I walked out of the library with Victor next to me
This made me doubt him more
"Did you really accept the duel?..." Victor asked, draping his hands into his pockets
"Yes… By the way, do you work inside the academy?…"
"no.."
"So you're a student?..."
"no..."
I stopped walking, Victor took a few steps in front of me and then stopped
"Why did you stop..." The indifferent look was still on Victor's face
"You are not a student or an employee of the academy, are you an agent of the central government or someone sent by the Frost family?…"
"I understand your suspicion of me, but I don't work for the central government, and as for the Frost family, it's just a small family that doesn't deserve me to work for…"
"....." This guy is very arrogant
Of course, I didn't believe his words easily. Everyone can lie. I myself don't know how many lies I've told so far to reach my goals.
I continued walking with Victor next to me
Suddenly Victor asked, "It seems you don't trust anyone..."
I stayed silent for a while thinking, he was right so I hesitated to answer after a few seconds I opened my mouth looking into the void "Because it's hard to find someone I can trust..."
"Is it because of others or is there something wrong with you…"
"What do you mean…" I started to feel uncomfortable with this conversation
"Not trusting those around you is paranoia…"
"I don't have a mental illness…" I frowned while looking at him sideways. "I want someone to talk to, to whom I can tell about my problems and difficulties, but unfortunately everyone here wants something from me…"
"Do you think that everyone is targeting you…"
I didn't answer, but deep down I knew I was right
The central government wants me to tell them where Thomas Weir is hiding, the Frosts want to use me to destroy the Gracefields, and the Gracefields want me to follow their orders so they can keep their reputation, but they don't care what really happens to me as long as it doesn't affect the Gracefields.
Victor continued, "Do you feel hatred towards them? Do you want to eliminate the Gracefield family who ignored you and the Frost family who plotted to insult you?..."
We both stopped. Victor looked at my face and our eyes met. Victor was a few inches taller than me, so he was looking down a bit.
Why does this man think I feel hate? My memory started returning to the actions I had done earlier
I attacked Alex at the Gracefield mansion, and then I attacked Seraphina with my words
I didn't mean to be hostile, but these things happened because I lost control of my emotions because of The memories that I recovered
I feel contempt for the Gracefields for ostracizing Elia
And I don't like the Frost family because they want to put me down
But do I want to take revenge on them and destroy them? when I asked myself this question , there was an answer in my head
I couldn't kill them, but I wanted to spoil their plans. Now I'm weak and I can't kill anyone who wants to hurt me. All I can do is try to win the duel.
"No, I am disturbed by their actions, but I do not want to eliminate them…"
Victor Planck was surprised by this answer: "Are you so kind that you forgive people who want to harm you?..."
I smiled sarcastically, "kind?....Unfortunately, Victor, I'm not a kind person..."
I stopped talking, I said something I shouldn't say in front of a stranger
But I was disturbed when he called me a kind person, I remembered the last nightmare
After that nightmare I dare not say I am a good person
I did not want to continue with this talk, "If we continue to stop every ten meters, we will not reach our destination until dawn..."
"It seems that you are right..... I think we will part ways here. It was very interesting to talk to you, Bye..."
Victor Planck bid me farewell and left. I stared at his back for a moment before continuing on my way