She hates me!
She won't forgive me!
I made her go through hard times, I took her dignity!
I laid down on the floor crying my eyes out.
She's shutting me out! I can't do without her.
I love her and now Karma has paid me a visit.
Look at where my desperation has landed me!!!!
What do I do?
"Alpha Monroe? What the hell? What's wrong? You look like a psychic right now, you are a mess. what happened?"
Mum asked coming towards me and I broke into another round of tears.
"She hates me mum, sh..e"
"Calm down and talk to me Son, who hates you and why?" She asked.
"Sira! I.. I did something to her, I raped her and now she's mad at me Mum. I regret ever doing that, I"..."
Mum's grip loosened on me as she stood up on her feet blinking her eyes.
"You did what?" She asked.
I can't hide it from her, not from anyone. I am becoming mad!
I am nothing without her.
"I..I am sorry Mum, please beg her to forgive me"
"Slap!"
"Slap!"
"Sla!"
"Slap!"
"Slap!"
"Slap!"
W...what? Six luna slaps!
I fell on the floor as I became submissive due to the slaps.
"I didn't raise you up to be a rapist, or a weakling! I raised you up as an alpha!" She screams with her eyes glowing.
[Alpha Monroe]
"I didn't raise you up to become a rapist!"
Those words really made a loud thud on my chest.
I know I stupidly raped her, yes! It's rape because she wasn't aware but am I a rapist?
She is my mate.
It hurts to see the two most important women in my life are mad at me.
"I..I.".am sorry Mum please forgive me." I pleaded in tears.
My eyes were red and puffy, my cheeks turned pink from the slaps.
It hurts but I think I deserve it for hurting Sira. I deserve everything. All I want is her forgiveness.
"How could you be Alpha Monroe? What pushed you to hurt the innocent lady? Why?" Mum asked angrily.
I struggled to her side and held her hands.
I feel so weak and dejected.
"M.. Mum, I admit what I did was wrong but I am sorry. I can't have you both mad at me please Mum, she happens to be my mate, I couldn't control my wolf."
I felt something warm on my cheeks and discovered I was still crying.
I have never cried this way in a long time.
I buried my face on her legs with tears rushing down my cheeks.
"I am sorry."
I heard her sigh and she pulled me up into a bone crushing hug.
"It's okay Son, if you had wanted her. You could have told me not taken advantage of her." she said patting my back.
I sniffed the tears away trying to stand firm.
I can't.
I staggered falling down but Mum was quick enough to get hold of me.
Those slaps are having an effect on me now!
"P. Promise me something Mum." I said staring at her.
"What?"
"Promise you will beg her to forgive me, I am so ashamed of myself and act like Mum. I feel dirty. I regret everything Mum"
"I did that because I thought it was lust, I did that because I thought it will wipe her image off my head but I realized I was beginning to love her more because the feeling wouldn't go away but become stronger."
She is my mate.
"I wish I can turn back the hands of time to correct all my mistakes, to be Sira's perfect kind of alpha mate and become the son you've always wished me to be mum."
I broke down in tears again.... Just when I thought everything was going to go well, my past came paying me a terrific visit.
"I promise to talk to her Alpha Monroe but I am not assuring you of her forgiveness. I will put in my best and I am sorry for hitting you"
She replied and pulled me into a hug again.
She wasn't wrong for slapping me.
That's what every good mother will do.
"T. Thank you Mum"
"So where's she? I mean Sira"
"She locked up herself in the room for the past two hours mum, will she ever forgive me?"
"I know she will with time, just be patient Son"
She said walking to Sira's door"....
God please, I will change if she forgives me.
[Jenny]
"Hey can you please stop stalking me?" I flared up shooting daggers at him
What's with him?
He's been stalking me for the past two weeks I arrived here in London" He's everywhere I go like what the heck?
Mum and Dad forgave me, I mean it was easy because I happen to be their only daughter out of three children
"I just want us to talk." he said calmly and I chuckled.
"Talk about what? I don't even know you, can't you let me be?"
"I will stop stalking you on one condition"
Huh?
"What condition?" I asked
"If you give me your number." he said and I scoffed.
Like seriously?
"You want my number? That's it ?"
I asked and he nodded.
"Fine"
I collected his phone and imputed my number
"Thank you uhmm"
"Jenny"
"If you don't mind, excuse me" he nodded, smiling at me while I entered my car.
[Sira]
I sniffed in tears as the bang on the door didn't stop.
"You can't continue staying in the room crying all day hunny please open the door just for me and believe me, the alpha isn't with me please."
She pleaded.
What did she want to say to me?
Her son put me in this situation and now I am carrying his baby.
Have I ever dreamt about that in my life? Not even for once has the thought of being Alpha Monroe's baby mama cross my mind.
Does he know how it feels to wake up one day and discover the virginity you slept with is gone?
That was a case of rape, he raped me in my drunken state and why can't I remember anything?
Did he make me forget that too?
I hate him so much.
I detest him so much.
"Sira please, for the respect you have for me, open the door."
How did this loving woman give birth to a monster?
I can't continue being indoors, I have to face the reality outside this room
Maybe it was destined to happen but it's the worst kinda destiny I have ever come across and I happen to be the victim.
Alpha Monroe has destroyed me.
"He ruined me."
I briskly stood up from the floor heading to the door.
I opened it and Luna Scott entered.
She took me in a warm embrace and I couldn't help but break into tears"
"Shhhh, it's okay baby stop crying." She sat me on the bed with her hands entangled to mine.
"I understand what you are going through baby but crying won't solve a thing." She says in return.
"I am really sorry for everything, for what my son did Sira, I am deeply sorry." She wiped my tears with her thumb giving me a sympathetic look.
"I was very mad at him when he told me about it but believe me, he's sorry. He regrets everything baby"
"You need to see how he's become within this few hours Sira. You won't recognize the Alpha Monroe you know."
After he's done taking what he wants he now regrets it! Wonderful!
"Should I tell you a secret baby?" She whispered and I glanced curiously at her.
What secret? I wanted to speak but ended up nodding.
"Alpha Monroe loves you and is your mate, so my dear, that means you have royal blood flowing through your veins to control his wolf." She says to me with empathy.
My eyes widened in shock and she smiled at me.
Alpha Monroe what?
How can that be true?
He loves me? My mate? Royal How?
"Take a look at this, he was trying to prove how sorry he is for what he did by buying you the fashion house and that is because of the love he has for you too." She adds.
"I am not saying all this to favour him because he's my son. I know he's messed up a big time and I gave him slaps to reset his brain trust me... my luna wolf was just too pissed."
I couldn't help but chuckle at that.
Slaps?
I can imagine his red face now.
Like how many slaps? Two? three?
"He took advantage of you and still took bold steps to tell you about it and apologize, that's how much he loves you Sira, and he wouldn't want you to find out from someone else or you remembering it yourself."
"I know it will take time for you to adjust to everything but please forgive him. Give him another chance to prove how sorry he is baby but give him a kick in his ass when you meet him for me."
We both began laughing.
Even if every wound is still fresh in my head.
She has eased my mind with her words.
"Anyways, have you checked the mirror? You look like a mess so go freshen up while I prepare something hot for you to drink Luna Sira."
She said and left for the door.
Did he truly love me like his Mum said?
Should I give him another chance?
"Here take this hot coffee and be strong," supreme luna Scott said, placing a glass of coffee in my hand.
She's such a cool woman, she makes me long for the love of a mother.
"Thank you ma'am" I said genuinely. There's this strength and a light of hope her words give me."
If I am going to forgive Alpha Monroe.
It will definitely be because of her.
"Can you quit calling me that already? You are now my daughter and I expect you to call me mum okay?" She adds.
Mum! That sounds good on my lips" I am going to call someone as Mum after almost 10 years of losing my mum.
"O..okay Mum."
"Yes now, take the coffee already, then we will head downstairs for dinner before I tuck you to bed." she urged and I chuckled."
Meaning I am going to see Alpha Monroe this evening.
After everything, I am not mad at him anymore but I can't just get over the fact that he raped me.
Well for being his mate... he sorta has a right to sleep with my dead bones too! Fucking tradition!
Though, He did do that.
It hurts so much but what do I do?
Fate has its own way of playing its role in people's life.
It was destined to happen and it happened anyways.
I will forgive him but not tonight, I have to let him drink from his guilt and regret.
I nodded, taking the coffee and gulping it down my throat.
It's just the way I love it, black coffee with a little sugar"
She's treating me like a princess because her son took advantage of me.
What if she gets to know that I am carrying her grandchild?
I am sure she's going to freak out."
I kept a straight face looking everywhere but him.
I could see his intense gaze burning my face but I pretended not to care.
Mum dished out a sandwich for me and I began munching hungrily.
I won't give him the impression that I have forgiven him.
Although truth to mum's words, he looked so tattered like a psychic and a lunatic.
His hair is a mess, dark shades under his eyes as mine but it's a lot better because of mum.
She was by me, he was still in his earlier outfit and I bet if he had taken a spoonful of the sandwich dish out for him.
All he does is stare at me.
My eyes met with his and I quickly averted my gaze.
I could see different emotions flickering in his eyes."
That of hurt, regret and sadness.
I can feel his pain but what he caused me is more than this.
"Are you okay honey? What else did you want to eat?" Mum asked as she stood up.
I really wish to take some chocolates but my legs are too tired to move to the kitchen and I can't tell mum to get that for me."
"Yes Mum, I am okay. Good night Mum." I smiled kissing her cheeks as Alpha Monroe stared at us blankly.
It feels so good ignoring him this way.
"Remember, I promise to tuck you to bed" She said and I chuckled.
"Common mum, I am fine and I will do that myself." I replied.
"Or you want Alpha Monroe to do that? He can..."
"No mum, goodnight" I hastily replied, walking away hearing her loud laughter behind me.