Everything thing looked old fashion, or its just in my mind?
Is this the same festival I and Hana went to.....? No,no,no it can't be!
I must be dreamin'....
NOOOOOOOOO, THIS CAN'T BE!
[Tears start runnin' down my cheecks. I started to loose my mind. I couldn't understand what was going on ...]
"Are you fine, Mr?" A small kid said from behind. I don't wanna to look, I don't wanna to talk. Why is this happening to me? 'Hana died cause of me..' was the only thought going through my mind
But wait if this the same festival then Hana must be here...she must be somewhere in here. Right?
[ I started running all around...
Searching Hana. I don't know what should I do! ] I started sobbing and fell down on the ground.....
"Mr...? " The same voice entered gently into my ears just like ocean waves meet the shore on a cold night [some body kept a hand on my back]
Without even realising I held that hand.....
" Don't worry Mr, it's going to be alright... " She embraced me with her small hands
Wait if I'm not wrong then she only...My Hana![ I finally looked up.]
I looked straight at the kid's face and I can't believe on my own eyes ...
It was Hana !!!!!!!!!!
Goodness! Am I dreaming?
"Hana....is it you?" My voice trembled with the thought that she might say no.
"Do you know me Mr?" She tilted her head and was confused..... Can't believe how adorable she is !
"Hana ,I am sorry" I said bawling ...
She didn't responded just took me into her embrace once again...
In that crowd for thousands of people the only remedy for my heart was my sister. She is just five but she is as gentle as a mother.
13 YEARS BEFORE...
"Hana! Don't leave my hand. How many times do I've to repeat myself!" I said frustrated.
"Why are you always yelling at me? I don't want to go with you to the festival!" Hana said while throwing a trantrum.
"Oh really, I thought someone was dying to come to the festival WITH ME!"
I said sarcastically.
"I hate you!!!!!!!" She started to punch me.
"Okay okay, Sorry " I tried to calm her down.
"I want a popsicle. That one..... Over there" She said indicating at a shop.
"Hana it's so crowded there" I said to convince her.
"I want a popsicle"
"First you make me cry and then you are just making excuses. You are so bad, big brother" She started to punch me again.
"Okey okey, I'm going just stop punching me, will you! " I snapped
" Okey I m sorry, Hana" I kneel down
"Listen to me carefully.... "
"It's too crowded near popsicle shop. So, I'll go and bring it. Till then I want you to stand here" I slowly explained her...
.....Actually after our mother and father died in an accident, I took up the responsibility. I know a 12 yrs boy saying stuff like responsibility and all doesn't suit or sounds like a joke, I don't blame you if you say that....cause I wasn't able to fulfill it in the first place.
It still kills me from inside even after 13yrs ....
Suzune says it wasn't my fault but somehow I couldn't convince myself to believe it....
'Is she doing alright?'
'Is she alive?'
'And if she is alive then have she eaten?'
'Where could I find her?'
All day my head is filled with thought like these. But what's the use if I can't find her in so many yrs. Huh, I don't even know wheather she is alive or not!
Back in past:
"Yea, I'll stay here. Now hurry up!" Hana said pushing me.
There was long line for getting a single dam popsicle. Just because they came from main town doesn't mean that they are good! If it wasn't 'bout Hana, I'd never waste my time on such trivial things!
After standing for half and hour, I finally got the golden opportunity! And what's up with the price? Are they using stick of gold or something?
I took two cause if I would have taken one then Hana would handle her popsicle to me saying that she doesn't feel good. She is a cutie!
"Hana...?" I called her name.
It's been half and hour she must have gone somewhere....
"Haaanaaaaa"
"Where are you?"
"I brought the popsicle"
"I know I took long to come"
[No response]
[Hana didn't show up]
I gave the popsicle to two little kids....
And started to search for Hana.
"Haaaaanaa...Where are youuu"
"I'm sorry!"
I started searching every where. Suddenly there was fire, huge fire !!!!
Wait! Hana can be there!
I ran for the sake of my life, the fire was at a distance. My chest started burning, as I went closer the smoke of fire started to fill my chest.
"Where are you going kiddo?" A man clutched my shirt from behind.
"What was going here before fi.. fire " I stammered,
"It was a circus for kids", the man said.
"Circus!"
Hana was so excited 'bout going to circus, I hope she didn't....
[I collapsed as the smoke filled my lungs ]
When I finally came back to consciousness. I was alone in that enormous field.....
I searched all night till I fell on the ground....and sunrays gently passed their hands over my face.
That was the last I saw Hana, that was the last I saw someone who felt like home ......
When I lost Hana, I lost all my belonging...
I didn't felt like orphan when my mother and father died but I felt like one when I lost my Hana .....