "I like that everyone I know speaks a different language. It's nice to hear."
"Yeah, but it's annoying that you can't understand them," I say.
"I speak my own language, which is French. We are all from different countries, and I think he chose us on purpose to make the Circus seem less simple," she says.
"What is Claude then?" I ask.
She says, "I think he's just American, even though he speaks our languages like he's been doing it for years."
"Hm... "But Rose said he was from Italy," I say. I'm confused now.
She says, "Well, let's go ask him."
"Maybe get him to say a few words in Italian... "My underwear is already getting wet."
I tell him, "We'll ask him when we're done. You know how he is when things aren't done before he starts messing around."
"It's also hot that Fernando can speak Spanish. Imagine that he is making love to you and whispering in your ear. She says, "Ugh."
"That sounds nice," I tell her.
I ask, "What about Dagger with his German?" "He hasn't spoken German to me," "I'd say it makes my pants wet, but I'm not sure," she says.
"Do you speak any other languages?" She wonders. "No, I'm too dumb to learn anything either," I say. "I learned English pretty well, but I didn't start until I was about six, so I could write to my pen pal in England," she says.
I laugh. "This whole language thing kind of bores me," I say.
"The way Fernando says Mamacita though," I reply. "Or how do you say it? Armor?"
"Amor," says Fernando behind us. Ana is sad. "Are you listening to our private conversation, Fernando?" she asks with a frown.
"Just the part where you want me to whisper things in your ear while we are making love," he says.
"Spanish things," I tell him to be correct.
He moves toward me and puts his mouth close to mine. "Mamacita, let me between your legs to please you," he says in a very lewd way. "Translate it or I'll cry," I tell them.
He has a laugh. He says, "When you're in my bed, my love."
Even like me, Ana is turning red. "Fucking hell, y'all! She says, "Right now or I'll cry."
Fernando says, "I have to let my pets out of their cage."
"We have things to do as well, Ana," I tell her. "Yeah, I like fingering myself," she says. I chuckle a bit.
Fernando goes to help the other people. "If you think that's hot, try to picture Claude speaking Spanish in your ear," she almost moans.