"So now I'm just really distressed, wondering how to smoothly put an end to this situation. You have no idea how irritable I am. Maybe he isn't bringing up the matter right now, but since he has already mentioned it, can it be long before he does so again?"
I'm afraid I won't know how to cope the next time it comes up, which is really the most troubling part. It's not that I'm very nervous right now, but you must help me. Think of a few ways to help me. It's not that I can't accept him having children with other women, but I just can't get over this mental block, Shen Dong is a really decent man, after all.
It's just that I myself can't bear the pain of childbirth. Every time I see that image, I can't help wanting to vomit, and I have nightmares every night. So, I don't think I could ever have children. Perhaps I might adopt from an orphanage in the future, but I don't think I'll ever have my own. Right now, I feel absolutely stuck at this point."
