Andor -
I was the bastard son. I was never wanted by my father. My mother was just a means to satisfy his carnal ends. It was the result of his treachery against my mother. She loved him and worshipped the ground he walked on. Yet if given the chance, he would have spit on her grave.
I loved my mother so very much; she could sing like an angel amongst the heavens. Her mate had died when she was only a teenager, she had only caught his eye as her mate marched off to fight a war for my father. My father instigated a war by having slept with the Alpha's daughter of the blood moon pack.
My mother was so beautiful, and when my father found out my mother was mateless, due to losing her mate in the war. He decided to woo her. Not because he loved her or was even planning to make her his Luna. Only because he wanted someone to satisfy him with the carnal lust, he had day and night for many women. This way he would not sleep with anyone's mate by accident. He worried too much about losing his pack's respect.
His whole plan was to dump my mother when he tired of her, but she became pregnant and, with me, a son. That meant that I was his first boy. I was the heir to the pack. Now, to keep a face, he had to make my mother his bride. Because of that, he hated her, blamed my mother for getting pregnant. That is when he started beating her and didn't care if his children watched. When I was five, I bit his ankle trying to free her from his grip. My mother was turning blue as he choked her, I just knew he would kill her. My biting, my father worked as he took his anger out on me. He punched me throwing me across the room. My mother ran over to me, wrapping her body around me. Protecting me from each and every blow, my father's fist beat upon her back. He was an Alpha, and my mother was only an Omega who cannot protect anyone, not even herself.
The last straw was when I killed my father with a shotgun. I never wanted to be Alpha, and now I can officially hand the title over to my sister and her mate. I would follow my mate to the ends of the earth if she would have me. I know she worries about taking me from my kingdom. That is why I am going to surprise her before she plans to leave, letting her know I can also be by her side and together we can get her Kingdom back. What means the world to her means the world to me.
I have a date planned for the lake. My family has a yacht on that lake. That night I will invite the pack, and my sister and her mate. I would have my mate think it was just her and I was going on the yacht. Then I would surprise her as I handed over my crown to my sister. I will explain to the pack my undying love for my mate. How the pack has always really belonged to my sister. I was terrified, as I was not sure what Ashina's reaction would be. Will she feel like I am doing this for her and not because I really don't want to be an Alpha? I wish she knew it was for both reasons. My biggest fear is she will sneak off without me, feeling that she was doing me a favor. I have found that I no longer fear the pains of the past which kept me bound to a life of misery. I love Ashina and I would die if she were not in my life.
My sister, her mate, and I have had many meetings planning out my surprise. I have put my heart, soul, and entire being into this. I pray she can hear the longings of my heart, the warmth of my love, that she is all I will ever want in my life. This is why I have had so many meetings with my sister.
When Ashina doesn't realize I am awake, I can see her in personal turmoil. I know she is thinking about us and trying to let go of me. This is why I keep close to her, letting our bond grow. I want her to feel my love for her, so she will know if I am telling the truth when I say I only want her and not to be an Alpha. It was never my dream. Only a memory of a bad reality I grew up with and forced upon me.
Later, I plan on taking her to a favorite place of mine behind the falls. It is magical to me, as I used to come here to get away and live in the fairy tales I have made. I have lined the cave with flowers, and the gems that are already apart from the caves' natural formation shine like fairy lights created especially for this moment. I had some omegas, brought a table and chairs to make the cave like a hidden restaurant. I wanted her to know she was my fairy tale come true.
Taking Ashina to my room after she had fallen asleep in her own room was a great feeling the sparks I have grown to cherish. Little did I know that she had pulled a prank, so that when I opened the door we were doused with pink paint.
I didn't even get mad, I just thought after we woke up, we would just go on the date I had planned to match one another in pink paint. Ashina looked at me in shock as I laughed rather than lose my temper. I am sure she thought I had gone totally crazy. Maybe I have.