Dear J,

For the past 5 years of waiting for you, I have realized many things, including how much pain you've caused me and how much happiness you brought me. I never realized how special you were to me. Only when you left without saying goodbye did I learn, and when I did, it hurt so much. Only then did I realize how much I cared about you, and only then did I realize how much I loved you. It wasn't the friendly love my parents had taught me; it was so much more than that. If only you hadn't left, I would've fought for you, J.

How have you been?

How's life these days?

How's school?

I do hope you aren't skipping again. I remember the last time we skipped classes. It was awful, but we had fun. We had so much fun every day, and I don't think I've ever been that happy in my whole life. Thank you for that, J, I'm always glad I met you.

I miss you so much.

I do hope you're doing well in everything, J.

I hope you're contented and happy. I hope many people make you smile and laugh that laugh I once adored before.

I wish you an advanced Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year, love.

Find opportunities in everything, J. 

Yours,

A