I lean on the chair and close my eyes. I don't want to be Cornelius' queen. I don't love him. Helping Gavin with his kingdom building plans, and being his Queen is better than that. However, I also don't want to end up as a Queen who's always worried about Gavin's mistresses.
How about traveling the world? It sounds more enticing than staying as a Dunnett forever. And I am sure that, being a Duke's daughter, someday I will be forced to marry some noble. I sigh. If only it's Calais, I wouldn't mind staying here for five years, even ten years, or probably forever.
Ugh! I am dreaming again! I can't go into a relationship in which I am bound to be unloved. I know that he's only kind and gentle to me before, because of Eliana. How could I be so blind to that truth? I should have known. Every time he kisses me, mine is beating like crazy, but his heart remains calm. I am nothing but a duty to him.
