(Palace front door)
We all walked, there in front of the door, a woman dressed in dark purple, turned to look at me, her cold features disappearing into a smile that I used to know, but It looked strange and different, "You are very late. Shushin..." she gasped after saying my name, "I'm sorry, I meant to say Your Majesty."
"Who said I came for you? I have to cross this road to go to the hall. It is new so I don't know its location."
Her smile disappeared, "Um okay, let me follow you then."
We finally entered the hall, which was a very large and closed hall. There were chairs arranged, but in this celebration no one usually sits because the arrangement of the chairs is not appropriate. Even the queen sits at the bottom, because it is a celebration that indicates interconnectedness. Mostly all the kings so far have hated it because they feel contempt. From this ridiculous act.
Everyone in the hall bowed to us and the whispers started. Lu Yuxin walked up to me, "Say a speech." I looked at him, "Say it, you are the party organizer after all."
I walked away from him, while he went forward to say some flattering things that did not express his true nature. I was not interested, so I just left.
I went to sit, while I looked around, a noisy, useless place, tormenting me from the outside to the inside...
Suddenly, Ni Ni, the queen from the previous time, sat down, For some reason, our paths never crossed at any moment. That woman who was the bright path became the forgotten past. Once or twice she was close, very close, but we did not say a word. She and I walked, and she did not notice my absence and did not run after me. Our story ended, with a broken heart. And a heart that doesn't care, you don't even know how much I loved you.
I am not a person with enough time or an overflowing heart. In my life, I loved only a few people, while I spent some time admiring many people, superficial admiration. I could not love their insides, accept their faults, or walk towards them one step at a time. I knew that this all is wrong, but i didn't know, what love was, because all those around me, didn't know it either, ant that's how we ended up killing each other.
I remained stuck trying to find true love. I didn't know if it was my fault, that I was unable to love, or it was the fault of others, because they are unable to love me sincerely, what I love does not love me, and what loves me I do not love, even if the sparkle of our love fades.
other than Ha Shin, there is someone else, another woman. present in my mind, sometimes.. It is the oldest love I remember, the oldest repressed love that I did not reveal to anyone, but it was not a happy story. She, she in particular, I can say about her, a woman who abandoned me. I was just a substitute for her. I was never the companion, never. I was not the way, nothing at all, and even though I have turned the pages of oblivion, I cannot look away, I ignore her and walk away, and I do not look, but I know, she will not try to approach, but I stay away nonetheless, trying not to get hurt.. Was I unable to love because those around me did not love me the way I wanted? Either they chased me obsessively, or they left me without asking, despite that, I wanted to look at her. Our story ended forever, but my heart is accustomed to her being there, in the memory, in the heart, on summer days.
It is betrayal and it is fate. She is the only woman who when a certain scent fills the air, comes to my mind. She is the only woman who makes the grass remind me of her. She is the only woman who seems stuck in old buildings, the smell of grass and the air of midsummer and winter.
She's the ancient past, she's an old country, she's a love song, and perhaps a song about losing the homeland. I don't like her anymore, but for some reason, despite her lack of splendor, her lack of feelings and her personality that often seems exploitative, even I don't know her, and I wish I knew, but The past finally passes.
We sat without a word, and the past was haunting me so I walked away.
Do you know how she became queen? It is rumored that she killed her father and assumed power. She is the most feared woman in her kingdom. It is rumored that she is the "Woman of Darkness"...
Minghao came over, I looked at him, "Minghao???? Don't you have a job or what? Why are you everywhere?"
He laughed loudly, "I came with the Snow Clan, I'm busy but I can't waste a moment when I can meet you."
I laughed at him. Tian Yang put his hands around Minghao's neck, "You mouse, stop appearing before my eyes." Minghao glared, "No way, it's easier to just blind yourself."
I laughed at them, I wish I could engrave this image in my eyes.
They both looked at me, I just walked to find a quiet place, closing my eyes and trying not to let the moment disappear.
Looking at her as she left, Minghao asked Tianyang as he walked away, "I have always wondered, why is Shushen not among the top of the academy?"
Tian Yang laughed, "Hmm.. about that..." he put his hands behind his neck.
(Some years ago,The day of entering the Academy of Nobles)
[Normally, they start studying there at the age of 16, and according to their academic progress, they finish early or late. It is also possible to choose to study early and finish early before 16, and then they receive a special certificate for "genius". If they enter at the age of 16 and finish within a year or two, they become One of the top 10 academics]
Shushin entered the principal's office, "Sir, how many years will I study here?"
The principal's was sitting without paying attention to her. It is said that the teachers do not bow to anyone inside the academy grounds and they are the first source of respect, perhaps a principle that protects their dignity among nobles, princesses and princes. "You came a week after the scheduled time. This is a great negligence and therefore your grades are very low."
Shushin sighed, "Just answer the question."
"At least five years for a student like you."
She said without thinking, "Yes? Damn it! Do you want me to waste 60 years of my life studying?"
He looked at her with annoyance and contempt, because we do not calculate ages in this way like ordinary, non-creative humans. [My fault haha] she thought...
She hit her mouth with her fingers and laughed embarrassingly. She was afraid that he might throw her in the fire if I didn't.
He said angrily, as if he wanted to finish the matter, "Princess, the weak and the failed should not rise above their position."
She looked at him with a little contempt. She thought her feelings were unclear, but now she think sge was wrong in the end. It looked like she might suffocate him at any moment. She looked at him with competing looks: "Then let's bet."
He hit his cane on the ground, and she must admit, her heart almost stopped, but it was an expected action from an old man obsessed with tradition. He spoke angrily: "Where are your morals? How can you say this word?"
Sge said as she turned around, trying to ease his embarrassment: "Don't pretend to be immoral. I saw you last week at the Flower Club."
He banged his cane again, but out of embarrassment, he spoke condescendingly, trying to preserve what remained of his dignity as a man: "So what's your bet?"
She said, turning to him and looking into his eyes with all the competition in them while waving her six fingers: "Give me six months, and I will defeat the top students from the past years. If I defeat every man and woman who challenges me, then this entire school will be mine."
He said with a sarcastic and astonished look at her: "What? Not only are you talking nonsense, but just fighting doesn't mean anything."
"You said yourself, those who are weak and unsuccessful should stay where they are, right? If you win, this will prove that you are a failure and do not deserve this school. Then I will rule it and graduate. If you win, this will mean that I am a failure and weak, as you said, and I will carry out your requests. I will be the first princess in history to bow to a teacher outside the academy."
Of course, he smiled and agreed immediately. It was easy to deceive men, as it seemed clear to her.