Roan dreamt of becoming a magus when he was a child and that dream persisted till the day he realised he was just an orphan with no money and an awakening ritual cost in gold.
The dream was quashed before it even had the chance to be nurtured.
But the dream returned after he awakened but it was again crushed after he realised that he was a Necromancer.
But it was again revitalized after he got the core from Soras and now it was on the verge of being crushed again by Aly.
If he decided to accept her offer then, Roan knew he would have to go against the church which would be a death sentence but if he didn't accept then Aly would simply kill him.
There was no way out of this, except becoming a hunted criminal by the church or dying.
Roan sighed as he glanced at Aly. She sat there unbothered, not really caring what went through his head or what problems she was giving him.