Chapter 85 - burning heart

A rainy place appears, full of trees. The sound of rain falling on the sea makes the place lonely and scary. There is a large house, which looks comfortable. A girl wearing black enters and walks around cautiously.

"I wondered who was that rat that found me? It was you, then."

Yin flinched at the sound of that voice, which carried a strange and powerful dark energy.

Ayin turned and bowed lightly, "I'm sorry, Your Majesty."

Shushin laughed, waving her hands in the air, "Don't call me that. I'm not your Majesty anymore. No, I never was."

Anyin raised her eyes to look at Shushin, "What did you say?"

Shushin sighed, "How did you get here? Did you use one of your book tricks?"

Ain shook her head, "You are overestimating me."

"Of course, you will never confess. This is your biggest secret in the end. I never thought about this matter, but while we were searching among ourselves for the demons, we completely overlooked the idea that there was a deadly weapon among us... like a person... capable of knowing everything, spreading... Everything...and he messes with everything."

Anin seemed confused after hearing Shushin's words, but she remained silent. Shushin continued, "Thinking about it, that moment when I got back to the palace with Tianyang, you looked shocked... I didn't think about it much and said maybe you discovered that he was a demon in some way, but now I know, you also knew, that something on the horizon had changed, destroyed and disappeared Exactly, you knew that the fate you knew so clearly would turn out to be a lie."

"If you ask a person two questions, he can guess which way the situation will end if he chooses each question. This is how I am. I read a book, read a page, and guess the rest of the events. It requires intelligence and analysis, for every situation. But I cannot always win.

But With Your life, Shushin, was not just a book. Your life does not belong to you alone."

Shushen sat on a nearby chair and rested her head, "Hmm, great, but their lives aren't just theirs either. I can't live and think about how to save others. Everyone has to take care of their own destiny."

"If you had cared about your own destiny from the beginning, you would not have been here in the first place, so instead of saying things that have no truth in the first place, say, dream and imagine a bright tomorrow, then perhaps one day, your tomorrow may be bright."

"Maybe, one day...I'll get tired of those useless words. Miracles don't happen that easily, but instead I want something real. I have to say that. I have a wish, and only you can make it come true for me."

"What?"

"My destiny... when I die, when I forget, I hope you change that story in my book, put a happy ending... say that I found freedom and the price was not heavy, say that I found happiness and hope on the horizon, say... say that I lived courageously until my last breath. And I was right."

"Right? Right about what?"

"Those who are interested enough to read my story should guess this for themselves. You, who always guesses the rest of the story from a scene, what do you think is the answer?"

A yin looked at Shushin's eyes, those eyes and that sarcastic smile. The greatest story she had read was her. It was that woman. You can often analyze the personality of every character in books, but A yin was stuck in front of Shushin in particular, on the long journey of Shushin. It was the greatest trip, and the most enjoyable and painful journey she had ever experienced. In the kingdom, she will certainly be forgotten as time passes, but one day, someone will find her life story... and will be affected... and begin trying to change his life. And to become free. And for her to do so, she must have done everything right. But even the right choices can turn out to be mistakes.

What was Shushin's mistake? Looking back, she only destroyed herself. Even if a tragedy occurred in love, it does not define her as an ugly woman. But perhaps the Lord wanted to tell her that what she said hurts herself. Whenever she betrays herself, whenever she forgets herself, that is the biggest betrayal, and the biggest sin and. God wanted to tell her, not to forget herself, or to put others before her.

He wanted her not to hurt herself for the sake of others, and for her to learn the meaning of love that comes without sacrifice. But despite this, she chose her own fate, with the addition of aesthetics to the story. She made all the side stories sparkling, and only her own story was miserable. Those who died for love, those who lived for love, those who sacrificed for love, those who found themselves. Those understood the meaning of themselves. She helped everyone, but she did not find anyone who could help her. She knew that she alone was capable of helping herself, but she no longer wanted to.

Oh Shushin... Was that your promised destiny...or your cursed destiny?

Whatever the answer, may that mortal happiness surround you, which only you were able to find, may it keep you safe and happy.

Oh Shushin, Oh Shushin.. Your miserable fate, reminds me of a distant dream.. From the horizon.. I saw my homeland. But... I felt nothing but emptiness towards my homeland...

But as for you, Shushin, this should not be your situation. If you look in the mirror and no longer feel nostalgic for your soul and your past, if you forget and pass through every coincidence and memory as if it never happened, and if you no longer long for the place you thought was home, then you will collapse, and everything will collapse. A dream of your own. Because you will no longer be Shushin. Shushin, who was a great woman.

A Yin was immersed in her constant thoughts of Shushin, until Shushin broke the silence, "I'm sure you didn't come with good intentions. If you knew where I was, you would have told the rest."

"You." Shushin said, pointing at Yin, "How did you get into that place and got me out?"

Yin looked confused, "I don't quite understand what you mean..."

"No, you know very well." Shushin said, then she was silent for a while as she looked at Yin,

"I was lured to a land on which a transport magic had been placed, so I was transported, to some place here, which is currently deserted, a place that has been hidden from the map and can not... be accessed. Someone must have forgotten to clear the spell or intentionally let Tian Yang and Xiao Yan in. But after everything was over, they must have come to take out their master, and the magic was definitely destroyed after Xiao Yan and Tian Yang were taken out. So... how did you get in?"

Yin smiled, "What a wonderful analysis, as expected from the greatest witch in history, the most trivial details don't slip through your hands but you just pretend not to tell them, so why are you so convinced that I freed you? Maybe they were the ones who took you out of that place."

Shushin smiled and then sighed, "You seemed happy in my expectations, does that explain the sarcasm on your face now? Of course you know, that's not what happened. I heard the rumors, Xiao Yan checked my pulse and said I died, but I bet that's just an illusion, and you, always Somehow, were in the same picture with me." Shushin approached her, "You were always in the same photo with those very important people. What the hell are you?"

Yin raised her eyes to look at Shushen, and her eyes seemed to be on fire, unlike usual, "Indeed, I am not from here, but despite that, I grew up here and spent a long life in this body, and I see this place as my homeland, but unfortunately, I am not the hero of my life like you, Shushin."

Ayin turned away from Shushin and moved around, "I want to protect this place. If this world ends, that will mean that I will return to where I belong, and I know that I cannot live in that place. I have become very accustomed to my life, and while I was growing up I knew everything. But afraid, because I can't do much, but I keep finding your story completely different from what it should have been."

"I don't know what you're talking about, but I know, if this wasn't your place, then you wouldn't be the only one, who ruined and messed up her destiny."

"Would this be called destruction even if you were happy?"

Shushin looked at her, "I don't know the future, but I have an idea of what will happen, but I go anyway. Is that an appropriate answer? You can't go back to your country, and I, I can't go back to what I used to be. Not being a queen, not being Shushin, not being a princess."

"Give up everything? You can stop! There's no need to do all that!"

"You're not the one to tell me what I need to do and what I don't need to do. Really."

Shushin went and stood in front of the window that covered the entire wall, and put her hands on it, "I will show them, my truth. I don't want to die afraid of who I am. I don't want to care about others anymore."

Shushin turned and looked at Yin, "You too, don't hold yourself back, it's not your fault that you're here, you're the one we lived with, so you're the one we know. You're the real one."

A tear fell from Yin's eyes, "What nonsense, I came to console you and stop you, but instead you messed with my mind."

Shushin laughed, "We cannot comfort each other. We are women, and this is fate."

"I have read millions of books, but still. I cannot write a book of my own."

Shushin looked at her, "Why??"

"I wrote the least ideal story, and I was drowned in a feeling of sorrow. I have a talent, but I cannot formulate it, or I just have a passion and no talent. The pain filled my heart, but I realized then, that story was just a reflection of myself. I was completely imperfect, so I was therefore... I was unable to formulate perfect words. My words were scattered and often ineffective. When I read them, it seemed as if I was reading myself. I knew when people left me, my mind seemed scattered and strange, just as they described me. Their description was not a lie, so my torment did not end."

Shuxin sighed, "Maybe this is our problem, we put so much of ourselves into everything, others, our feelings, and the ways of the streets, and we give our heart to the moon every night, and in the morning we can't find our heart, because it felt worthless, and left."

"So if I feel worthless, can I leave?"

"Anything can leave, except us."

"I didn't want to be a dead woman, but yet i ended up being one" Shushin said.

"I'm not curious about what world you come from. Knowing this world alone is very exhausting... But I want to change. I want to be pure if possible, and at other moments be merciless. I don't want to be a dead woman all my life. I want people to remember me. because I am me."

"What are you going to do?"

"I will prove to them that I am the person I am, despite my country, my name, and my status. I can change fate even when I have no name, no place, and no family, even when I am a devil after being queen."

"Can I ask you about your plans then?"

"I have no plan. I will wander around, searching for beautiful music, or a crying call, or a sublime dream. I have nothing specific. I will go as the wind wants. Then I will truly be pure."

"You have many secrets, Shushin, but what makes a secret a secret is one's feeling about it, and I do not know how you feel about your secrets, so I am trying to protect the last remnants of your burning heart."

Shushin smiled, "Thank you. Come back now so that no one will suspect. I have something to do."

A Yin nodded and went to the door to leave, but she stopped before leaving, and turned to Shushin, "Please, have fun, don't die, and don't collapse."

"I search for innocence and safety, but a person cannot make others completely forget who he is. Maybe every place I visit will be engulfed in ruin, and it doesn't matter. If I have to, I will die at the right moment and in the right place. You must say this to yourself. Do not expose yourself to danger."

Yin smiled and left.

Shushin sighed and sat on the wooden chair, "I hope it's not just something I said and didn't mean...."

I have a lot to do and I'm tired from traveling.