Psychiatry: Part 1
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I hear some noise, looks like I'm almost done.
Believe who said when you are on the verge of death, your whole life passes before your eyes.
Before:
I came back from school, this is my first day after a break that lasted for a while. It was because I had been depressed for a while.
My mother is the reason:
I don't understand why she does that. She didn't ask for a divorce.
We were happy, but suddenly the applicants for divorce, this is unbelievable. She used to say in court that my dear father is a bad person and that he abuses children and drinks all the time. I do not believe what she is raving about.
I was sad about her separation, so she is my mother, but the shock was my sister...
She asked me and my sister to go and live with her. I refused. I will not live with her. This is impossible. But my sister abandoned us and I went with her. I didn't believe it. She didn't even say goodbye. She abandoned us. She left me alone. I felt lonely. She was dear to me. Because of this, my life was neglected. I felt like I was alone in this world.
I was on the edge of the abyss, but my father helped me, and I am now receiving treatment.
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Isaac's phone rang. He felt nervous. No one had called him for a while. He picked up the phone:
Are you Isaac?
-Yes, go ahead
Your father is in care now, hurry up.
Collapsed (Isaac) came to the ground in shock, started crying and screaming, then rushed to the hospital, he was thinking and saying (No, no, not you either, father, do not leave me alone first, my sister, then my mother, now you, no, no, please, do not do this)
In his thoughts and screams, he did not realize until he found himself in front of the hospital.
He entered and started screaming, my father, my father started asking and shouting, the nurse said.
I'm in the emergency room.
I rushed to him, but he was prevented from entering. His father was in an operation now. He started screaming and trying to enter. Some people there stopped him until he calmed down.
The operation ended, and tension returned to my heart (Isaac).
- Did...aaa...the operation succeed?
Sadness and pity were visible on the doctor, and he replied:
-I am sorry for your loss
Poor (Isaac) did not understand the matter, so he shouted, saying:
- What do you mean tell me what did you do to me dad where are they
Doctor's reply:
He died inside
(Isaac) rushed to his father and found him dead. (Isaac) was shocked, he started screaming and crying hysterically until he calmed down and started thinking and thinking and saying:
- I will stay alone now everyone is gone I can't believe they abandoned me why father I said you would stay by my side.
The father went and left his father (14 years old) alone, as everyone else did.
( after 3 days )
Life is hard, I don't feel like eating, I feel empty.
In (Isaac's) deep thinking, an idea came to his mind and he wanted to kill himself.
He was afraid of the idea at first, but he accepted it, feeling that this was the right thing to do.
He thought and thought, but the idea of suicide did not occur to him.
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Isaac thought how to end his miserable life
Think and think and know what to do.
He went to the edge of the abyss. He closed his eyes and thought and said, "This is what I have to do. That's right. I have nothing to live for. Yeah, yeah."
He was about to jump, but a commoner saw him and ran to him to rescue him, but they fell together.
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Believe who said when you are on the verge of death, your whole life passes before your eyes.
(Isaac) opened his eyes. He was stunned. He did not die, but he could hear the sound of crying. It was a sad voice. Yes, (Isaac) survived, but his savior did not.
(Ray) stood and looked around him and found the man's daughter crying hard for him as he was crying for his father looking at me and saying:
- You are the whole reason because of you, bring it back to me, my father.
(Isaac) was not able to respond, he started to cry. Do you think he doesn't know what to do? He's just a boy of 14.
Then he said :
-I'm sorry I'm sorry .
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Suicide is an easy way for me to escape, but killing yourself will lead to others. (Isaac) knew this late, as it had led to the death of an innocent person. (Isaac) felt guilty and knew that he had to atone for his sin, but what he did not know was how.
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The idea of suicide did not come to his head by chance, but it was because of me because of his fear of loneliness. Yes, Isaac's greatest fear is to be left alone, and now he has to face this fear.
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