Sometimes, learning to let go of your heart is another way to immortalize your true love. Being happy at the fact that, even though she isn't with you, she is happy somewhere else. She is happy wherever she is, and that's all that matters. This part of the story is for all the love stories around the world awaiting a closure.
One should remember that not all stories end up having a perfect closure or a perfect ending. Some stories are better off as an imperfect and incomplete phases of life. Blessed are those who got true love in their lifetime, but sometimes the pain and joy of heartbreak leads us to the restarting phase of our life. Where we learn to embrace ourselves to the fullest. We learn to love ourselves even better.
Many years had passed down since i last talked to her or even saw her pictures. I guess i didn't want to go through all that pain all over again. It was the final year of my university, and we were given some time off afte pur final exams. The winter came in early that year. It was a cold day, and I was casually visiting a place, just for a tour. The sun was about to set, but there was a shady bluish black tone in the sky. I had my black jacket on, and still, the cold breeze kept passing through it. I had the first official copy of my book, "My Lady in Green!" with me. I thought it was the perfect weather and the perfect spot to have scenic end of my story. In other words, the story would blend well with the surrounding area I was in. And so i decided to read it, at the park. It was a scenic view, with the sun slowly fading down and the bright orange mixed with the pale reddish colour of the winter sun,at the end of the day, it really doesn't matter who she's with or wherever she is. The only thing that really matters is that she's happy. And upon looking at her posts, it was evident she really changed. On some occasions, I tried to contact her and just wanted to tell her that I was sorry. But she never responded. She was blindly chasing her dreams, accepting Western culture and their traditions. It was completely different than I girl I fell in love with. I never thought one could change so dramatically as she did, or was that in her nature. I guess girls change, but men never do, or at least some don't. I guess some things should never be changed.
A relationship should be held together from both ends, because the strings that holds the bond are very delicate and fragile, if one end looses its grip, the strings breaks apart and perhaps it can never be able to get back. Perhaps ours was a failed one since the very start, but I never lost my grip on it, and so it caused me a great deal of problems. And that is why you should know when to let go. In my case, I realized that I was the only one trying to make things right all over again, but there were no efforts from the other end. Maybe it shouldn't be corrected. Maybe it was fate giving me a chance to get out of it before the paintooks over me.
She might not be the one for eternity, but she was the one to let me understand the true meaning of love. Every moment we spent together, it felt like a lifetime. And so it was, maybe she changed, but deep down I know that my heart won't forget her. I thank her for giving me inspiration and the delicate moments that I shall continue to adore throughout the rest of my life.
I hope somewhere there's someone waiting for me, maybe that be my true soulmate, but who knows, we should learn to live in the present and forget what our past has done to us. But one must always be humble and learn from his past mistakes.
It is the end part of the story as I let her go, altogether, but in this final moment, I shall put forward a poem I dedicated to her.
Goodbye, my lady in Green!
Love is really a complicated thing,
Everyone dreams about it,
But only a few get to achieve it.
You can't forget the feelings,
Nor replace the empty place.
It's a magical feeling that's unique in its grace
Deep within the chambers of my heart,
Therein lies a beautiful soul,
One who's sweet smile got me crazy
And made me whole
Learning to let go is difficult to do,
For I will always love and feel for you
May the love for you never die
May the eyes, I loved, never lie.
I guess in this chapter, I shall bid farewell
Farewell to the woman who inspired me
Thanks to all those who helped me see
Goodbye, my love.
Goodbye, my lady in Green!