There was always a gap between Kwesser and the king and Kwesser knew that it was there because the king was still in love with his first wife and he could never bring himself to love her like a woman. The realization of the impossible road ahead for Kwesser made her resent the king and the old queen, and when Yulgar tried to woo her, she fell for him and the love that the king never showed her.
That is why Kwesser was willing to erase everything that she had with the king and start over with Yulgar. Even if it meant killing her own son, she knew that it was only a matter of making more children.
But now, that very child that she wanted to kill turned out to be the worst thorn in her side. Kwesser put her hand to her mouth as she felt a heavy sob come out.
When did everything go so wrong?
She should have just killed that boy after birthing him as she planned. That would have saved her from all this torment.
