It's been a few months since my delivery, and I have recovered, I should be grateful to Mrs. Nelson who looked after me like her own daughter, and also Randolph's mother.
It was Sunday everyone were at home, and I was preparing the lunch, when I finished preparing, I thought of calling everyone, so I came out of the kitchen, Randolph, Aaron, and Aarav were near the garden area playing, and the twins were nearby watching everything with curiosity. Aaron's laughter could be heard all over, followed by Aarav, and Randolph was looking handsome with the kids.
I was mesmerized by seeing everything and I felt at peace for a few seconds, it didn't take a minute for realization to hit, and I started feeling dizzy, by managing somehow, I reached the coach.
My mind was rewinding the scene that took in the garden and I felt in dilemma I had always dreamed of having my own family, and my perfect family was in front of me. I was stuck and couldn't run or stay, if I thought of moving, something unexpectedly would come up, so I didn't dare to bring the word co-parenting in front of Randolph, I can't trust that bastard not after having 3 kids with him.
So many things kept me here, my babies and Aaron, if I wanted to run where I could by leaving my babies, and Aaron reached the stage where he couldn't forget Randolph so easily and yeah, I was stuck I don't know till when.
What about my future? What was going to happen?
I couldn't stop anything that was happening in my life and somewhere I knew that bastard was responsible for all the messy things, and I can't deny the fact I ended up having a family, well technically, at least I had got my own kids.
Once upon a time, I was the decision-maker, and for everything that was happening in my life I was solely responsible until that bastard showed up and I ended up becoming the audience, seeing my own show so many things were happening I was not able to do anything, and I was not even entertained.
How the hell did things end this way, like really did I bring to myself, no right.
They were exhausted, one by one started walking towards the dining table, and Mrs. Nelson took care of the twins, I served everyone we were having lunch, when Randolph spoke, "Aaron wants to visit someplace, so shall we go to the same island we had visited before if you are ok or else, we could go somewhere else", I saw Aaron who was nodding his head and pleading for me to agree, and I can't ignore those puppy eyes, "Ok, let's go and I will make arrangement of our staying by informing Emma", "Let the entire hotel rooms be available because my parents, my sister's family, and Aidan and other few friends are coming with us", "Why", "Well they were planning when I told about my plan they decided to join us, you are ok right", yeah as if I can object now right, "No problem ok I will inform Emma than", "Ok, I will take care of the remaining things", by humming we continued having lunch.
Where the hell I was going to end up after this trip in the bar, or in my house with my family?
We were in my private plane everyone was boosting my energy, seeing to it not to alarm Ana, and nothing had any effect on me anxiety was killing me.
We reached the venue, the whole hotel was empty and occupied by us, when I visited the first time, it had not attracted any tourists, but now it was packed with outsiders, and my prediction was right, this one dam smart at least some way.
It was a 7 days trip first two days we were busy enjoying the beach and side seeing everyone were happy, only I was fucking in my own thought, weighing the pros and cons, dam this was fucking hard, Patricia was giving me some signals, and I was somewhat confident when I proposed her, this one dam every fucking time always make sure to end her day by cursing me, how the hell I was going to make her agree for this.
Like hell, she would agree, and like hell, I would let her go.
We were at the beach, and today was the day I was going to make my final move, and everyone were around, waiting.
I was facing the sea watching the sunset when Aarav came and handed me a letter, by telling 'daddy' he ran towards Randolph, I saw Randolph who immediately turned away from me, something was going on and I checked everyone who were busy in doing something, at least they seem that way.
I opened the letter, and it read,
Anastasia Merlyn, my Ana,
I am sorry for everything I have done in the past; I am really sorry Ana. I was a selfish bastard, nothing mattered to me apart from my family, and you were the one who pulled me unknowingly and made me to care for you in a totally different way. You were not aware of the consequences of your doing and stubbornness, which I am not blaming now, and I was not aware of what my future held for me, there was an unexpected turn in my life, and I am happy that was your way.
Please don't start hating me after hearing this, I was responsible for your pregnancy it was my plan, the first time was to get rid of Patricia, and the second time I was not ready to let you go of my life, and the reason was I had fallen for you, but I was thinking because of my kids until one day.
I didn't know why I was turning every stone unturned just to make sure you stayed with us until one day, and that day I came to know that I had fallen for you long before unknowingly. Trust me, Ana, I don't have any regrets about getting you pregnant I was falling for you every time and I am going to be thankful for the whole of my life for making me experience so many things.
I have said so many things, Ana, like so many things I am sorry trust me, and by just saying sorry I can't wipe off what I said but I will try my whole life to make it up to you.
You can take your time Ana to forgive and accept me I am not forcing you but if you want to get rid of me then I am sorry I won't like never, I want you in my life please give me a chance and I will make the best use of it.
I have fallen Ana, hardly, I don't want anyone in my life other than you and my kids please trust me and give me a chance, somewhere you know right I will get my way, one way or another.
Sorry for everything and I love you, Anastasia Merlyn, Marry me.
Tears were dropping and Randolph was holding the ring on his knees, I was crying non-stop, this bastard I knew he was responsible for every goddam thing, got the nerve to confess, "I am not going to say 'yes' bastard like never I hate you", "Common Ana somewhere you were responsible and not to forget your stubbornness", "That doesn't give you a right to use me", "I never intent to it was like an open invitation by opening your mouth trust me", "Are you really sorry bastard just now you confessed, started pointing my mistake as if I was hell responsible for this whole thing", "What I am trying to say is we were equally responsible", "Dam you I hate you I am not going to marry you".
"Mom, you are crying", my baby Aaron, "Yeah, I am trying to stop but I am not able to blame your father", "Yeah, I have to, dad I can't believe you did this to her again", he was perplexed, acting guilty but not at all guilty and I have come across this face, like when exactly, "What shall I do, when something comes to this one, I should have a backup plan like always, I can't take any risk after confessing truthfully don't you think and I should save my heart right", "What both of you are talking about", by nodding his head, Aaron turned towards me, "Mom, congratulation you are pregnant", "I am what?".
Ana was in shock like the usual one and unbelievable expression, as I said I can't fucking take chances with this one always that head keeps scheming to go far away from me, I wanted to give a permanent solution and yeah, not without fucking backup plan.
"You bastard I can't believe this", by saying that Ana started running away from me, just great, and I was behind her, at some point I caught her, struggling to get rid of my grip like seriously when I make up my mind even I couldn't stop myself and I hugged her from the back tightly, she was crying and again symptom what the hell with crying I am not able to solve this riddle, "I can't believe it you did this to me again, you promised bastard", "Hey rewind your memory I never promised you, every time it kind of becomes necessary, I can't take risk of losing you and I am really not sorry Ana", "You can't do whatever you want with me", "Of course, baby I won't next time, this time I promise". "Don't baby me".
"I am not going to say yes to you forget it", "Not today but someday you will and I will make sure of it, you can take time till giving birth", "Shut up I am bloody serious I am going to break your heart", "Yeah shatter into pieces baby but I won't let you go digest that part", by saying that I put the ring to her finger, after seeing the ring she was trying her best to remove it and getting rid of my grip both were impossible at some point, she gave up, "I hate you, bastard, I hate you and I am fucking tired".
We were silent facing the sea, Randolph was wiping my tears was kissing me in the crook of my neck by hugging me tightly like I would vanish anytime, is he afraid of losing me so much?
Nothing was fair, he couldn't do whatever he wanted with me but why the hell he wanted everything with me, was my biggest question, why me in the first place?
I couldn't believe he proposed me and had fallen for me, so good to be true.
By manipulating he got his way and at last, he made sure that I ended up with him.
THE END.