The fair weather from the day before had transformed, and that
morning's sky was covered with heavy snow clouds. The weather forecast
predicted a storm before noon. There was no wind at the moment, but light
snow was already falling on the ski slopes.
"How are your hands, Takasu-kun?"
Turning around at Kitamura's voice, Ryuuji waved his glove-covered
right hand.
"All good. Just stinging a little."
During breakfast, he had gotten a light burn—or more like, been
burned by Taiga, that unrivaled klutz. In the dining hall, Taiga had been
getting a second helping of miso soup when he asked her in a low voice,
"So how'd it turn out?" The girls were intent on ignoring the guys that day,
too, and he was trying to be inconspicuous.
Taiga's answer was, "Whaaa?!" Then she spilled her miso soup,
which she'd greedily filled to the brim, on Ryuuji's hand.
"I've realized something… Never get close to Taiga while she's
holding something dangerous."
"It was an accident, wasn't it? Why don't you forgive her?"
"I can't believe you're saying the same thing as Taiga… 'It wasn't on
purpose! It was an accident! Oh no!' She didn't even apologize."
"There was all that stuff that happened yesterday. A lot's going on."
Just let it go. Kitamura's mouth twisted, and he raised his palms up in
the air. Ryuuji just raised his eyebrows slightly in response.
The morning was their free time.
He could see people laughing as they started to practice skiing and
began falling over. There were even some people in the process of making
snowmen. Noto and Haruta were probably long gone up the lift, headed to
the courses.
"You don't have to hang around with me. You can go to the courses."
"I was planning on teaching you how to turn today, Takasu."
"It's fine. I'm okay."
Kitamura wouldn't be able to enjoy skiing with Ryuuji around, and
knowing how intense Kitamura could get about teaching, he wanted to be
spared the lesson.
"No matter what I do, I can't get a feel for it. Taiga's staying back,
too. She's probably pulling her sled over there, anyway, so I'll join her."
They waved at each other as Kitamura went off towards the lift, and
they parted ways. Ryuuji walked towards the gently inclining edge of the
slopes.
Whether Taiga had stayed behind or not, there was something he
wanted to think about on his own. His head was so muddled that there was
no way he could have fun skiing with his friends.
The snow sucked at his boots as he walked. It was a lot colder than
the day before, and his face stung. He slowly advanced towards the lodge
that acted as a rest area at the bottom of the slopes, doing his best not to fall.
Asking about Minori's true feelings, or even knowing what her true
intentions were, didn't amount to anything. He felt like his heart had been
knocked right out of him, like a disastrous game of Jenga, and other pieces
of himself were collapsing into the spot where it had been. He was helpless,
in pain, and it didn't seem relief was coming anytime soon.
Ryuuji inhaled and rubbed his eyes. He hadn't slept much the day
before. He knew that thinking about it wouldn't do anything and that
Minori's feelings wouldn't change no matter how much he thought about it,
but the fight he'd witnessed had kept going around and around in his mind
all night.
He had a vague feeling that there was something that Ami and Minori
had both agreed on not saying out loud in that fight. There was something
that Ryuuji didn't know about, and it was eating away at him.
If that were the case, then there was something that even Ami was
hiding from him.
He breathed out white as he thought about it. There was something
that Minori, Ami, Taiga and Kitamura all couldn't talk about, but at the
same time, desperately wanted to say. If they'd just come out with it, the
gears might turn without disharmony or deception.
But no one said it. They couldn't say it. They were scared that
exposing everything might bring them to a point of no return. They were
nervous, and so they swallowed their words. They'll get it even if I don't say
anything, right? They'll understand, right? We'll understand each other,
right?
But of course, they still wanted to talk about it. And sometimes it
would show itself like a needle, poking at them.
He looked around at the gaudy gear of the people scattered across the
slopes and found Taiga. She was with Minori. They were riding a sled
together, laughing. He didn't have any reason to intrude on them when they
were like that, so Ryuuji turned around.
His eyes came upon Ami.
"Oh," he said. "What are you doing in a place like this?"
"My ankle hurts a little bit, so I'm resting."
Squatting down in the soft snow few people made their way to, Ami
was gloomily building a snow mountain by herself. He was taken aback by
her reply—she had been crabby and spiteful, telling him that she hated him
because he was stupid for so long, after all.
Plus, there was all the stuff that happened the day before. Ryuuji was
a little uneasy as he walked towards her.
"Did you fall down…?"
Ami had stuck her rental skis and poles up in the snow behind her.
"Yeah. I'm tired, and I can't even go to get coffee at the lodge because I
forgot my wallet."
"So now you're making a mountain by yourself?"
"It's not a mountain. This is supposed to be Kamakura—like the city
in the mountains."
If that's supposed to be Kamakura, it's sort of doomed. Even Ryuuji,
an absolute amateur when it came to snow, couldn't help but think that as
he watched Ami's gloved hands pat the small, fragile mound.
"Aren't you supposed to start out by rolling a snowball like you're
making a snowman instead of making a giant pile of snow?"
"I'm fine with this."
Ami stayed stubbornly crouched down and continued to build the
mountain. She placed the snow she scooped up with her gloved hand on the
mound and patted it down. No matter how long she did that, it wouldn't end
up becoming the Kamakura she wanted.
I understand, even if you don't say anything, Ryuuji thought as he
watched her face, which seemed to be reflecting the white snow. The
previous day's dispute with Minori had gotten to Ami in the end. That was
why she was alone here, meaninglessly gathering snow to pass the time. It
was like she was churning through her own messed-up mind.
"Oh, hey!"
"I'm just helping you."
He sat across from her and started to pile up more snow. He didn't
intend to try to comfort her, or get more information about the fight, or
anything of that sort. He hadn't forgotten that she'd said she hated him
because he was stupid, either.
It was just that Ryuuji was also alone. No matter how much time
passed, it wasn't as though Ami's Kamakura would be done. It wasn't as
though he felt like he could leave her alone there as she vainly packed
together the snow. Plus, if Ami really thought he was in the way, she would
have told him so.
"Hey, you have to make sure you compact it…"
"…"
"C'mon, do it. You put so much effort into piling it up when it's just
gonna keep collapsing."
Ami's hands stopped, causing an avalanche above the snow Ryuuji
had piled up. It started to collapse, and resigned, Ryuuji stretched out his
hand to pat it down.
"Oh?!"
Ami stuck her head face first into the mountain. She did it with the
energy of the drunkest person at a party sticking their face into a cake as a
joke.
"What the heck are you doing?! Isn't it cold?! Is this some kind of
beauty treatment?!" Ryuuji exclaimed. She stayed like that for a few
seconds. "Excuse me, but—"
Finally, Ami lifted her head. Snow stuck to her eyelashes and
eyebrows. Her cheeks and nose had flushed bright red from the cold.
"There's something I need to tell you, Takasu-kun…"
"Hey, I get it, I get it. There's probably a lot you've got to say. For
starters, how about you apologize for calling me an idiot?"
"That's not what I meant. It's not…that."
Ami rested her chin on the peak of the collapsed snow pile and
quietly closed her eyes. She took a breath through her nose, held it for a
while, and then took another.
"It might be my fault that Minori-chan rejected you…" she said.
Ryuuji just looked at Ami's face. Wha? he mouthed without a sound.
"Earlier…when you weren't around, I said something nasty to
Minori-chan. I don't even know why I said it, but I can't take it back. I
think Minori-chan's been thinking about it for a long time, and that's why
she rejected you."
He couldn't understand what she meant. "Uhhh…well anyway…
what was it that you said?"
"Are you angry? Ha ha. I guess anyone would be angry."
"Well, it's not like I can say anything about it if I don't know the
details."
"I can't tell you."
There it was. Another thing no one could talk about.
"Plus, yesterday, I started a fight with Minori. I said some nasty
things I regret, but I still get annoyed whenever I look at her face. I can't
help it. There are a lot of things that annoy me, but the main thing is that
she absolutely won't talk straight to anyone. No matter how much I tried to
start a fight, I couldn't get Minori-chan to actually say what she was
feeling."
Her long eyelashes cast down, Ami slowly extended her hand.
She smashed the mountain of snow violently. She chopped at it until
it was utterly destroyed. Then she took a breath.
"I don't like you because you're an idiot…"
"That again…"
"I hate myself because I'm an idiot, too. I—"
As though she'd exhausted herself, she sat down in the middle of the
mess of snow she had made. She brushed away the ruins of the snow
mountain with her hands, breaking it down, scattering it around, and then
looked up at the dull, silver sky.
"Hey, Takasu-kun."
It was starting to snow harder, and the slivers of ice adhered to Ami's
hair. Ryuuji could only look at her, hung up on finding the words he should
have said.
"Apparently Taiga's been trying to become independent recently.
Minori-chan just straight out rejected you. They've both let go of your
hands now, and I was thinking that maybe, I'd grab your hand instead.
Actually, this all went exactly to plan. I've always been thinking of trying to
ask you out. Because I like you. What would you do if I said that? None of
it is true, though."
She said it all faster than he could understand.
"You said that way too fast! You didn't even give me a chance to be
surprised before you turned everything around!"
Trying to gain control over his leaping heart, Ryuuji desperately
rubbed at his own face. His snow-covered gloves made his already freezing
nose grow even colder.
Ami didn't even smile as she simply stared at Ryuuji.
"But none of it's true, anyway. If you believed that, it wouldn't be
according to plan. I didn't want it to end up this way. But, well…I really did
stick my nose into something I shouldn't have."
Her mouth touched the snow. It melted as it was touched. The faint
smile that finally came over her lips vanished just as quickly.
"I'm racked with guilt… I'm self-destructing, too. This is what
happened because of all my mistakes."
"This is what happened… By that, do you mean Kushieda rejecting
me? I don't want you to take the blame for that. I don't know what
happened between you and Kushieda, but I'm not the kind of person who
blames other people for being rejected."
"Right…"
Ami sniffled and got up slowly. Then, with her usual cute and perfect
smile, she looked down at Ryuuji.
"Well then, shall we end this friendship?"
"Huh?"
Ami took her gloves off, put them under her arm, and made rings
with her thumbs and pointer fingers. "Break it off, break our ties," she said
in a sing-song voice, and then pulled the rings apart.
"Why are you breaking it off with me…"
"Because you're an idiot and I hate you…so, it's punishment."
That made two people who hated each other for being idiots, now.
Without saying who exactly was being punished, or for what, Ami turned
around.
What is this?
Words just weren't enough.
Ryuuji watched her go, frozen and at a loss for words.
"DIMHUAHUA, GET OUTTA THE
WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!"
"I'M NOT DOING IT ON PURPOSE! I'M NOT DOING IT ON
PURPOSE! I'M NOT DOING IT ON PURPOSEEEEEEEE!""
Taiga and Minori shot into view, roaring over on a sled. Though they
had their feet desperately outstretched, they were going too fast to stop.
Dumbfounded, Ryuuji could only watch as, first, Taiga tumbled off the sled,
scattering the snow. Next, losing her balance, Minori was also thrown off.
The unmanned sled knocked over Ami and continued sliding back to
the entrance to the slopes.
"I told you to get out of the way…" Taiga scowled as she dug Ami
out of the snow.
"Y…youuu! Just how many times do you need to fall off that sled
before you're done?! Are you an idiot?! Why'd you keep riding that sled?!
Just walk around on the snow, you numbskull!"
"That's why I'm a-pol-o-giz-ing. I know! I'll get you a soft-serve ice
cream at the lodge. My treat."
"I don't neeeeeed that! It's freezing, you idiot!"
Ami's angry kicks connected with Taiga's butt, but the oversized gear
protected her, and it didn't seem to have much of an effect.
"Soooorry, Ahmin! S-sorry we couldn't stop… Forgive us! I'm
sorry!" Minori rushed over to apologize, too.
"Why would I forgive you?!" Ami glared at Minori as her voice
cracked. "It was on purpose, wasn't it?! That had to be on purpose! I felt
murder coming off of you!"
"What?! No, no, of course not. We just couldn't stop, is all!"
"That was so on purpose! I'm just going to say it—you're still angry
about what happened yesterday, right?! You came to interfere, didn't you?!
That's definitely what this is! I know it!"
Ami's cheeks and eyes turned bright red as she shouted. There was a
blood vessel popping on her temple that looked so cartoonish it might burst.
Her nose was red, too, and then to top it all off, she threw snow at Minori.
She scored a lucky hit right in Minori's face. Minori staggered for a
moment.
"Whaaaaat?! Are you talking about how you were trying to start a
fight with me, Ahmin?! I let that go, but you're the one who's bringing it
back up again!"
Ahhh… Taiga and Ryuuji's eyes met. You stop them—No, you stop
them, they communicated silently.
However, the two of them weren't supposed to know anything about
what happened in the girls' room last night. Intervening would be difficult.
"What do you mean you let it go?! You've been ignoring me ever
since this morning!"
"That's because there was nothing to talk about! Or is it that I've got
to entertain you or else I'm ignoring you?!"
"The way you look down on me has really been bugging me! You
brawn-for-brains woman!"
"Who's looking down on you?! Maybe you're just getting carried
away because I'm trying to be the better person?!"
Bam! Minori's hands came down on Ami's shoulders.
"Why you…"
Ami seemed like she was going to return the favor, but Minori
quickly grabbed hold of Ami's hand and gave her a solid smack. They
glared at each other. When it came to reflexes, Ami was no match for
Minori.
"Don't you dare hit my face!"
"It's not like you're an actress!"
Their voices echoed across the snow-covered mountain as they
stomped their feet. Ami's voice was like a high-pitched shriek.
"I-I've always hated you, just so you know! You've always annoyed
the hell out of me!"
"Oh, I see! And who cares about that? I don't care whether you hate
me or not—it doesn't hurt or bug me at all!" Minori wasn't backing down.
Their argument got even more heated.
"I hate you! I hate you! I hate you! I hate everything about you!!!"
"Same here! I don't care about you at all! I'll never listen to you
again!"
"Oh, I'd love that!"
"Actually, why haven't you just gone back to your old school?! Hurry
up and go back where you belong!"
"That has nothing to do with youuuu?! You pauper! Go work at parttime jobs your whole life!"
"What'd you say?! Why don't you put some makeup on that fake
face and go back to modeling your whole life?!"
"Whaaat?!"
They had crossed the line into saying things that should have
remained unspoken. Their quarrel was accelerating. They jabbed
intermittently at each other's shoulders, getting to the point they were doing
it harder than they would have if they were joking.
"You want to do this?!"
"I won't apologize even if you start crying!"
"I have to go back up Minorin! Let's go, Ryuuji! Why you,
Dimhuahua!"
"Hey! You got it wrong, dummy! Stop that!"
"This is such a terrifying scene! It's like a nightmare!"
"Your fight with the patriarch was way scarier! Your nose was
bleeding all over!"
People around them had noticed the shouting and were beginning to
gather around in curiosity. Just then, Taiga and Ryuuji pulled them apart.
"Ah!"
Only Taiga saw it.
The orange hairpin holding up Minori's bangs flew off as Ami's hand
hit it. It fell a little ways away on top of the fresh snow. Ami and Minori's
quarrel was still violent, and no one else had noticed the hairpin.
Trying to not lose sight of it, Taiga ran towards the pin. It was
precious. She absolutely could not let it get lost. Her legs sank into the soft
snow, and she reached out her hand.
"…Uh."
Suddenly, there was nothing under her sunken foot. She didn't even
have time to scream as the snow in front of her eyes gave way, and she fell.
Maya, Nanako, and Kitamura came running up.
"Get a hold of yourselves! What are you two doing?!"
"But—but—but—she! It's not my fault!"
"All I did was respond to her trying to start a fight!"
When they finally pulled the two apart, even the bachelorette (age 30)
had come over. Ami was held back by Kitamura, seething as she breathed
hard. Minori was glaring at Ami while grinding her teeth. A group had
gathered, murmuring in surprise at the unusual confrontation between
Minori and Ami. The two were surrounded.
Even Ryuuji was surprised. How had it gotten this bad?
"Anyway, you go with Kushieda and have her calm down—Taiga?"
Huh? He looked around. He realized he couldn't find Taiga, even
though he thought she had been beside him.
"Taiga's not here…"
Minori turned around as she heard him mutter. She stopped glaring at
Ami. Her eyes went wide as she looked up at Ryuuji.
"She was here just a second ago. She was with you, trying to stop the
fight…"
"Taiga…"
Minori looked around, taking in her surroundings. Then her gaze
stopped. At around the same time, Ryuuji saw it, too.
It was the footprints of a single person in the snow. Minori shook
herself free from Ryuuji's grasp on her shoulders. She walked to follow
those footprints, and Ryuuji continued after her.
"These…huh, it—it couldn't be. Taiga…"
"N-no way…"
They realized that the snow piled up a bit and then dropped off into a
cliff. They also noticed formations of jutting snow that had fallen down.
When they looked down, they held their breaths as a strong gust of wind
assaulted them.
On the steep slope where the Japanese cedars grew, they found the
traces of someone who had fallen. They didn't know how far the tracks
went.
***
Apparently the Palmtop Tiger's missing.
Was the kid who disappeared from Class C the Palmtop Tiger?!
Gathered in the large hall of the lodge, the second years were causing
a commotion. Beyond the fogged-up windows, the weather outside was
stormy, as predicted by the forecast. The snow was striking down. It was a
blizzard.
"Takasu-kun, I just heard back from Ms. Koigakubo about what's
going on. Apparently, the slope Aisaka fell down is a conifer forest, and the
road under it is closed during the winter. The people in charge of the ski
resort are searching from the road, but if they can't find her, they're going
to leave it to the police… Takasu!"
"Ugh…"
Kitamura clapped in front of Ryuuji's face, making him finally raise
his head in surprise at the sound.
"Get a hold of yourself! They'll definitely find her, so it'll be okay!"
"Uh…right."
That was all he could muster. He was sitting on a hard chair carved
from a log. Ryuuji felt like he was in a bad dream. He dropped his eyes to
the faint, red burn on his right hand. That klutz, he groaned in the back of
his throat.
At long last, that klutz—Taiga—had gone and made a fatal blunder.
He had even seen her fall down a flight of stairs right before his eyes.
She fell down, crashed into things, spilled stuff, got knocked down—those
kinds of things were everyday occurrences for her. Just the other day, she
was almost run over by a car. His burned right hand was proof of Taiga's
blunders.
And yet despite that, Taiga had never really injured herself until now.
Her miraculous luck had held up so far, but at long last, it had come to this.
He blamed himself for not immediately noticing she'd disappeared
from his side, and those feelings were swirling inside his head. She'd just
disappeared—just like the night of the Christmas Eve party. He prayed that
it was the same this time.
Back then, Taiga had been safe at home. Once he noticed she was
missing, he ran back to her.
But this time…
Even looking out the window was too terrifying. He imagined what
would happen if they didn't find her in this weather and then immediately
drowned it out. That couldn't happen. That would absolutely not happen.
Taiga was a klutz, but on the other hand, she had good reflexes, and her
body was strangely sturdy. She would come up with something. It would
absolutely work out. It would.
Bringing his hands together as if in prayer, Ryuuji squeezed his eyes
shut. He didn't notice the worried looks coming from Noto and Haruta
across from him.
In a corner of his mind, he still couldn't help but think the
unavoidable. If only he could rewind time—if only he could go back to that
moment—he absolutely would not have taken his eyes off Taiga. He would
have grabbed Taiga's hand and never let go.
Even if people suspected they had a father-daughter-like relationship,
even if it got in the way of Taiga living alone, even if it got in the way of
their love lives—he would never let go of Taiga's hand again. If anyone
said anything about their relationship, he'd just ignore them.
"What a crazy blizzard…"
Ryuuji turned around.
In the seat right behind Ryuuji's, Minori was glaring out the window.
She pursed her lips tightly and pulled her beanie down low. She put on her
gloves and zipped her gear all the way to the top. Ryuuji had a bad feeling.
"Kushieda…what do you think you're doing?"
"Look at that blizzard. We've got to find her fast. I'm going out to
look."
As soon as she stood up, he grabbed her in a panic.
"Are you an idiot?! You'll get into an accident, too!"
"I can't just stay here doing nothing! It's fine, I'll definitely come
right back! Just let me go where we went before and back! I'll come back
after that!"
She didn't wait for an answer but shook her arm free of Ryuuji's grip.
Minori actually started walking out.
"Don't," Kitamura yelled, but Minori didn't listen. She freed herself
from Kitamura's attempts to grab her as well, and kept going steadily down
the wooden stairs to the first floor. No matter how many times Ryuuji
grabbed her shoulder, she swatted him away, and eventually, he resolved
himself.
"Damn it…then I'm going, too!"
"I'll go, too! Noto! Haruta! Tell the teacher that we left!" Kitamura
yelled.
"Whaa?! You can't!" Noto and the others stood up in surprise, but
Ryuuji couldn't stop Minori, and they couldn't let her go alone, either.
What are we going to do?! Noto and Haruta ran to where the teachers
were. Behind them, Ami sat alone, her pale face lowered. She was silent,
and her expression didn't change.
As the regular ski guests retreated from the storm, Ryuuji and
Kitamura desperately followed Minori. Snow piled up along the edges of
their goggles in the blink of an eye and pulled at their feet. At last, Ryuuji
grabbed hold of Minori's arm, and Kitamura grabbed her from the other
side.
"Don't rush, Kushieda! If we're really going to try finding Aisaka,
we need to calm down and look around!"
"…"
Minori finally turned around and grimaced. Her shoulders shook as
she took a harsh breath and gave him a single nod.
The blowing snowstorm seemed to be pushing them back as the three
continued forward with their arms locked together. The place where Minori
and Ami fought wasn't far from the lodge. It was just at the foot of the
slopes.
"Around here, there were traces that she slipped!"
Minori seemed excited as she quickly got as close to the cliff as she
could. She pointed at some piled snow that seemed to have concealed the
marks.
"Watch out! Don't get too close!"
"But she's somewhere below this isn't she?! Taigaaaaaaa! Answer
meeeeee!"
Ryuuji braced his boots desperately to keep from falling and grabbed
Minori's sleeve as she stretched to look down. Right before his eyes, the
snow at the tips of Minori's boots began to crumble. He felt cold sweat on
his back.
As he supported Minori, he looked down at the trees growing on the
snowy slope. He couldn't see the bottom. If it wasn't for the blizzard, they
might have been able to see traces of where she fell down.
"What's that…?"
Something shone in the snow.
It was way ahead of where they had been looking. It was in the
shadow of the slope, right below where they looked. The small, orange
thing twinkled like a single shining star in a night sky the color of snow.
It really was tiny, like it might be covered by the falling and gathering
snow any moment now. But Ryuuji could clearly see it.
"Taiga!"
She'd fallen while trying to pick it up. If that was the case, if they
went down using that as a landmark, they were sure to find her.
"Huh?! You saw something?! Was Taiga there?! Did you find her?!"
"Probably! Hurry, call someone… No, we might lose sight of it…
Dammit! Kushieda, go call a teacher, or any adult, over here! Kitamura,
stay here. If I don't come back up, pull me up or call for help!"
"No, I'll—" Minori tried to say something and then held it back.
"Okay!"
With one quick nod, she ran off into the blizzard. Using Kitamura as
a landmark, Ryuuji slid down the slope on his butt.
It was too steep to walk down. He slipped a bit and grabbed a tree,
then slipped again and clung to another. When his leg would get buried, he
would pull it out. What he was headed for was the incredibly tiny light of
the hairpin.
Don't disappear, no matter what, don't disappear, Ryuuji practically
screamed as he desperately went down the slope. I'm almost there, he
wheezed as he grasped at the snow. He wiped at the ice on his goggles.
He might have gone down twenty meters. It was a place not visible
from the road below. He reached below the branches of the overgrown
evergreens, grabbed the hairpin, and looked around.
"T-Taiga!"
He found her almost immediately nearby.
Halfway buried in the soft snow, Taiga had fallen in a space between
the roots of a large tree, her body curled up into a ball. Being careful not to
tumble down himself, he approached that hollow by crawling. Burying his
boots deep in the snow to secure his footing, Ryuuji stretched out his arm
and pulled at her small body.
"Taiga! Taiga! Taiga!"
As he brought her up from the snow, Taiga's head limply fell back.
He supported her neck as he pulled her up. Her neck was warm, and she had
a pulse. She had probably hit her head on a tree as she fell down. He saw
something red on her forehead and held his breath.
For the first time in his life, he felt a trembling sensation start from
the bottom of his stomach and make its way up his spine.
"Ow…"
He heard a small voice. Taiga's eyelashes trembled, and she
grimaced. She was alive. She was safe.
Ryuuji took in a deep breath, exhaled, and stared up the slope. He
didn't have time to think or even to feel relieved. He held Taiga's 40
kilograms to him as he began to crawl up the snowy slope on all fours.
Whenever he took a step, the snow collapsed and turned into a small
avalanche that went down the cliff. He couldn't brace himself.
They might have no choice but to wait there for help. He groaned,
feeling absolutely powerless, but then in that moment Taiga's arm moved.
She was clinging to Ryuuji's torso.
"I fell… It hurts…" she groaned deliriously. If Taiga could hold on to
him, that changed the situation.
He buried himself up to the knees in snow again. Grasping the
branches and roots of the trees protruding from the snow, Ryuuji continued
to crawl back up the slope. He wanted to talk to Taiga, but this wasn't the
time. He ground his teeth. He had to focus everything on moving forward
without dropping her.
"Ryuuji…"
Taiga's hand touched his face. Clack. Her gloveless hand felt the
goggles. She might have mistaken them for glasses.
"Oh…Kitamura-kun?"
Taiga was mistaken.
He didn't mind. Or rather, this wasn't the time for him to correct her.
He just needed to keep crawling up.
"I thought you were Ryuuji… In times like these, the one who comes
to save me…is always Ryuuji… Sorry… I'm sorry…"
The voice he heard was strangely bright. But there was something
unfocused about it, like she was talking in her sleep. Taiga wasn't
completely conscious. Her voice was fluttery, high-pitched, and more
absent than usual.
She continued to whisper into Ryuuji's ear.
"Kitamura-kun, you know…you didn't really help much…"
His foot slipped wildly. Ryuuji screamed in the back of his throat. If
Taiga hadn't been holding on to him, he would have lost his balance, and
they would have both fallen.
"Sorry, but you're not really doing that great as the Patron Saint of
Broken Hearts… The thing I asked for didn't come true at all… My
feelings for Ryuuji just won't go away… I wanted to become stronger…but
it didn't work…"
Ryuuji grabbed Taiga's clothes as she began to slip. He ground his
teeth even harder, held her as firmly as he could, and looked up.
He could see Kitamura. Kitamura was looking at him and yelling
something. It was just a bit further.
"I just like Ryuuji, no matter what I do… I want things to work out
for him with Minorin… It's so hard. It's just so hard, everything is so
hard… I can't…"
"…"
"I'm no good, right…? I wanted to do my best, being alone… I kept
saying that I'd get through it, but it was all talk… In the end…all I could do
was wait to be saved… I'm weak, weak…weak… I hate it…"
Tears fell from Taiga's still closed eyes. Then her hands relaxed.
Suddenly the weight of her whole body was on his arm. Ryuuji desperately
directed all his strength into his right arm. He pulled Taiga's torso with all
of his strength, but his foot slipped, and he lost his balance.
They would fall—they were falling—
"Huh?!"
There was a sturdy hand being offered right before his eyes. Adults
wearing matching gaudy fluorescent outfits came down one after another,
and in the blink of an eye, lightly lifted Ryuuji and Taiga along with them.
It was the people from the ski resort, or maybe the police.
"Are you okay?! You're not hurt?!"
"I'm not! But Taiga! There's blood, here…"
He didn't care what they were or who they were. Ryuuji wailed
desperately at someone who handed him a blanket. We got it, the adults in
the fluorescent clothes answered with nods and ran off carrying Taiga.
He couldn't even sit. He just fell onto the snow and gasped. His
vision was painted over white—it was the blizzard. The blizzard has
penetrated all the way into his head.
He realized that Minori had rushed over to his side. Kitamura, too.
Finally, he knew what it was that they couldn't tell him. He also knew how
stupid he had been.
The knot that held everything together had been undone. It had been
pulled too hard, and the string was tearing.
"Kitamura… I need a favor."
Ryuuji rested his head on the borrowed shoulder of his worried
friend. "Could you say that you were the one who went down to save Taiga
just now? If Taiga asks, tell her you didn't hear anything. Taiga was
unconscious the entire time. She didn't say anything. Please tell her that…
please!"
Kitamura supported Ryuuji's jacket-clad back. "I didn't say anything
because Aisaka asked me to keep it a secret, but—"
Through the goggles, he couldn't see Kitamura's expression.
"During the new year, I happened to run into Aisaka. She seemed
really depressed and seriously asked me…if she could pay respects to me as
the Patron Saint of Broken Hearts. Does it have anything to do with that?"
Ryuuji didn't answer. He couldn't answer. If he opened his mouth, he
didn't know what kind of sound he would make.
"So it does… Right. So, that happened on Christmas Eve, and then
New Year's happened. I see…"
No one was at fault. It's not your fault. Kitamura's words were blown
away in the blizzard.
***
In the end, Taiga was mostly uninjured. God had definitely given her
a sturdy body suitable for a klutz.
When they sat down for dinner, the teachers recounted that she just
had a small graze on her temple. Apparently, she just wanted to die from
embarrassment at causing such a fuss.
Ryuuji heard relieved voices from all over the place, but some
tactless individual raised their hand and asked, "Does that mean we can see
her tomorrow?"
However, the bachelorette's (age 30) response was surprising.
"Well, Aisaka-san will spend the night in the hospital, and then
tomorrow, her mother will pick her up. So, she's going home ahead of us.
It'd be hard for her to travel by bus again like that."
Without thinking, Ryuuji dropped his chopsticks.
Her mother—did that mean her real mother? Was her mother, who
didn't even come when Taiga was suspended, who had never so much as
shown up at their school, going to come to this remote ski resort? Even
when Taiga was practically uninjured?
"That's great, isn't it, Taka-kun?! Tiger's gonna be fine~!"
"Uh, yeah…"
Haruta's eyes stopped on Ryuuji's chest pocket. "Huh? So that
hairpin ended up getting back to you, huh, Taka-chan?"
Ryuuji had stuck it unthinkingly in his pocket when he picked it up
from the snow. Haruta whispered in his ear like an idiot, "Actually, is this
the Christmas present that you tried to give…that person before? You threw
away wrapping paper with trees on it, too, didn't you? I saw it, but I didn't
understand what it meant until now…"
"Basically…"
Ryuuji's head was still in the middle of a storm. Even as he shrugged
his shoulders in affirmation, he wasn't seeing anything around him at all.
There was too much to think about.
That was why he hadn't noticed. Sitting just a bit away from them, a
certain person had turned herself into a full-body radar unit as she tried to
eavesdrop on what Ryuuji had to say. When she heard their conversation,
she immediately understood.
She understood the results of everything she had been doing on
purpose and even the things she'd done completely unintentionally.
Without anyone seeing, she stood up silently and ran from the noisy,
boisterous dining room. She jogged out into the freezing hallway and
arrived at the unoccupied lounge.
She collapsed onto the sofa that Ryuuji had been sitting on the night
before.
She clutched her knees and buried her face as tears ran under her
hands. She didn't know why she was sad, but she knew only that she hated
her thin, girlish hands. She absolutely hated her hands, which were only
good for hiding her face as she cried.
Alone, Minori covered her face with her hands, shrinking smaller and
smaller into a ball as she cried soundlessly for some time.
The blizzard was supposed to end the next day.
However, the sound of the wind throwing snow against the windows
was fierce. It blew violently enough to freeze their feet, even as it continued
to shake the windows.