-1st person-
200 years later,
"Hmmm..." I was currently sitting on the floor with my hand on my chin, thinking.
"Ray???" And Eris was in the room too. Well, She just entered now and as you can see, She is questioning my unique behaviour right now.
"Ah, yes, Eris?" Keep in mind that I only just noticed Her come in the room.
"What question is so difficult that you are here contemplating it instead of preparing?" The big question right now is, why am I wasting away over here instead of reading like my life depends on it, or training?
"..." Silence.
I quickly formulated a comprehensive sentence before I began speaking gibberish with all the thoughts in my head. "I'm... Trying to see if I can calculate the time difference between here and Earth." That was almost a problem, I almost said a different sentence like, '5 million years here should be about 0.0042349 years there..."
Hah... Maths truly is complicated.
"Oh... Well, I think it should be..." A quick pause before She began speaking again, "Each second on Earth is equivalent to... 38.5802064242 years in the Void."
Huh? Wait a minute... Oh wow. Gimme a second to and~
"39 YEARS?!" I rounded it up to the closest one cause that number was too long. What was it again? 38.5802063434??? Back to reality, I quickly sat up and thought before speaking again, more calmly this time though, "So... Doesn't that mean I can spend more time here than I thought?" How do I act for this one? My mind was truly in turmoil.
"Ah..." The darkness seemed to lighten up to the point the room seemed normal before slowly, very slowly, returning to normal. Eris then spoke again, "Yes, if you wish."
How will I react to this? How do I... how do I feel about this? It's not like I can simply brush off a comment like that.
My hand rose to my chest and felt the heart, its pulse. Monotonously beating all the time. I had the same heart as others yet I am different, how does one feel... Why can't I understand a human whenever I see them? Should I just rip out their hearts and study them closely? How would Raymond Valtere, the perfect child, react to this?
Then I placed my second largest smile on my face.
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-3rd person-
300 years later,
A small figure with pitch-black hair and abyss-like eyes stared into a mirror as they admired their own reflection. They weren't admiring their angel-like appearance but the change in 'their' demeanor. Their appearance seemed closer to angel-like in figure and devil-like in colour palette.
"Hah... I'm like a completely different person..." Ray closed his eyes and imagined how he seemed before to how he seemed now, if he showed a picture of both him then and now to a different person and asked if they were the same person, they'd say that he was 2 different people.
If before he seemed childish, curious, young, dependant, and a complete angel. Then now he seemed wise, strange, intelligent, old, and... Almost a complete angel. He wondered, should this change be welcomed?
"Eris," He spoke quickly and only paused for a second or 2 before continuing, "Can you believe I am the same person from... 651 years ago?" It was almost strange that he'd be 656 years old now, seeing his 5-year-old body.
"Yes... Though it is quite impossible to believe you are your parent's child. If anything you seem more like mine." A chuckle. Then a pause, before Ray looked up and said,
"You have an appearance?!" More out of surprise than anything, he'd never questioned the Void about Her appearance or form since he felt it was disrespectful, but this was the first he'd heard from Her about it.
"Indeed I do."
"Then can you show me?" Ray asked, before adding, "Of course you don't need to, I just wanna see what Eris looks like."
"I will... Show you another day." It wasn't hesitation, more like She wanted it to be a special occasion.
"Hmph, I... I guess so..." His head drooped down, Ray was so excited but he still had to wait. He did understand where the Void was coming from but he felt an undying need to see it the instant he found out about it. And before long, he looked back up and decided to read instead.
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-1st person-
4 hours later,
I looked up from the book I was reading called [Restlessness] and thought for a moment. I wanted to ask Eris this question that made me even more curious than Nous or the energies, I was so focused that I didn't even remember how much I wanted to see Her appearance.
"Mom-!" I paused. I slowly took a deep, deep breath before repeating, "Eris!"
I wonder if this was intentional.
"Hmmm? What is it?..." A pause, the room was still as bright as it was as Eris continued, "Son." A chuckle. Almost a laugh.
"Eris... I... Don't really miss my parents anymore..." I looked away, it was a strange way to carry on a conversation but it felt like the route to go. When I used to read books, I also read a few adventure books, and usually there was a scene or two about this in order to progress relationships. I remembered who my parents were and I could barely remember their appearances. Would I have to go and cry in their arms when I return?
"Eris... My parents..." I took a deep breath before continuing, "My parents are no longer my parents. Emotionally, I mean. They seem foreign at this point and I don't even feel sad when I try to remember how long I'll be away from them. I don't even feel... Anything, when I think about them, when I try to remember their scent, their lullabies, their smiles, their small actions towards me, I can't even remember their names..." I said this calmly, almost emotionlessly, however, I wasn't that negligent with my tone. I was able to make sure the bare minimum appeared so it would appear as if I was holding back feelings.
My face felt wet, no longer its warmth from earlier, a sticky, neutral temperature drop. It felt suffocating, nothing was tense, just me. I felt like I would die from the suffocation and I felt that I couldn't breathe, I slowly tried to take deep breaths. In, out, in, out, in, out, in, and out, I could finally breathe properly again. I raised my hand to my face and slowly looked at that hand, and I already knew before I looked. I was crying. My vision was blurry and I could barely make out each plank on the ground, it was all just brown. I didn't wipe my face.
Is this a pitiful enough appearance for you, Eris?
Yes, they were I tears forced out.
Shortly after, Eris revealed Her appearance to me and we walked past a milestone in our relationship.
(Authors note:I already updated this but I don't think it's worked...)